Freed From Masturbation

A number of years ago I was really struggling with masturbation (a lot more than the average male does).  I wanted to stop as I knew it was not pleasing to God.  I also wanted to stop in order to clear my mind of the unpure thoughts I was having.  However, I just accepted that it was part of a normal guy’s life (or so I thought).  One night when I was at a work dinner I was talking to a work colleague and he mentioned that he had not even French kissed his fiance (or ‘pashed’ for you younger folk).  I said to him, ‘Wow!  That is totally amazing, how do you show such self control?’  I then asked him about masturbation, as I felt that he was a guy who I could talk to about this (I didn’t just talk to everyone about it, for obvious reasons).  He then told me that he had not ever masturbated (and he was probably about 24 years old).  This astounded me.  He also told me that him and his youth group boys had been discussing the issue, and his youth group boys had agreed to try and stop masturbating for a year. 


After this conversation I thought I would try this also.  I prayed about it briefly and then began the year of non-masturbation.  I successfully completed the year to my complete surprise.  However, once the year was up I slipped back into the habit.  I tried on several other occasions to try and give it up for another year, but I would always fail after a month or so.  During this time things go much worse in this area of my life.  I began to masturbate up to five times a day.  This made me feel very dirty and embarrassed, but I just could not seem to control this behaviour.  I began to pray regularly for help from God with this issue as I acknowledged that He was the only one who would be able to win this battle for me.  After a couple of weeks of praying I was at my computer studying for uni.  In the middle of intense studying a voice came through my head that said ‘You will never have to masturbate again’.  This was such an obscene thought to have that I knew that it was not mine.  God had spoken to me and told me that I was free of this problem.  From that point onwards I have not masturbated. This was the only time I have ever heard from God, but it has changed my life in a major way.  I have now gone a number of years without masturbating, although there have been several times when I have needed to draw on God to help me stay pure in this sense. 

I hope that this may encourage someone to put their faith in God and ask Him for help in overcoming ‘every man’s struggle’. 


Glory to God

What do YOU think?



  1. I am really grateful to hear that. I have been struggling with the same problem as well and did not know how to stop. What made it worse was that i had a “whole package!” I masturbated, surfed for porn and had an attraction to men. Everyday I prayed to stop but nothing seemed to work. I put it down to the fact that I was praying half-heartedly. I suppose a part of me wanted to stop and yet I was thinking that what I had could not be helped and was something I was born with. I knew that I was sinning as I was brought up a christian and everyday I struggled with the fact that if I died tomorrow I would have zero chance of going to heaven due to my addictions. I have been married for over 10 years, have 2 kids and I enjoyed sex with with my wife but could not stop thinking about other men. To make matters worse people had told me when I was growing up that I had a feminine disposition and was laughed at school. When I was older I even had some people ask me if I was gay. I tried to hide it but deep down I was in turmoil. I felt neglected by God and I even wished to have been more masculine so that I could hide my gayness. In spite of all this I went ahead and got married hoping that the urges will go away, but nothing seemed to work. I love my wife and I did not marry her to make me straight but I was hoping that one day the homosexual desires would go. Um almost 40 now and it was only a few months ago that I just started feeling a change.After trying to pray alone for so long without telling anyone my problems I finally thought of asking my cousin brother to be my prayer partner and to help me pray. The result was amazing!
    God finally answered my prayer and I felt born again. My encounter with God was not something like a voice or a sign. I just felt an inner peace and the joy I felt in me can not be described. My desires just went away and I feel free. Before this I even dreamt about sex with other men at least 2-3 times a week and would fantasise all the time. Afterwards I would feel dirty but I couldnt stop. I haven’t had any of these dreams or any desire to surf the internet for porn and the peace I feel is beyond words. God has been good to me and for the past 2 months I feel born again. Everyday I pray to God to keep me strong to resist temptation and my prayers are being answered. To those who are still struggling I suppose finding a forum like this and joining it is a step in the right direction and when we put a lot of effort God listens.God bless you and thank you for this site.

    • I understand it is really a difficult thing for those who have these kinds of desires ingrained in them – but your testimony shows that God’s grace can do miracles! Keep your eyes on Jesus and allow Him to transform you further into His image.

      You might like to also look up the testimony of Ron Brookman from Living Waters Australia. I think it would be helpful to you.

      Please keep in touch. We hope to see you more on this site!



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