The Power of Your Testimony

"And they overcame him [the devil] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death." (Revelation 12:11).

Your testimony is about what you have experienced – what you have seen and heard. A real Christian can talk about their experiences with God through Jesus Christ. We as Christians are called to a relationship of real communication with the Son of God. God comes to live inside us. Things change. God deals with every person in a different way. The more Christians that come forward and talk about how God has intervened in their life, the more people will begin to realise that God is for real, miracles do happen, and prayer works. This will inspire others to seek God and turn from their sins so that they too can know the peace and satisfaction that comes to a person who truly gives their life over to God.

Acts 1:8 says, "But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you shall be witnesses to Me in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth." To be a witness to Jesus is to speak and communicate the things that you have seen and heard in your life, that happened because of Jesus. Its the Holy Spirit who makes Jesus real to us, and makes Jesus real through us.

God's plan is for people to hear the good news that Jesus Christ payed for their sins, and conquered death for us through rising from the dead. After believing, people should go on to receive the power of the Holy Spirit, and then testify to others what God has done for them.

One of the greatest testimonies was from a power pagan emperor who came to know that the God of Israel was indeed God over all. King Nebuchadnezzar actually said in an announcement that went across the whole known world:

"I thought it good to declare the signs and wonders that the Most High God has worked for me." (Daniel 4:2).

Like Nebuchadnezzar, we should seek to glorify God all over the world. Now, with the advent of the internet, it is possible to do this all over the world with very modest resources. I want to encourage YOU to do your part in spreading the fame of our God by writing down your story and sharing it with us all through the medium of the internet. I have done this myself and my story, although not especially dramatic, has reached thousands of people around the world and continues to provoke responses from readers in the form of e-mail messages. I personally have collected scores of testimonies from all over the world, many of which can be read on my site here. Many people are getting challenged and uplifted by this. You too can share your story with the world through this site and others with a similar purpose. You can reach people that no one else can reach.

The Bible says, "Oh, give thanks to the Lord! Call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples!" (1 Chronicles 16:8). If you have been rescued by God from your sin and the consequences of it, one of the ways you can express thanks to God is by telling others of what happened. Writing your story down will equip you to share it verbally with others, and will enable you to reach at least one person per day for the rest of your life for the Lord. 

Other Considerations on Sharing your Testimony

If you have really drawn near to God, you will be like Peter, who said, "For we cannot but speak of the things we have seen and heard" (Acts 4:20) even when he was persecuted and threatened on account of his testimony, and the power of the name of Jesus that he was operating in. The most important thing to testify of, though, is not physical miracles, as wonderful as they are, but the way God has redeemed your soul – bought you out of the hand of the devil for himself. The Bibles says in Psalm 107:2, "Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, Whom He has redeemed from the hand of the enemy". Its a wonderful thing when we can honestly testify that we now know God has forgiven our sins. If God has redeemed you, then you should say so – publicly. And one of the best public forums today for this is the internet.

What if your testimony is not so great?

Your testimony does not have to be super dramatic or unusual to be effective. Not everyone can relate personally to a sensational testimony. If on the other hand your testimony is weak because you can't point to a change in your life, could it be that you have not really consecrated your life to God properly? Are you trying to living with one foot in God's Kingdom, and the other in Satan's?

The Bible says, "For this you know, that no fornicator, unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, has any inheritance in the Kingdom of Christ and God. Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of these things the wrath of God comes upon the sons of disobedience." (Ephesians 5:5,6).

Is your heart still in love with this present age, this world system? If so, it would be a great time to decide to live for God and to get serious about it, because none of us are guaranteed a tomorrow. Perhaps your testimony is weak because you have not given attention to the wonderful truths concerning the Holy Spirit and overcoming Satan that can be found in God's Word. I have begun to explain these things on my site elsewhere, for example, here. God wants your testimony to be strong, so you can live unashamed before God and men, and give honor and glory to God. He wants your life to show forth His power – what He can do. And God has done absolutely amazing things for people in all kinds of trouble, who were messed up and without natural hope. Some testimonies of how God helped such people can be found on this site.

If God has worked powerfully in your life, please share it so others can benefit. It will remind you of how God has worked and it will encourage others to believe in God. It may be the means by which another precious person comes to a saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus. So do it. Begin to write down your story.

How to Organise your Testimony

If you read Acts 26:1-29 and Acts 22:1-21 you will see two examples of how the apostle Paul gave his testimony in the midst of great pressure, where his destiny hung in the balance. Paul talked about his early life, before meeting Christ – both the good and the bad points. Then he talked about how Christ revealed Himself to him and his response. In Acts 26 (where he was not interrupted) he is able to spend more time talking about his life since his conversion. Its good to devote about 40% to "Before Christ", about 20% to the conversion experience, and about 40% to "After Christ". People want to know what kind of a difference Christ made in your life. Be honest and authentic. Don't try to make it look better than it is, or to make your past sound worse than it really was. God will bless a testimony that is truthful. People are usually pretty good and spotting phony things. Don't be like the American politician who reputedly told voters how important religion was to him, and how his favorite verse was John 16:3 when he probably meant to have said John 3:16. You'll get a laugh if you read what John 16:3 actually says.


PLEASE DON'T WRITE YOUR TESTIMONY IN CAPITAL LETTERS. Use lower case, its much more attractive. Try to break up the main sections or thoughts into different paragraphs. Use short sentences and a simple, unaffected style. It makes it easier to understand. Aim to point out the effect that meeting the Lord had on your soul, after you surrendered to Him. Share how you felt. Don't use religious words and biblical phrases that people untrained in the Bible are not familiar with. Even a lot of church people don't understand a lot of the biblical phrases, or the meaning of words. Try to make your testimony clear for someone who has no knowledge of God or the Bible, and as you write it, put yourself in their shoes.

How to Publish your Testimony

I recommend that you register as a user on this site and then go to this testimony creation link to create and categorise your testimony on this site.

Besides e-mailing your testimony to me and others who may wish to publish it on their sites, it is really a great idea to get your own free home page. These can be obtained in many places. You can make slightly different versions of your testimony and set it up at multiple home pages. You can also include on your site other information that relates to you. You might wish to write about your hobbies, your family, or your interests. If you have knowledge of something in life that others may benefit from, consider making a page or two about it and publishing that – people will find that information and some of them will come to your testimony. Make sure every page on your site links to your testimony. If you want to invest some money consider getting a domain name of your own, because this may get you better listings. Its definitely worth it to reach more people for the Lord. Try to get reciprocal links with other Christian testimony pages because it will bring more traffic in for your page too. All this does require a bit of effort but it is not as difficult as it sounds. Consider investing a few hundred dollars to get a professional to do it for you if you want to do something really nice but don't have the technical expertise. At the very least, type your testimony in, and e-mail it to me. You could also try recording it on a tape. Audios can also be published on the internet.

I encourage you to do this today. You can always upgrade and improve your writing but the main thing is to do it. You will then have something which God can take hold of and use for His glory. Then send an email to testimonies AT" with your testimony so I have the opportunity to help you publish it. I do publish most of the testimonies I receive. God bless you.


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  1. This is my testimony but before I start, I feel it’s more important to give you some insight into my childhood, so that you can be able to understand some of the decisions I made and task I took later on in my life. Every decisions and tasks, I have made or taken respectively during my life time, good and bad, is what has brought me to who lam now today.

    I was born by a Moslem mother and a catholic father and here in Uganda , usually children follow their father’s region, so for that reason I and my siblings we were raised as Catholics. We went to church basically on Easter Sundays and Christmas. I was brought up knowing God but missing out the whole idea of who really Jesus; accepting him as my personal Saviour and the fact that he died on the cross for my sins.

    Being the first born, I enjoyed special privileges from the day one till I was 4 years compared to my six siblings(Sandra Nakiyimba 18yrs, Dinah Nalukwago 16yrs, Oliver Nabisere 15yrs, Allan Kmbugwe 12yrs, Isaac Kiyimba 10yrs and Patrick Ssekamanya 3yrs) because my parents did whatever was necessary so that I could enjoy a happy life.

    As I turned 4 years, my parents never gave me whatever I asked for on a daily basis as it was in the past, things like sweets, ice cream and toys and by doing this, they were grooming me into a more responsible child so they taught me that the things I ask for; costs something to get that something in life and that something is their sweat as parents, this gave me a positive thinking that; whatever I wanted in life, I had to first work for it, in other words my parents never gave me the fish but instead gave me the fish rod

    My life turn around in 1999 when we were evicted forcefully from the land were we were residing by an investor who had sited the area as suitable to boost his plan future business with little compensation compared to the property damaged and the value of land. This is when I started missing school due to failure to pay the tuition in time because at this time, my parents’ financial spending had widened; (rent, food, school fees, basic needs) which not that case before because spending on rent was never on their budget and we used to have a small garden which provided a small portion on the food we consumed annually.

    Back then schooling seemed such an easy thing as I literally moved from one class to another, with tuition fully paid. So I always felt like vanishing when I and my siblings were sent away from school due to a fee balance and in 2004,I sat my Uganda Certificate Education but unfortunately I could not continue because the higher I went the more it worth.

    The situation worsened, in 2005 when my parents separated, months after Patrick the last born was given birth to, so we as children had to stay with our father, who left home early and came back home very late when every one was a sleep and this is were it become, my concern to take up our mother responsibility towards my six siblings as well Patrick who was months by then, guiding, protecting and caring was my role towards them. I found myself in a place in life that seems unbearable and I often questioned whether I will be able to stand the test of this responsibility. I always wondered if I would handle the weight of the situation I was subjected too because at first; my siblings would not listen to whatever I told them and this only brought about conflicting.

    I always asked myself on how I will teach my siblings what right from wrong? And how to pass on to them a sense of morality, values and social responsibility and one time as I was sharing the situation I was in with a colleague of mine, he recommended me to accept Jesus as my personal Saviour and ask him strength and wisdom on how to deal with the situation I was in. I told him being through all of this, my bible was never far though I hardly read it, and he advised me, “Having a bible, reading it or not does not bring you closer to Jesus, it about accepting Him and having Faith in Him that he can deliver you. What most of us don’t realize, however, is just how much Jesus loves us. Jesus is showing us and telling us how much He loves us everyday and God will never give you more than you can handle, if he has brought to this kind of situation, He will bring you through it.”

    With those words I rededicated my life to the lord and become a born again Christian and from that day on, the Lord has given me a hunger for His word and relationship with him. I started bring back my siblings to Christ again though for them they are still Catholics and their behaviors changed since them even though we had some days when our father was a burden to us, he always came back home late, looked for a slight mistake to start up a fight and he always canned by siblings with no good reason, this internally hurt me always but I had nothing do, all of my siblings even Patrick the last born hated him but I always told them to love our father regardless of harm is causing to them because they are many children out their without their parent, so we should praise and be thankful to God that our parents are still alive, and we always prayed for our father to have a heart of compassion towards us his children, this was my first tough battle of my life in salvation, I always went to God in tears and told him, “Lord if it got worse than this I would surely die!” And a few months down the road it got worse and I didn’t die; He gave me the grace to fight in prayer.

    Months later, it got even worse and yet I still fought on declaring that He is Lord and Saviour . At that point I had give up issuing Him with ultimatums of me dying and I just panted: “Give me the strength. I still love you. Give our father the heart of compassion!” Day by day, our father’s harsh attitude towards us deteriorated

    God gave me strength a wisdom and sooner, my siblings started listening to whatever I had to say and followed with out questioning as it was before and people who hardly knew me before think my siblings are my own children and I did always kept my sisters in daily prayers so that God can help to over come this world’s challenges, like unwanted pregnancies and deadly diseases associated with unprotected sex and I always urged them, not to admire what they don’t have to avoid temptations because time will come when each one will own what they admired before.

    I felt the love of God upon us. My duty as an elder was to provide two types of food to them, the physical and spiritual food for the proper growth of my siblings. I made sure I taught my siblings to worship and praise God and my sisters are in the Catholic choir. I did this by giving each one of them a chance to sing and dance to their worship song; I sow in them the word of God by reading the bible collectively and asking them to recite some of the verses. And this is why I considered myself privileged

    Our mother finally came back home, though, she does not stay but she spends much time with us now like it was never before.

    I now know that God was taking care of me, even before, He saw what I would be one day in Him. I give God all I am today and all that He is shaping and training me to be and he answered my question of “where can I see you God?” God has proved to me that through my siblings, relatives and friends like Katuramu, Gerald, Wanda and Lea Hutto, God did revealed himself to me after all Jesus became human through Jesus Christ and am very thankful that they came my way because I have always been blessed with them thus learning that it’s not what we have in life but who (Friends) we have in life that counts.

    I tell you if God were to reward us for our deeds, I don’t think we would get anything from HIM. Trust I, we are largely undeserving; at least that is how I see myself but o need an act of compassion in most areas of my life. I need for God to see my situation and this year. I have resolved to be less demanding and more thankful to God, after all, doesn’t the bible say that he know the plans he has for us, plans to prosper me and not to harm; Bible says our names are written in the palms of His hands? So why fret for the plans God has for you that He has already accomplished, give thanks for the plans He has for you that He is still perfecting, rest in him and give thanks for every step you take in your wilderness give thanks.I thank God for giving me the gift of salvation because without Him, I wouldn’t have overcome the challenges of this world. The Lord has done so many good things in my life.
    Ivan Ddungu Barnes
    Email;[email protected]

  2. sobhuza says:

    Before i suffred from severe tinnitus and sensorial hearing loss i was a christian always occasionally praying before sleeping giving thanks to our Lord. I can say was a follower of Christ but i did not give him full authority of my life and still still lived my life as i wished.

    After clubbing one night i woke up with a terrible sense of muffled hearing and a loud high pitched ringing in my rigth ear (tinnitus).which happened to be constant and did not seem to go away.worse was that i had sensorial hearing loss which comes as a result of noise induced hearing loss. i have to say that i loved loud music my room has a loud subwoofer, my brother’s car has subwoofer’s and amp’s as well. I thought i could never go deaf or lose my hearingas a result of music related hearing loss. The day after the clubbing i thought it would eventually go away as we all exprience a ringing in our ears after a loud event or sound. I also thought the muffed earing would eventually go away and my hearing would return to normal. To my suprise my hearing didnt return to normal and the ringing was constant and annoying. I decided to blow my noise to reduce the felling of muffed ears sucked inwards, as i blew my ears i could hear better suddenly when my ear pressure equalised my hearing would dumpen and the tinnitus was just as bad.

    I was worried sick, went online checked for my condition and found there are no cures lest people do is habitate to the sound. Or use sound maskers to make more barerable when sleeping as tinnitus gets ;louder when people are in silent rooms without an external sound.
    I thought my God what im going to tell my dad? My dad has always warned me about the dangers of playing loud music in my room and has always contiued to do so. I was worried and didnt want to annoy him. I knew i had to, otherwise if i didnt the condition could get worse. I told him he got angry and blamed it on my carelessness of playing loud music and my over exposure to loud places which was true. i felt ashamed and a sense of guilt filled me. What was i to do? i started praying to God to forgive me and help restore my hearing almost on every oppourtunity i found to pray and prayed that i would change my life for the better of a christian life. My dad made an appointment with an ear specialist whom understood my condition. He understood my muffed ear feeling and firstly thought it was earwax. He checked my ears to his suprise my ears were normal but my ear drum was red and swollen and it did hurt.He suspected that could be the cause but he wasnt sure.

    He conducted a hearing test and found out i had sensorial heraing loss in the high frequencies which meant i was going to have trouble hearing human vocal pitches and the vowels ‘s’. He told me i was going to need my earing aid for the rest of my life. Sorry, i forget to mention i hav a condition called Single sided deafness which means i can only hear on one ear. my right ear is deaf i dont know how but thats how i have always been. I asked God why? why my ears? they are precious to me, out of all things u making me deaf? i will not evn be able to hear my child’s first cry by the time im getting married if this continues I WAS WORRIED! i lost my concentration, i was focused on my hearing problem i thought it would only get WORSE. BUT guess what? God had better plans.

    As my tinnitus contiued to suck the life out of me i contiued to take basic neuro medicine to help calm the nerves as tinnitus is a complex condition concerning a neuro problem in the brain or ear. The medicine seemed to help but gave me short term relief i fell into dispair and had to carry my hearing aid everywere. I was questioning God why now? im just starting university and my ears are muffed i thought this is bad timing for a crisis like this. As i started university i put all my trust in the Lord Jesus to giude me through my lecture’s luckely enough the first 2 weeks were orientaion and i was using my hearing aid. however my mind was focused on my problems not the lecturer. So i thought wat more of the lessons? i remembered God’s word to put my trust in him and not my understading and i did. I just stayed positive minded.Even though it wasnt easy. My dad just kept smiling and said ”everything will be fine ur lucky many people in this life hav nothing compared to what u have.Ur even lucky u hav a hearing aid.”

    Weeks went by till my tinnitus became severe, one day i broke down looking at a picture of Jesus Christ that promised mercy for those that needed healing. I cried so hard when i looked at the picture i went to the toilet and tried to cover my tears but the feeling of helplessness was so strong i fell on my knees and asked God to forgive me and give me a second chance in my life. I contiued to cry untill the Holy sprit guided to Matthew 6-24 34:

    “No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.

    25″Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; 29yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? 31Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.

    34″Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day’s own trouble be sufficient for the day.

    That was a powerful verse that calmed my soul and spirit, peace was upon me. Still my tinnitus and hearing did not improve. As days went by one day i was browsing through testimonies of how people were healed by God and wished that God would heal me soon enough. I came across a page that tesified the power of fasting. A woman beat the Devil by fasting for her condition that doctors could not cure. She was cured after 3 days of fasting. I didnt know what to do but i just said…”Lord i think i will just fast so that u may acknowledge me and answer my prayers, i will fast with water only and no food.” I stared my fast pretty strong.For 2 days i went without food just water no juice and i expreiced suffering like no other and compassion. I was weak by the 2nd day but determined to honour my fast. On the second day my father knew i havent eaten for 2days he said i should eat otherwise my tinnitus and hearing cannot get better. I remembered a verse that says honour your father and mother, in my heart i said ” Lord my God, im soory if i have to eat but my father said i should eat” and i ate. I think God wanted me to LISTEN to my dad and start HEARING his wisdom cause i had a tendancy of saying ”whatever man”in my heart when he spoke. Now i know that by listening to our parents we get blessed by taking their wisdom and putting it in our hearts.

    To be honest i don not know when my hearing was restored but after that event when i obeyed my dad and fasted, a couple of days went by and i noticed i started hearing much better and my tinnitus gradually reduced. I didnt know what was going weather it was the medication or just my imagination. BUT i KNOW for sure someone in heaven ANSWERED MY PRAYERS AND HIS NAME HIS JESUS CHRIST. Jesus paid for our sins, today im a competely changed person and exprienced God’s love and mercy. TRULY ASK and it u shall RECEIVE. May GOD BLESS YOU.

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  4. How God works!

    Yesterday I was reading everyone’s testimony and thought of giving mine.
    I like most people who are in love with the Lord get daily devotionals in my email box. The day after I thought of given my testimony, I received Insight for Today by Charles E Swindoll dated March 12, 2009 Your Testimony, Part One. As God is directing me to share how He wants me to tell all who will listen and read.

    I was scammed out of thousands of dollars from some very evil men from Africa by way of the internet.
    I was so ashamed by my foolishness; I no longer wanted to live. My mind said that if I killed myself my family could pay the debt I accrued from the scammers with my life insurance. I did not know what to do. My heart was heavy. Then God spoke to me and said 1 Corinthians 10:13

    Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he falls. No temptation has over- taken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

    Once this was spoken to me in my spirit, I felt a peace come over me that I have never felt before. The money that was scammed no longer bounded me. I started the process of file bankrupt and wiped the debt off. In Christ Jesus, we are forgiven. I was able to keep my house and my car. My name now holds that questionable, question as to whether or not I can pay but I feel a small price compared to what the other way I thought out of my burden.
    At that point forward I seek the Lord everyday, reading His word for the truth, praying to Him in all things. Knowing my soul, my spirit lives in Him who gave me life. Not life as we live on this earth but life from within to know that I am worth more then all the gold & silver or precious stones that this earth holds. That I am loved, and cared for. Nothing can take the love God has for me away. With each step closer to the end of this life the happier I become to knowing I will see my Savoir Jesus Christ face to face.
    So if your down hearted needing a friend, call on the only true everlasting friend there is Christ Jesus.
    He will listen to you no matter what time of day. He will comforter you. His love will shine though you. Strange as it all sounds. It is real. It is true. Others will see this in you, knowing you are set apart, you are HIS .
    Now things of this world no longer hold me. Money is paper that is printed, to be spent, to be lost, to be stolen, and to mold. But the treasure God puts in you can not be lost, stolen, spent or molded. For everyday is a new day. A day for you to light the way for those that are lost. For you to shine with His love.

    Where I work I answer the phones, cheerful and happy that God has blessed me another day here. Some people have ask why I am so cheerful, the truth, there is a new song in my heart, a new purpose to be.
    I once read that your presence is a gift to all those that come into your life. And when we get to God’s kingdom we will be greeted by others, some faces you will know but most you will not, the reason is as we live our essence is reflective in others. That smile you gave freely, that passing hello, that helpful hand in time of need.
    Once saved, I was in the grocery store going down the aisle I saw a bag on the floor before I reached that part of the aisle a woman picked up the bag and placed it back onto the shelf, as I passed her I said Thank You, so surprised was her expression she asked WHY!
    I said for you were thoughtful and pick up that bag when others walk on by. I could tell by her reaction & expression what my words had done. It let her know I was watching and notice her thoughtfulness but also God was watching.
    These are the things God wants us to do, but in our busy get here, get here lives, we are blinded by the small things. But once you have eyes to see & ears to hear, let your heart be filled with His love. His love for you, for a stranger, for a friend and even your enemies . The love you will feel in return will be seven fold. And your desire to do it again and again will grow. Sure there will be those moments that you will feel what for, but then think why Jesus die for you and your discouragement will fade.

    If your reading this it is because you were called, but you must chose to listen to God voice to see where you go from here.
    God will not force you, God will not push you to accept this free gift. It’s all up to you to give your heart to Him. It’s your choice!

    I pray that I am one of those faces that you don’t know when you get to heaven but once you look at me, you will see the glory of the Lord Jesus shining though me. Because my pray is for you to be saved and blessed
    Thank you for reading this.
    One of God’s children
    [email protected]

  5. well first of all i wanna say God bless too all my brothers and sisters in Chirst…i am 20 years of age, young yes, young at mind no. At the age of 13 i was smoking weed every day of my life. Was into rock music. Love everythinh they had too do with blood and guts and killing. was disrespectful to my parents didnt care about anything. Dropped out of school and didnt think i was goin to do anything with my life. the way i was going i was thinking to myself “i have two ways out jail or death” and they way i was goin i do believe those were my roads. everyday before i left and did what ever i did i will always read psalm 121(this too me i believe kept me alive and i grace) aswell i had a chain about the mustard seed. there was a day i got high out of my mind and i needed to meet my mom is the hospital for a blood test. so i was so scared and i was high and i was like no why am i goin to see my mom like this. so i was walking around then i heared a voice telling me imma show you how your life is goin to be. i was thinking it was the weeb but it really was the voice of God. he told me to make a left but i didnt what too go. so when i wanted to move i couldnt so i felt as if a hand took me and pulled me so when i was walking the voice tells me when u hit the corner look down and when i did i saw 2 bumbs (God bless them) then the voice told me to walk and again i didnt want too but God took me and was in control. so he made me stand in the middle of a block then i saw an ambulence racing down the block and i was looking. they went into a house and a teenagers that looked like me was on the bed and the mother(which looked like my mom) said,,will he live??!! and they told her we dont know this is the worst OD we have seen….right there and then the chain(mustard seed) i had around my neck felt like 72348738947 pounds and dropped me. and the voice of God told me u always had my word around your nrck and you never looked at it….then i gave up balling in tears and shouting too God that i give up and take my life…from that day praise and glory belong too God i have been saved and free!!!! yes i still mess up but i try…thats what God wants someone who fights and try in the lords power…i pray that if there is a youth readinh this..u dont need drugs sex this world too b happen…all u need is God…and to everyone i pray that u open ur heart and look for God..he is coming and he is looking for his church in white…white cloths as love my ppl to everyone..may the Lord bless everyone here…and if u havent let God in…say this prayer with your hole heart..God i am a sinner..for give me in the name of Jesus have mercy on me and wright my name in the book of life..and i accpet your son Jesus as my savior..God bless ppl…one Love

  6. frankcrasta says:

    Dear sister Leela,
    Greeting in the wonderful name of Jesus. I was inspired by your post about your deep faith & relationship with Jesus & the joy, peace, hope, strength & health you are experiencing through the help of His holy word & His Holy Spirit. Do continue to grow & be inspired by being tuned to His still small voice, and also share the good news of His salvation to all your family, friends & neighbours, this way you can be really grateful for His grace, work & blessings in your life. Keep being encouraged through this wonderful Christian resource site & by continuing to share your testimonies in this blog.
    God bless you.

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    I was born in the year 1979, on top of Moóca in Sao Paulo. My parents lived in San Vicente, Sao Paulo coast. My brothers also lived in the same house; in all, five people made up my family.
    My father was a big fan of the bands of “ROCK IN ROLL.” This season He had a great Record collection. I was Born in the “CRADLE OF ROCK” and learned to Love this music style still in the womb of my dear mother. Over the years I was aware of other rock bands. Increasingly, my father bought new discs for listening at home, therefore, had a good stereo sound, and knew also build your own boxes amplified. Some discs were “strange”, with drawings of “monster”, “Bat”, “women NUDE” and even “Devil.” At home I always understand my father nervous, and sometimes fight with us without any reason.

    In 1985 my parents moved to the city of Suzano, in the great Sao Paulo. My father, however, continued buying their favorite discs. From month in months He bought a new disc of rock, and I listened to them all. Trying to understand what the singers were in the music, I started studying English in my own home, using books, magazines, k7 tapes, videos etc …
    At 12 years of age I started to smoke, so I was losing the desire to study, and thus began to fail in school, as was being dominated by satanic influences of the “ROCK IN ROLL.”

    Came in the way of prostitution for 14 years, I smoked and drank beer with the “friends”. In an attempt to live “free” and “peace” I walked to the bottom of the pit each day that passed. Profane the bed of my parents with a “girlfriend”, I with 14 and she with 12 years of age.

    We felt “adult” and very “responsible” far from our parents.
    When completed 15 years I left the school, my mother was very saddened by this bad decision. At home I brigava daily with my mother and discussed with my brothers. Always said to my mother:

    “I hate LIVE, I want to die, I did not ask to be born.”

    My mind wiping out at an accelerated pace, without which I could understand because there was no strength in me to think about the danger that surrounding me.

    My brother was in love with electronic music, this style of music I also drew a lot, because there was a tendency electronic transmission to large Sao Paulo early in 1990, with several nightclubs geared for this musical genre brought from Europe by various DJ’s and singers of dance music.

    The electronic music is one of the strands of ROCK, many elements of “JAZZ” and the “Blues” are mixed in the “Dance”, “TECHNO” and “HOUSE MUSIC.”
    There is plenty of “ROCK IN ROLL” in other musical styles, but it’s ROCK in particular that I want to address here.

    In 1997 I met a very controversial rock band, whose leader and Satan and also believe homosexuality. This band uses two names of personalities who made American history.

    This group has a central figure:

    “Marilyn Manson.”

    * Bryan Warner: Reverend of the CHURCH of Satan.

    Marilyn Manson makes apology to Satan and the homosexual, his concerts are filled with allusions THE Nazism, anarchy, rebels, depravity, insult to the Christian faith, violence and drug use.

    In 1994 Bryan Warner (Marilyn Manson) was devoted reverend of the Church of Satan “by” ANTON LA Vey ”


    In 1997 ANTON LA Vey died and Marilyn Manson took the post of Reverend of Satan.

    Antichrist superstar

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    My life changed dramatically after having known this band of rock.
    Then I started to disclose the name of this group of rock for all my “friends” and spent the floor with CD’se VIDEOS this band for all places where I spent.
    I was hypnotized by the rock and did not understand.

    I remember when we made some gathered at the home of one of our “friends”; there ouvíamos “rock” and talked about our future, about what we would be in subsequent years.

    It was at night and we bought a bottle of wine for “A CELEBRATION” that “HAPPY HOUR”. We started to drink and chat about various subjects. Some have not smoked, or had even experienced some type of drug, but a bad influence for me to experience and other times a cigarette.
    Everything was very normal for us because we were blind and far from a reality conscious.

    The music of Marilyn Manson were on our lips daily; conseguíamos not free ourselves from dirty and empty life, for more than lutássemos our effort was in vain. Burn several CDs of rock, however, this was unnecessary, because the fight was spiritual and we did not know.

    Right place, my cousin told me he was feeling a great void in his soul, and then we were sinking more and more on alcohol and the rock, looking for a “peace” that seemed to be running away from us. Those were the worst days of our lives. To buy a magazine about rock, in the section of ads we read the following sentence:


    It was an invitation to a young man who was looking for musicians to build their band of “TRASH METAL.”
    When you read that ad were surprised to hear that someone was able to worship Satan himself. How much spiritual blindness we had in those days!
    Sometimes was shocked by the translation of music from rock to listen.

    After those days I started to feel desire for suicide every night; thought that taking my own life I would be in peace, but it did not go for a big onslaught of the devil to destroy my life. I spent drawing pictures of demons in my room, painting scenes of lesbianism, Satanism.

    I wrote letters of music content with morbid, sad and depressing. Hear voices calling me that I was alone at home or on the streets. Always came to my ears the rock songs we escutávamos.
    Each day that passed I felt more empty inside, and thought only in SUICIDE.

    I Burning repeatedly ROCK OF MY CDs, but nothing on and I bought OTHER AGAIN.

    For me these discs were of rock as if it were my food, I felt a junkie, trapped by the rock.

    In 1997 the singer “Marilyn Manson” released an album entitled diabolical:

    Antichrist superstar = ANTICHRIST The SUPER STAR.

    • I bought this CD – ALBUM AND LISTEN-The twenty-four hours a day.

    THIS CD CONTAINS LETTERS TO SATAN discard the people in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, bringing SLAVERY SPIRITUAL, AND DESTRUCTION TO OUR LIVES curse.

    But I was blind, with no affection for those who die on the cross to save us.

    ** There was IN LOVE ME, HATE AND ONLY lot of desire to die.


    In television, the channel’s “MTV-MUSIC TELEVISION” the daily rock and Satanism is spread freely to children and adolescents worldwide. Thus the devil winning the minds and hearts of those who are the future of the world. The “MTV” is a station that transmits a philosophy totally contrary to the will of Allah, destroy morale and spiritually and young children.

    Already fully involved with the rock, looking to form a band to sing with the “friends”, but nothing worked. After much time trying to be equal to the singers of rock, then began to plan the suicide.

    I took a riot, drunk me daily, feel contempt for my own life. He was a slave of vices and the rock, trying to be happy; shackled by the satanic music.

    I remember two “friends” who also loved the rock,

    ‘Richard and Reginald. ”

    They had long hair and dresses in black when left to the “ballads.”

    They worship the “Gothic”, voiced his bands you most like: “THE CURE”, “THE CULT”, “The Smiths”, “OPERA MULT STEEL” etc …

    Tocavam in their homes, had a band of “ROCK INDUSTRIAL” and thus took his life. His favorite song lyrics were bleak, sad, depressive, with a view to the future.


    Sometimes I meet with them to rehearse some songs, and spent several hours talking about rock in roll. Whenever I went to sleep put a CD of rock for me to hear during the night, but had horrible nightmares frequently.

    My favorite song at bedtime was “Bloody KISS” “Bloody BEIJOS,” the band: “The` NEGATIVE `TYPE.”
    A band of BLACK METAL with Gothic influences, too.

    In disturbing dreams by madrugadas I track in another world.
    SOMETIMES ESTAVA in caverns dark and desert land, sometimes was in high seas; drowned.

    Always dreamed with “BEASTS” running after me to kill me, they were terrible visions while I slept.
    For many years I lived tormented by these dreams and DEVIL NIGHTMARES

    Made sure I went to sleep because of night. I felt that something had come into my mouth, did not know what it was, but I started to turn in bed trying to spit what they had entered into my mouth. It was this horrible experience. I tried to escape from that situation, but could not.

    Suddenly my mouth began to pronounce words in a kind of “dialect” strange that I could not even understand what I was talking about. Entered into despair, began to scream, but nobody heard me.

    I FELT my soul EXIT OF MY BODY AND FOLLOW DESCENDING a DARK DEEP CHASM NO END . ROCK looked over the walls and dark THIS abyss and there was no longer any doubt that I was entering the HELL.

    While down this abyss of desperation wanting to go back to my room, in the distance I heard cries of desperation and pain.

    I struggled to try to get back to my room, my bed, but could not. That was true, beyond a simple dream, was a revelation for me, because for me there was no fear of God, for this reason that I was going through:

    “Valley of the shadow of death”.

    This was happening because I have thrown my life to the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, because I lived my life in drugs and prostitution, without me download the Lord Jesus who died on the cross to save me.

    Was in a spiritual world, Suffered FOR MY rebels and the Lord Jesus.

    While I agonize; A Man with nice wearing white glow appears to MIM Abyss Deep inside that DARK, not because there was no ray of light, everything was darkness and suffering.

    By my side when I saw that man came up and holding my hand he told me:


    At that moment I could feel a peace that never felt before anywhere. That man was the Lord Jesus! He took me to a gloomy place, and while caminhávamos realized that there were several holes and craters in the ground that abyss where pisávamos.

    WHILE I was LEAVE OF SMOKE AND FIRE hole in the ground, there was a terrible stink-frog in that place.

    I saw several figures coming out of those black holes and gaps are hiding in the rocky crater.

    They were demons, I WAS ON THE HELL , and they were running away from that man in white robes who was holding in my hand. When we get to the other party, one man in white robes showed me where were men and women, all in chains and asking for help. At that hour I felt a great fear of that place and wanted to leave as soon as possible.

    The screams were terrible from all over.

    That scene was illuminated only with the red flames of fire that left holes in the ground.
    I saw that some men trajavam clothes torn, shabby, as beggars and boozy in that place. I saw that many women were naked, others were with their breasts exposed, others were still with dirty clothes and broken.

    It was horrible that scenario, and the bad smell was unbearable.
    Some men looked at me and asked me some relief and women shout in great agony.

    Today that man in white robes who was beside me told me:

    “_LOOK YOUNG, NOT hold out his hand to help them, because they shackle and arrested THAT ARE HERE ARE PRISONERS IN THIS abyss, you can not release them, THEY COULD NEVER get out of here.”

    And he followed saying:

    “_ALL These men and women lived THEIR LIVES IN THE LAND TO ITS ” LUXURY AND SINS”And do not care about the salvation of their souls, therefore THEM IN THIS CHAINS AS you see. THEM OVER THEIR LIVES passengers do not reach the SALVATION, BEFORE, ALL THEY REJECTED ME disbelief and denying my name …”.

    As I heard those words, I look at those people and felt a deep agony to see how awful it is the suffering of those who go to hell despised by the Lord Jesus Christ.

    I saw that in that place had a gallery for each group of people.

    On one side were the men who have not fulfilled the name of the Lord Jesus, there were “PASTORE, MISSIONARIES, Evangelia, presbyter, Father, Bishop and Deacon.”

    There was also a place reserved for “Killer, rape, ACTORS AND ARTISTS pornography, ARTISTS OF novels, kidnappings, TERRORIST, SUICIDE MAN, Assailant and traffickers.”

    Another wing was reserved for “witch, Satan, witchcraft, Magi, alquimia, Charming, Esoteric, astrologers, necrophilia, Guess, Magic, MEDIUMS, Espirito …”.

    And others who have maintained relations with the OCCULTISM.

    In the gallery of the women were “lesbians, prostitutes, call-girl,” top models “, WOMEN Killer, Abortion and adults.”

    They all wail and despair.

    Demons THE Tormented in every way; WITH beaten, WITH SEXUAL ABUSE, with the big words and insults OF ANY KIND, their punishment was generally in that place …

    There was a huge bronze gate, which was closed. Where we spent percebíamos the uprising of demons, moving from one hole to another in fraction of seconds. They was flying everywhere, always missing the presence of who was walking with me, whose appearance was like lightning.
    Approaching us that huge gate that was locked, suddenly we were in front of a ‘throne’ in a dark color.
    That there was no throne, nor to his side.

    Everything was quiet at that hour, but did not see anyone else. That throne was the throne of Satan, there was his post, which relied to observe the suffering of souls acorrentadas with large chains of iron.

    I noticed that there were no clouds and some Wind in that place, only darkness, fire, smoke, a dry climate and an unbearable heat. Facing this scenario I could contemplate such cruelty among the tears of Satan and his angels, I realized that…

    “Hell is REAL.”
    “Hell is REAL.”
    “Hell is REAL.”


    PART 2




    I remember that I made some lying down to sleep after having smoked my last cigarette. I was browsing some pages of the Bible and soon felt a deep sleep.
    I was disturbed and completely without direction in my life.

    That night, I dreamed that I was inside a bar, I was on foot, normally there at the counter and drank a few doses of alcohol. That bar had only two people: the owner of the bar and me. I spoke a little of my life to that man that I listened carefully, however, could not do anything to help me.

    Suddenly, at a glance, Move closer to U.S. MOUNTED A Man on a horse. YOUR HORSE TINEA LEG enormous; How the legs of a camel.

    It was a black horse and totally weird. I saw when he stopped at the door of that bar, and its rider is leaning to see who was inside. At that point the owner of the bar realized that the strange gentleman called me out making gestures and signs with their hands.

    And so, the owner of the bar acting very afraid I threw out that bar and closed the doors for me. I was paralyzed for a long time, standing on the outside of that bar, facing one rider who trajava a black robe and with his face wrapped in a hood. ON HIS back there was a BIG SHARP SICKLE.

    I listened as he told me:

    “The ME LIVE _VOCÊ call; CORNER MY SONGS …”.

    At that time I was totally without action. Then he continued to say:

    “_I KNOW YOU SPEAK OF MY SONGS FOR YOUR FRIENDS… WHEN YOU TOOK MY RECORDS to listen with your friends, you were calling ME AND CLAIM ThAT´S WHY I came to YOU …”.

    At that moment I asked him:

    “_WHO ARE YOU?”.

    then he answered me:

    “_I AM Marilyn Manson …”.

    When he answered who he really was, I realized that at that time took his hand to the hood and discovered his face gaunt. Could then noted that Knight was being sent by the devil, to bring a message of hell for me.

    Once called me to meet a “ORDER”, if I negasse to obey it, I would be dead. That man had a picture cadaverous. His likeness was that of a corpse, and wanted to scare me. He was a singer of rock Satanic. That gentleman called me to fulfill a mission, whose goal was:


    Was immediately brought to my presence a big black horse and a sharp sickle. In the same instant a deep hatred came into my heart turning me into a monster. Already out of me, I would not get controlled more, I remember I was furious from one place to another in the speed of light. That urban scene where there was a bar, I was taken to a large sandy desert and gloomy.
    I remember that I said to him that he could not kill the Christians, then, I also had relatives Christians.

    BUT, he yelled at KNIGHT GRAND WHATH And said:

    “_NO!!! DON´T SPEAK IN NAME OF BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST THEREFORE WE ARE WE hate Satan and Jesus And we will ultimately TO CHRISTIANITY IN THIS EARTH AND dominate the world …”.

    Then set in that dark horse, already dressed in a BLACK COAT and holding a huge scythe in my hands, and dominated by a force supernatural, I STARTED TO RUNNING TO THE MEETING OF CHRISTIANS TO kill them.

    I heard a noise like that of a large cavalry approaching from me. When I looked into the sides saw thousands of riders dressed all in black capes and with foices in his hands. There were some mountains in that ESCATHOLOGIC SCENES , down from where thousands of riders prepared for a bloody battle. They brought a Satanic symbol printed on his back, it was a hell upside-down, red.
    All of them celebrate the name of “ADOLF HITLER”.

    And said that this war would be like the second world war. They down the mountains with flags in hands, all ready for the confrontation between


    In such moments of terror I saw many Christians in desperation, running away from those knights to save their lives. Many women protect their children, many pastors with Bibles in their hands shout to the Lord Jesus asking for protection.

    I remember that I started to kill the MANY MEN, WOMEN AND CHILDREN IN THAT WAR cruel.

    I had no feeling for anyone around me, I was terribly possessed by demons he commanded my body and my mind, leading me to make those atrocities without mercy. Something that would never be in good conscience.

    “This is the reason why there are so many cruel and barbaric crimes in our day, these crimes are organized by Satan, who came for:

    “KILLING, theft and to overthrow mankind.”

    John 10:10

    In those moments of real terror, I convulse in my bed, trying to wake anyway, but could not.

    Much as I tried, my effort was futile. Even in that bloody war, I saw many people dead and thrown by floors, and others that were still dying with serious injuries by the body.

    They asked for help, but soon their voices silenced in death. I could feel those moments of terror as the sky became gray, and all those knights suddenly disappeared. Even the leader of that killing disappeared without leaving traces.

    After many attacks against these innocent Christians, I was alone. So I wanted to get away and I thought:

    “Where will I?”.

    “I killed WHY BOTH CHRISTIANS?”.

    “How am I going ANSWER SO?”

    “What am I gonna talk to God?”

    “Woe to me, right I go to HELL”

    All that run was finished, and I alone, there, on top of that horse thinking of escape that situation. With a sickle in his hand began to weep bitterly, thinking about the innocent lives that I had killed. And a great sense of guilt broke my heart.
    I was desperate, frightened and quaking at that time.

    Then I started screaming high; increasingly strong, I just wanted to get out of that horrible scene and morbid.
    But something important was about to happen before my eyes. So I was making laps in that sandy desert, into whose sand was the blood of the faithful followers of Jesus Christ.

    I was very bloody and beaten. I was completely abandoned, then went back to my normal state of consciousness, that legion of demons had disembodied from me.
    So I could understand in detail the atrocities that I had committed, and a great fear of it gripped me.
    In a given moment, everything was calm, a deep silence gripped this scenario is ridiculous.

    I looked to my back, my right, my left, but most did not see anyone.
    I noticed that the dead bodies were taken to another place, therefore, have been disappearing as a strong light crossed the skyline getting closer and came from my direction.
    I was scared, I have noticed that I could not move, because that strong light shining ever more intensely.

    When that became glaring light, realized that a man with long white robes walking in my direction.
    Behold their looks angelic, sublime, as the target snow, but I could not see his face, it was like a flame of fire burning.
    He approached me and, raising his hand to heaven, and told me with a soft voice:

    “_hi Young! I know you” …

    Immediately I felt my legs stick on the horse I was mounted. I felt my body soften, but from the waist down I was paralyzed, lost the movements of my legs. My bloody scythe fell to the ground, I felt my lips colarem each other, and thus have no more mouth on my face.
    Meanwhile I tried to justify myself in front of that man with beautiful white robes, filled with a different light of all the natural light that had already covered.

    It was a glaring light, DIVINE, supernatural, CELESTE.

    My body at that time entry into convulsions and a kind of ‘TRANS’ explain that I do not know. That man, whose face was a flame of fire told me:


    Today I felt that my order had arrived. Continued to cry when he told me:


    Today I felt my heart break up inside me, and a deep love for the word of God and the gospel was born in my soul, transforming my entire being.
    I cried a lot while that man kept saying:

    “_MUITO SOON I came back, AI OF IT IS DOING IS NOT PART OF my flock. NOW EU Clears all his transgressions and their sins And FORWARDING TE To nail WHICH ARE THE YOUNG arrested by ROCK, I love the SATAN. Go and preach my word WHY THE END IS NEAR. BUT, IF NOT SATISFIED ME, YOU WILL TO HELL WHERE died and the worms NOT FIRE IS NEVER Delete button.

    MARK 9:44

    After these visions I was scared and folded my knees handing down the steps to my Lord Jesus, for this revelation shook me a lot.
    Some time later, I watched a video of a pastor who spoke of the love of Jesus, and also spoke about the dangers of subliminal messages in songs and cartoons on TV.
    That pastor talked about the Satanism that is true today in many parts of the world, and I was struck with these messages and stories that I opened once and for all my eyes that had been sold by Satan.
    I also heard the testimony of a young rock musician in Holland, who did not know your father was eighteen years, since his mother was a prostitute.
    This young man wore a shirt that had a satanic message that said:

    “I was born to GO TO HELL”

    But he became the Lord Jesus, and took his shirt to rock and roll started in the garbage saying:

    “I go to my house with no shirt, but with Jesus within my heart …”.

    That young man decided to live next to Jesus, and after the trick of the devil, received Christ into your heart and went to his house without shirt, but happy! I’ll never forget that only real witness of the Lord Jesus can perform! When Jesus is all honor and all glory forever, amen!

    While writing this book, I feel a direct attack of darkness trying to silence me so that I do not write and publish this book for many young people read and surrendered their hearts to the Lord Jesus Christ to receive and that young Dutchman, another life, next to Jesus!


    Even today, to remind of my conversion to Christ and called to the ministry, my tears in my eyes water that attended the so diabolical perversity.
    I thank the Lord Jesus for the opportunity to be sharing with you this testimony about my life in the underworld ROCK IN ROLL. Today I am a member of the flock of Christ that very soon we will live in the heavenly mansion.

    I look forward to his return soon, even as he promised in his word saying:


    “See! I am coming soon! How blessed is the person who keeps the words of the prophecy in this book!”


    • “rock – the music from hell” wow….thats all i can say about this…to say that all rock is satanic is ridiculous..i listen to rock and not all rock has something to do with satan and whoever made the articale aperently thinks they r christian well news flash the last time i checked it is against the Bible to judge people and you my friend are judging people….thats all i have to say about this junk. Not all rock is satanic!

    • The last person I ever heard cut down the rock and roll was Jimmy Swaggert.That was right before his own sins became public knowledge. And we all know what happened to him. What’s right for me might not be right for you, spiritually speaking.The Word makes that clear. God knows each of His children’s limits and weaknesses. Just like any good any loving father would. The bottom line is, be very careful what stones you choose top throw. Because one of them undoubtedly has already your own name on it.

    • The last person I heard cutting down the rock and roll was Jimmy Swaggert. That was right before his own sins became public knowledge. And we all know what happened to him. What’s right for me might not be right for you, spiritually speaking.The Word makes that clear. God knows each of His children’s limits and weaknesses. Just like any good any loving father would. The bottom line is, be very careful what stones you choose top throw. Because one of them undoubtedly has already got your own name on it.

  8. I have always believed in Jesus, but in my childhood, I would never spend any time praying or reading scripture, I use to spend most of my day watching TV or playing video games which was laziness in every aspect including spiritually. I was addicted to sexual pleasures of the flesh for years. The ways of wrong were in my daily activity. I was disrespectful to my parents. In my speech filth and profanity. I did not have the Lord in my life. When I was nineteen, a serious revelation in my Commitment to God occurred, I realized that I wanted a stronger relationship with my God, I at first was crushed emotionally thinking it was to late to develop a deep relationship with God. I viewed my self as such a wretched sinner, I wondered would God forgive me. I hated the actions I committed in my past . My spirit was crushed, godly sorrows flooded my heart, but then it hit me, God’s mercy is everlasting. I cried out to the Lord, asking him for a heart of flesh, soon after things changed. a deep love for God developed, through the scriptures getting to know God and our Lord Jesus Christ. I developed hatred of sin in my daily life. I am in no way perfect but through Christ which strengthens me, I sin much less and stay away from things of the flesh, and am spiritually minded. I have by the mercy of our loving God been reborn. I want to help others know truth, I am forever humbled that God’s grace came upon me.
    THANK God our heavenly father for our savior and Lord Jesus Christ

    2 Corinthians 7: For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of ….
    Ezekiel 36: 26

    A new heart also will I give you, and new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh

    2 Corinthians 4: 6

    For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

  9. Former Gangster Rasmus says:

    From Hatred to Freedom – Testimony of Former gangster Rasmus

    As my past as a professional criminal and gangster has been very violent, full of betrayals, lies, broken human relationships, folks have tried to kill me on many occasions, I have been tortured, my close friends have been killed and what ever evil things you could ever imagine, all of that has been part of my life in a very fierceful way. Also the things I have been doing to others and how much I have hurt and wounded many folks in many ways. There is a lot of blood in my hands. I can’t undo things that have been done, how ever much I’d desire to do so. Due to these things I have had to deal with the matter of forgiveness from all the different points very deeply. I have had to forgive others and also to forgive myself and to find a real mercy of God and reconciliation with Him. When my life changed through the power of God as I got born again 10 years ago and I started to adapt myself to a normal living, I quickly noticed that you don’t have to be a criminal in order to experience in life, how often one might get offended or wounded and how often oneself hurts and wounds the others, to the most part in such a way that it is unintentional. I would like to share my own testimony with you concerning this area. I believe that If you have strength to read this text and you read it thinking over what it is saying and that you will dwell on these things, your life is going to change for sure. It is through these thoughts that I have been able to forgive all those folks how have hurt me in one way or another, I do mean what I am saying, I can tell you today, that I love those folks who have tortured me, tried to kill me and how they have killed my close friends. When it comes to forgiveness, it is not about a feeling – It is one’s own choice. Remember this to begin with.

    If we say that we have forgiven someone, but were are yet not willing to meet that particular person anymore, we have omitted the phone number of that person from you cell phone or when we see that particular person we are avoiding him or her and try to hide from that person, I can tell you, that we haven’t forgiven that person from the bottom of our hearts. I have heard my teachings on the topic of forgiveness and I have noticed, that the topic can be dealt with from very many sides and in many ways. My personal experience is, that when it comes to forgiveness, it has to be 100% and absolute. It is not forgiveness to say, “I forgive you, but I’ll never forget what you did to me” or “I forgive you but I will never ever want to spend time with you”. I just want to mention, that each folks have the potential to forgive to a certain degree. But there is forgiveness, where we need God’s strength and help.

    Someone might ask: “what does it matter, if I do not forgive, are you not aware of what that person has done to me..” I know what it is that is going to happen to you unless you forgive and how much you will lose in life when you cling to your unforgiveness. There are certain conformities to the law that regard every human being regardless of what their religion, skin color, age, prosperity, success is. These conformities to the law are set by God and all of them can be found in the Bible. Many times we are applying certain adherences to the law in life without understanding them to be the truths of the Word of God. Many teachings that are as a basis for the nowaday teaching of how to be succesful in this world, in your own life, in every are whatsoever and almost without any borders. Those principles have their origin in the Word of God and therefore they work on everyone who is applying those conformities to the law in practical way. One might succeed in life using certain principles and conformities to the law. You might get peace, joy, be succesful financially and even be better off in every way, what comes to your physical and mental well-being. All of that is good, if we only remember that whatsoever whosoever insists or is teaching, a real success can only be found through a personal relationship with God.

    Bible is telling us that no-one can know God better than through Jesus Christ. Your relationship with God is based on that single truth, that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins. When we believe that and when we ask Jesus to be the Lord of our life, we’ll become God’s children. Without this truth we cannot be in contact with a real God, who has created the Heaven, the Earth and every human being. Each human being whom God has created is going to one day stand before Him. As you apply some principles of success in your life, do remember, that the success of this world is temporary. Let some wise, learned and rich folks tell it some other way, but the truth is according to the Word of God, that we live our lives through upon this earth and then when we die, each one of us have to make account of our lives before God. Therefore study what the Word of God is telling and seek the truth therein. Know, in whom you believe and who are you being supported by, as that is the only thing that matters, when it is time for us to leave this world.

    Somebody are congratulating me for changing a “wretched” life to a good life. It is quite right, but I just want to tell you, that if we are measuring our happiness in money, fame, others appreciating us and in the things that this world is offering us. I had all of that what you could imagine, if the success is being measured according to those things. I don’t even want to mention what kind of sums of money are mentioned in the criminal circles. Many of you would certainly not believe if I were to mention the names of some folks who are well known and who are somewhat entangled with those particular things. Decision makers, representatives of the office, rich people, famous and well known folks… The reason that got me out of there, was not misery but Jesus appering to me and beginning to address me audiably. Believe me or not, I wouldn’t have liked to leave that lifestyle, money and all of that. I wouldn’t have left it, unless Jesus, who became so real to me did finally tell me: “Rami, you have to choose now, life or death. If you choose to live your life like this, you are going to die very soon and your are going to die in your sins…” After that, I was shown, how I died. I was clearly shown, how I was leaving a Casino together with my friend. As we walked out, a car drove in front of us and we where shot from that particular car with machine weapons. I saw all of that, as if I would have been watching a movie. As I saw myself and my friend laying in the pool of blood, Jesus said “this is how your life is going to end, if you choose wrong. What does it then benefit you all you money and all the other things that you possess… “I gave my life to Jesus finally because of that. Did Jesus frighten me with Hell.. no he didn’t frighten me. In His great mercy he showed me these things, as he knew very well, that I would otherwise make a wrong choice.

    I cannot explain why Jesus met me in this way … I have been pondering upon it many times, especially when I have seen some of my friends to lose their lives or destroy their lives. You’d better remember still, that you don’t have to be a criminal in order to be able to destroy your life.

    You might be rich, famous and to have a really good success and finally destroy your whole life. Even so, that no-one else, not even your spouse, knows what you really feel like. There are times in the lives of each one of us, when Jesus is calling us to salvation. Often we kind of sense some kind of emptiness or something else in our hearts. Most folks do not realise what such feelings and states of being are due to. I alway knew, when God was calling me, as I was a child of a home of believers and I understood about spiritual matters. When God was calling me once in a while, I to a most part arranged big parties that could go on for several days. Amidst all of such partying it was easier for me to do away with the unpleasant feelings of emptiness within myself and also that quiet voice of God.

    I just would like to revert back to the topic that I started with and to tell my own testimony concerning forgiving and the importance thereof. As I mentioned in the beginning, I have had to deal with the topic due to my own experiences. As I got born again and left a criminal way of living, so inspite of that, I hated some folks. I had been delivered from being violent, but I was battling all the time with the emotions of hatred and revenge.

    I had a friend, who was one of my closest friends. We were excercising the Marshal Arts together, I taught him and we were traininig a lot for years. He obtained a World Championship in a certain Genre of Marshal Arts. He was a criminal like myself and he belong to my close circle. During the years he begun to envy me from the bottom of his heart and finally he betrayed me through making a deal with the cops. This friend of mine put up a trap for me and as a result of that I received a prison sentence of 4 years. I perceived straight away who had betrayed me. As I was in prison, I thought for myself, that when the time is right, I will revenge on him and he is going to pay for his betrayal with his own life. Then, when I got saved, I decided that he is going to live. I thought that I was very “devout” as I acted so. I even thought that I would please God.. Finally I got released from the prison. That particular friend of mine was sure, that he wouldn’t live for much longer after I was released from the prison. There were not many, who believed in that I was saved, but thought it to be pure lie.

    Some time passed by and I was going to a big christian meeting. I got to the place of the meeting and as I walked in through the door, I was caught with horror and panic. I couldn’t remain at the place of the meeting but took off and started to suddenly drive back home. While driving, I pondered why I felt so.. Suddenly Jesus started to talk to me and he was using such certain terms, that I stopped the car by the wayside. Jesus told me the name of my friend. I told him straight away, that I had forgiven what my friend did then. Then Jesus answered and said: “All right, if you have forgiven you friend, call him and invite him to come with you to the meeting” There was a certain world renowned lady evangelist talking in that christian meeting and I had been waiting for a long time, that when she would come, then I would attend her meeting, in order for her to pray for me. I really wanted to go there. But now I had got a problem, the Lord urged me to invite somebody to come to the meeting together with me, a person because of whom I had been prison inmate for 2 years and out of that time 5 months in a little cell, that was just a little larger than 2 meters long and the width was the same. I felt how there was hatred and bitterness toward that person in my heart.. To put in straight terms, I would have had a desire to harm him in a way, that he would get some kind of punishment for what he did.

    While sitting there in my car, I really fought in my heart concerning what would i do. Finally I grapped the cell phone and called that particular friend. I told him that I would like to meet him immediately and that I would invite him to come with me to a christian meeting. He promised to come to the place we agreed on. I drove to that place and there were many folks together with him. I really had conflicting feelings in my mind. My thought were racing and it was really difficult for me to keep the hatred within me. I saw that everybody present in that place sensed an atmosphere of excitement and unease. I looked at my friend and I saw fear in his eyes. He was wearing a long leather jacket and I knew that he would certainly have a gun. We shaked hands and I asked him to step into the car. All that we spoke during our journey to the place where the meeting was, were mere words. We both knew what had happened and what kind of relationship we had between ourselves. I was thinking in my mind, how this evening would finally end.

    When we arrived to the meeting place and went to the rear part of the hall. God once again started to address me. I saw how God had forgiven my big sins, transgressions and all of that. I saw Jesus Christ and Him crucified for my transgressions. The Lord asked me: “Rami, would you like to forgive your friend as I have forgiven you. Do you want to have mercy on him, as I have had mercy on you?” I told Him: “Lord, I forgive Him everything”. At the same time a started to feel how supernatural love towards that friend started to fill me up. I started talking to him and he certainly noticed a change in me .. the atmosphere began to change around us … such an inexpressible presence of freedom..

    We went out for a moment to have a chat and when we returned, that particular lady evangelist was just about to begin with ministering to people through prayer. We looked how a queue of hundreds of people had gathered together around the huge hall. I thought for myself that If we were to join the end of the queue, it would take whole night prior it is my turn to be ministered to.. I told my friend that I would like to join the queu and he followed me. As we were standing there in the queue with only some folks behind us, that particular lady evangelist started to head towards us, she went around the whole queue and came straight up to us. She laid her hand on me and at the same time the power of the Holy Spirit touched me and I began to fall down. Friend of mine, who was standing right behind me took hold of me. In that moment God completely delivered me from hatred, bitterness and getting offended, what I had felt towards that person. And not only him, but also all the others who had somewhat treated me wrong. I got delivered from hatred also towards them, who had tried to kill me, tortured me, them who had killed some of my friends. Hatred and the bitterness were removed from my heart regardless of what somebody had done to me or how badly they had offended me, hurt me or wounded me.

    As a result of me forgiving one person from the bottom of my heart, was God delivering me from all hatred and bitterness that I had toward different people and what is even more special, God gave me love towards those people!! Now you are saying “Do not tell a lie”… You know what, unless I had get delivered from hatred and bitterness and having received love instead of that, my life would have slid back to the criminal world. I wouldn’t have had strength to resist the temptations that I have confronted after that.

    As we were driving back from that meeting, I told to my friend that I know what he has done. I told him what had happened and how I felt now.. Finally I told him, that I will forgive you everything. He couldn’t provide me with any answer. He told me later on, that he had been thinking the whole evening that today he would be killed and his life would expire. He told that he had a loaded a very powerful pistol in his chest pocket during the whole evening also then when he grapped me as I was falling down in the prayer line, as the Holy Spirit touched me.

    Today I am free from hatred and bitterness. Of course there is a another side of the matters and that is what I have done to other folks. I have had to go through that side very deeply, that I have could and been able to forgive myself from the bottom of my heart all of that, what I have done to others. I have hurt others a thousand times more what anyone ever has hurt me. You know, sometimes it is easier to forgive others than to forgive yourself. That particular friend that I just mentioned here in my testimony doesn’t keep contact with me today. Not, that he would be afraid of me anymore, but because he hasn’t been able to forgive himself wholeheartedly, that what he did. I forgave, but he couldn’t receive it..

    It is the same with many of us, we know, that God has forgiven us our sins. He let Jesus Christ to die for us at Cross, for our sins and transgressions. Yet it is not easy for us to accept it many times, it is difficult to forgive onself. Yet what comes to God we have already been atoned for. We just have to confess and accept that. I believe that I am going to pretty shortly to put up a teaching to my Blog, a teaching that deals with forgiveness from different sides according to the Word of God. I believe that it is going to be a help and blessing to many. I hope that this little testimony of mine would bring about us just for a moment to study the relationship we have with our friends.. maybe you’ve got a friend who needs to hear from you “I forgive you…”

    “Rasmus” Rami Kivisalo

  10. Former Gangster Rasmus says:

    Testimony of Former Gangster

    I am Rami Kivisalo, a former professional criminal, gangster, drug dealer, weapon dealer and everything you could ever imagine. To put it bluntly, I was a very sinful person, full of all kinds of evil. I would like to share my testimony with you, how my life changed years ago, through God’s power, while I was in prison. This is a genuine testimony concerning things that have happened for real. I would like to encourage, through this testimony, everyone who is reading this. It really doesn’t matter who you are, I would like to share my testimony with you and to encourage you. When we come into such a situation in our lives, were nobody can help us or solve our problems, I would like to tell you: Do not give up, there is still hope! What ever the matter or the situation in you life might be. All is well! The Best is yet to come!!

    When I was 12-years old, I started to get interested in marshal arts. I had my first boxingssack and I began weightlifting. A few years later, my parents moved to Tanzania for work and I had to go with them. There I got to know one of the best African teachers in marshal arts. He started to teach me Kungfu, Karate and Tae Kwon Do.

    These things soon became the most important things in my life and they took me over completely. Because I had completed the Senior Grade, I used all the days from morning until evening training in Marshal Arts. We trained really hard and when we returned back to Finland two years later, I had reached the highest level, having black-belts in three different disciplines of Marshal Arts. I had gone so deep into marshal arts that I had opened myself to the spirits of violence. They made me very violent and dangerous. I stopped going to school due to continuous fights in the streets.

    I got acquainted with many professional criminals. Because I was very violent, I got rapid appreciation and I was finally involved in all kinds of criminal stuff. I started to create international relationships to criminals and very soon I had dealings with Mafia. Everything became lawful and normal to me, I didn’t care about anything else. Still nothing in this world could give me real satisfaction. I drunk alcohol much more and took more risks. Many times I was near death but miraculously I didn’t die.

    The first day of 1997 the Police captured me. I got a four year prison sentence. While in jail, I was full of hatred and bitterness. Even though I knew I deserved a prison sentence of more than 10 years, I was still bitter. I realized that I would never be able to build a normal, peaceful life and change my lifestyle.

    Something that no human could make whole again, had broken inside of me. From prison I started to plan bigger and bigger international criminal businesses. I had accepted that prison would be the place where I would spend many years afterwards also.

    One day something, that stopped me, happened. Suddenly in the middle of the day somebody told me: Rami, unless you turn away from your bad ways and repent of your sins, you will die soon and die in your sins. I knew immediately that Jesus had spoken to me. After this Jesus called me everyday and drew me to Himself. I tried to escape His call, but after a few months, my back was against the wall. One day I knew in my heart that now I have to decide what I am going to answer to Jesus who had called me to salvation for months.

    I made my decision and dropped to my knees in my cell and said, “Jesus, if you can forgive me my great sins and change my life, I will give my whole life to you. Forgive me of my sins”. After this I stopped my criminal businesses and told some of my friends that I do not practice them anymore. Even though I had made my decision, I was not well. Satan pressed me and I felt that somebody inside of me was trying to get me back to my old life.

    Few months after this I got vacation from prison and I went to my parents place and asked them if they could pray with other believers for me that I would be delivered of the things that made me feel troubled and pressed. So my parents along with one believing woman laid their hands on me and started to pray that Jesus would set me free from demons. They commanded Satan to depart from my life in Jesus name. Suddenly the power of Jesus came over me and I fell to the ground and I got free from all bondages in my life. After this, I started to experience freedom that I had not felt before in my life.

    I was free from violence and all criminal stuff that had bound me for years. One Year after this I got released from prison. Adjusting to normal life was not easy for me. I have had many hard times since that and sometimes I have felt that I can’t go on but Jesus has always given me a new power to arise and go on. Jesus never leaves or rejects a person who comes to Him. I’m thankful to Jesus for what He has done for me. Jesus came to the most failed and sinful man?s prison cell and gave me new life.

    I know that there is no one who is such a big sinner, that Jesus could not help that person. He can help and He wants to help and save everyone. That was the reason why Jesus came and died on the cross for all of us. The Bible promises that everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved. (Acts. 2:21)

    It is not possible for me to share here concerning all the miracles and God’s supernatural protection in my life that I have experienced, but I am going to share one very wonderful experience, in order for us to be able to understand what it feels like when a human being leaves this physical body and dies. I have experienced how my spirit has left my body and I have died and returned back to my body. Something happened to me, that caused it, but I am not going to share it here. I remember that prior to my spirit leaving my body, I was laying down in the ground and I felt like I was from top to bottom covered with sweat and I felt really hot. Suddenly I didn’t feel anymore pain or agony.

    I was looking at myself and I saw how I was laying on the ground without moving, I looked into my own eyes and I wondered why I was staring at one place, I thought to myself, that now I am in very bad shape. I remember how some folks who were very close to me arrived in that spot and they found me. I watched how they were touching me and the other one of them cried out: “Rami is cold as ice! He doesn’t breath anymore!” I remember how I suddenly returned back into my body and started breathing again. Before my spirit left my body, I remember that I felt very hot and I was perspiring throughout my whole body. During that whole time period, I didn’t cease from thinking or remembering things. . yet I didn?t understand that I was practically dead.

    If someone thinks, that when a human being dies, that person doesn’t know anything and that everything is over, I can tell you based on my own experience – you don’t even know that you have died, when it happens, you won’t cease to exist or just disappear. Death is not an end. It is the end of your physical body, but a real man isn’t the physical body. Man has got a spirit, soul and body. It is God’s great grace, that I am alive. I shouldn’t be, as death has been more than close to me on various other occasions.

    Many folks who hear my testimony or read concerning my life, tell me: “It was a very good thing for you, how God has helped you and all those miracles that have happened to you..” However, I just want to tell everybody, that it doesn’t matter at all how good or bad folks have been, if Jesus Christ is the Lord of our lives and our personal Saviour. Each one of us has to make a personal decision and to confess our sins, whether they are little or big things and to ask Jesus to become the Lord of ones own life.

    The Bible is telling us in (John 3:16-17) “For God so loved the World that he gave his only begotten Son, so that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God didn’t send his Son into the World to judge it, but that the World would be saved through him”. We will get saved only by faith in Jesus Christ, not through our own works. I know that I have committed a lot of sin and wrong. However I need to live close to God on a daily basis. The same as the drugdeals, robberies, violence and murders are sin and are things to be judged, the same we have to repent of our lies, evil thoughts, evil speeches, our lusts, all of our sexual sins, our fornications etc.. It is easy to pay attention to big mistakes and to be blind to less things, that are also wrong in God’s eyes. Remember, that everything we keep in secret, it has power over our lives.

    We are getting saved by God’s grace, when we believe, that Jesus bore our sins on our behalf and that He rose again from the dead through God’s power and He lives today. Yet we cannot practice or approve of any kind of conscious sin in our lives, a conscious approval of sin and practicing it consciously separates us from God, although we would believe in Jesus and in that what He has done for us. You can believe in God and be very much aware of the spiritual matters, but don’t let the goodness of God deceive you. God is a God of mercy, but he doesn’t approve of sin, whether it is big or little sin.

    Many folks are being shocked or made angry, when such a person like myself, who has such an evil past and full of sin, admonishes to repent of even the minor sins. My testimony is an encouragement concerning what God can do for a human being. It is an encouragement for each one of us, whether you are a killer, drug dealer, murderer, terrorist, prostitute, a thief, a cheat or how ever of a sinful person, I would like to tell you, that Jesus came into the world just for you, He died on a cross and bore your big sins, You can be delivered and live!! I have also an encouragement for you, those who are attending the Church and who are wishing many blessings to your fellowmen. Maybe God has blessed your life in one way or another, you might be rich, famous, or a person who has had success in some area. Folks would like to be your friend or they are envying you… and in spite of all of your blessings, you might be addicted to various kinds of addictions: like pornography, lying, cheating on your partner, lusting after things that are none of your business or you are stuck with another kind of bondage. If Jesus can set free a big sinner and criminal. He can also deliver you and give you power to put away your smallest sin.

    In God’s eyes sin is sin and all manner of conscious sin separates man from God, remember that, while you are reading this. It is a different matter, if you experience weakness and you fall in some areas of your life, when you are asking for forgiveness from the bottom of your heart, God does forgive you. But do not tolerate sin in your life, how ever small a matter it might be and it might feel so minor. The moment we approve of living in a conscious sin in some area of our life and thinking at the same time, that God does forgive us, we have gone astray. God doesn’t accept a conscious sin in anybody’s life. Sin must be confessed and one must repent from that, how ever little or big the matter might be.

    God, who delivered me from my big sins, has awaken me from the dead and has given me a new life. He forgives you and sets you free, whoever you might be, a small sinner or big sinner. God’s grace is power to live right and free from all bondage of the sin, what ever kind they might be. I just want to say, in conclusion, that I am not here to judge anybody. You might have got upset due to something that you read or you do not believe any of what I have told you. I love you! I do not judge you or accuse you. The Word of God says that anybody who does not believe in Jesus Christ, has already been judged. Jesus died, in order for us to get free from judgment and hell. Believe in Him. Each one of us has to choose either life or death. We have a free will. We ourselves decide what we choose. We are not perfect, only Jesus is perfect, but Bible tells, 1. John. 1:7 ” But if we walk in the light as he himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 1:8 If we say we do not bear the guilt of sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. 1:9 But if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous, forgiving us our sins and cleansing us from all unrighteousness. 1:10 If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar and his word is not in us”.

    It is my prayer that this testimony will encourage you and give you hope and will bring about change. Whoever you are, I have called you my friend, I want to share my testimony with you. I want you to have good things. I want your life to be changed! Tomorrow might be a better day, regardless of how bad or good things are right now.

    Rami “Rasmus” Kivisalo

    • Darrell Waters says:

      How do I sign up for these forums, or do I not need to sign up? I would love to be a part of a skype prayer meeting!

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