Hi, I'm 32 yaers old and have been married to my husband for 8 years. When I met him I was not a serious Christian we were both at college and he was also not Christian. I had opportunities to date Christian guys, but I thought he was exciiting and good-looking. We did not date for long before I fell pregnant and I hd an abortion because I couldnt bear to tell my mother. He was against the abortion but I insisted.
We continued seing each other mainly because I couldnt bear to see anyone esle and have to explain that I wasnt a virgin and that I had had an abortion. I fell pregnant again. This time I told my mum and my boyfriend came with hs family to my family, we got married according to our culture and have been together now for 8 years. The 8 years have been hell, I have endured him cheating on me several times, he even has a child with another woman.
I dont want to leave him because I know God hates divorce and I dont want my children to grow up without a father like I did, but Im scared my son will adopt the bad habits from his father, ie. drinking beer and cheating and I also feel responsible because I feel he is avenging me for what I did, I killed his child, how can I judge him? I now know the Lord and regret not having walked with the Lord in my youth.
I want to say to every young lady or man,value yourself and really weigh what is important to you, just having a good time now or your future. God knows what he is talking about when he says 'do not be unequally yoked' and when he forbids sex before marriage. It doesn't make sense when your hormones are urging you to feel you , but just take a minute to really think about it you have an opportunity to have happy marriage or to get yourself stuck in a rut. I thank God that with all Ive been through with my husband I've sought refuge in Him, at least something good has come out of it.
Please help me pray tht my husband will also get born again, I know God can speak to him