I just dont know anymore

Ok this post goes along with i am struggling one i posted like 2 weeks ago and i have been feeling really weird. I know there is a god. I know he is there but i feel like if i was in a life or death and i was about to die then i could really ask god for forgiveness but right now i think about it and i cant laugh at it and i cant take it seriously. I think it is because it is hard for me to pray and listen to god. i am reading the book 1 John everyday and i am going to read before i go to bed but i dont know. I feel like if i died right now i wouldnt go to heaven. I am really struggling. But if i was about to get my head blown off then i could be able to. I dont know anymore. I am resisting satan. I dont think that he has a hold on me. I think it started on September 30 2008. So i have been not depressed but i am not happy. I feel like God just put me on this Earth because he got bored. I dont know. I dont want to just give up and stop trying i want to figure out what is wrong with me. Please help me.

What do YOU think?



  1. Praying for you.

    JAS 4:7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

    Note the Bible tells us we need to Submit to God FIRST then Resist the Devil. We cannot resist the Devil in our own Strength we have to have help from the Holy Spirit. You need to read your Bible to have the Spiritual Weapons to fight and remain in your salvation. In the following scripture we are again told to rely on God’s Strength when fighting the Devil.

    EPH 6:10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.


  2. jesseedavis says:

    If you don’t mind, how would you like something to do for our Lord? Just let me know Will.

    • Freak4Jesus15 says:

      yes jesse i will do what you want me to do

      • jesseedavis says:

        Ok, I’ll talk to you about it tonight, I won’t have time until then with work and all. At least I hope I won’t have time, Father calm the skies that we may work today. If you happen to get this before you go to school or something, try and bring someone to the Bible study tonight.

  3. Timothy Luke says:

    Hey Will, why don’t you sign up for skype, http://www.skype.com, and private message me your skype user id. We can get in touch and I can pray for you there. Anyone else who would like to receive prayer may do the same. We shall pray for you today at our prayer meeting.

    • Freak4Jesus15 says:

      Hey tim, we have skype but our webcam somewhat doesnt work

      • Timothy Luke says:

        Will, you don’t need webcam. I think they are a distraction at times. A microphone and headset, or speakers are recommended, but even without them we still have chat options and can communicate prayers and needs. Click on my name and email me with your skype ID, Or send it to Michael to be on the prayer network.

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