Gifts of the Holy Spirit in Action

This is the first time I am writing this on the net. I am struggling spiritually, and I know that offering testimony for what the Lord has done in the past helps us move forward.
I was sleeping at a retreat about 5 years ago in Florida.
I was there to go through a program for people healing from post abortion hurts. I came by instruction of the director, so that I could, in the future talk to the women about my healing, many years ago, from an abortion through rape when I was a teen.
I had been healed of so much of the issues. My child I thought was a boy and I named him Joshua Kolbe(first and middle names.) years before.
I had lit birthday candles for him and done prayers over the years as well as post abortion healing when I was in my twenties.
I did not expect to receive from God at this retreat, but in faith I was there to give to Him. To go through the retreat again, so I could speak in the future and offer comfort to women and men hurting, as God's grace had brought me so far. I was at peace with that issue.
Well, in my room, asleep after prayers and adoration, I was awakened in the night. I didn't get up but became aware that I was conscious while lying on my little bed in the tiny, one person room.
I saw what looked like an angel come toward me. It was the most beautiful face and it came within inches of my eyes.
I could see something behind it and realized that behind the face were angels in four corners, but the face was not that of an angel, but of an infant baby. It was a boy, with blonde curls and the most beautiful eyes!
I felt the radar in my mind and spirit really, really wake up. I knew there was something for me to pay attention to.
Then the child proceeded to give me a message, for what seemed like a long time. He did this with his eyes as they moved messages into my heart without speaking.
I heard every word loud and clear it seemed and there was this washing in my heart of such joy and awe. I was just amazed as I lay there motionless on my bed, while this child showed me his joy and happiness.
I was aware of a sense that this boy was allowed and meant to come to me, to share his message for me, that he was in more happiness and bliss than a person would ever experience here on earth.
I was trying to comprehend all this at once, but it was not any thing earthly and I knew that as it was happening.
At one point, after Joshua's initial entrance, he took me up somewhere, that I was shown by a feeling. It was as if it was 'where he lives'. It was as if it was the outside layer of the world he lives in(Heaven). It was ecstatically peaceful in my soul to the point I could hardly take it.
It was overwhelming and soothing at the same time.
He kept saying, I have none of what you undestand there.
I am in constant joy and bliss, he would communicate to me.

I felt so priviledge and in awe of this happening to me.
As I awoke, finally in the dark, I shot right up and spoke out loud, to try to find my bearings. I said "God, was that my son??!!"(of course much more humbly than with an exclamation, as I had just been somewhere that was not natural in any way, but heavenly)
I then saw in the corner of the room, as far as the eye or my spirit could see, GIANT ANGELS floating above. It was known to me they were huge and very powerful and they went on infinity.
I could hardly move or speak, and at the same time I was not restrained by what the natural man is restrained by.
I slowly came back to 'earth' in my mind and spirit.
For three days I could not speak. I told no one for weeks about it as I could not describe it in any way that did it justice. I was overwhelmed that God sent this messenger to me.
When I asked God "why me?" I heard a voice say, "Do not question God" and I remembered something in the Bible about not questioning God, and Job's story.
I wanted to tell God that someone else struggling in this area would need that vision more than me. I was healed already.
When I came to give to God, in faith- He gave me something I could never, ever have hoped for. I couldn't even have imagined it, ever. I keep it in my heart and one day hope to write it in a story prayfully, that it will help moms and dads find comfort about their own child gone on to heaven.

I pray you are blessed with encouragement,

K

What a glorious thing it is to be in an intimate relationship with the creator of heaven and earth. I have personally been going through a rough period at home with my relationship with my wife. You see i have been baptized in the Holy Spirit and have through a process of waiting to hear from the Lord left the church that we were both attending, a fundamentalist baptist church.

This has not been easy but I know that I heard from God in this matter and she is thinking that I am not being rasonable about this new thing that is going on in my spiritual walk with the Savior. I have told her that the Lord has spoken and that I must follow God rather than man. She is not a believer in the Baptism in the holy Spirit and does not believe in the initial sign of tongues. I have tried to show her by coninuing to love her and tell her as much that I am the same husband just made better by the love of God in me and a desire to pursue holiness in my walk.

This brings me to the point of this post. Since I've been baptized in the Spirit I desire to be used of Him and to glorify His name. This past week I had been praying fervently for the Lord to use me as he pleased. I was up rather late well past midnight and when I was done i went to bed and had a dream about a woman with blond hair that was a Christian. In my dream I asked her to come in from the cold and get warm. she asked me who I was and I told her that I am sent to help her.
She agreed and then I woke up. I thought that this was strange but went back to sleep without giving it another thought.

The next evening I was feeling especially oppressed by the enemy and was really crying out to the Lord for wisdom in handling my family situationas well as seeking the Lord's will for my life. I remember being filled with the spirit and speaking in tongues. I was so filled and overjoyed that I fumble at trying to find the proper words to explain. In my prayers I asked the Lord to allow his Spirit to overflow from me and bless others. Once again I was up past midnight pouring my self out to Him. i went to bed and then had another dream with this same blond haired lady. This time it was a little easier to make out some features on her. I determined that she was young looking but not really a youing woman. I asked her why she was outside and told her she needed to get inside where it was safe and warm. She told me that she could not come in because she needed to gather her vessels. I questioned her as to what vessels she spoke of. She told me that these were precious vessels and that she needed to gather them up before she could go in but she needed help. I told her I would help her get them and we walked along side of a building and found a vessel. We walked around the back of the building and found another one. We made it to the other side of the building and saw a trash bin with a vessel just outside of it. Each of these vessels were made of ceramic, very beautiful. She told me that we are still missing a vessel and looked all around. She said we need to find that vessel because it is very precious to her. I looked inside the trash bin and there was a vessel made of clay, with many cracks and dings in it. i stared at this vessel and regarded it as beautiful in a raw sense of the word. She was overjoyed when w=she saw this vessel and thanked me for helping her find it. I told her to come inside now and then I woke up from my dream. once again I was somewhat confused about the implications of this dream as I had dreamed about the same blonde haired woman on consecutive nights.

The very next morning I woke up and sensed the Lord asking me to fast and pray for Him. I obeyed His voice and proceeded to get ready for work. I was very quiet before the Lord and had felt a certain expectancy for something that I could not quite explain. A couple of hours into the day I felt the Lord impress upon me that I was to lay hands on a couple of people. Their names were not revealed to me and so I just purposed in my heart to obey Him completely. As I was traveling on the road the Lord gave me the names I was waiting for.
One of the names was of the mother of someone that had been praying for me to receive the Baptism in the Holy Spirit. I went to her house and found that she was a little busy. I was a little confused because I thought I had clearly heard from the Lord on this. I told her that perhaps I could come by some other time. She had her husband tell me that I should not leave because the Lord told her that i need to pray for her. Well that just confirmed to me that I had indeed heard from the Lord. I laid hands on her and the glory of the Lord filled that place. Tongues flowed forth and she started to shake and quiver. The Lord led me to touch her back and pray for her lungs and some back pain. What an awsome experience. As I was praying for her someone walked in that I did not see because my eyes were closed. I continued to pray and after about 15 minutes or so stopped and opened my eyes. To my amazement it was a blond haired lady just like in my dreams.

We went into the living room as the lady I was praying for needed to take care of something. We shared some small talk and then just got right to it. I asked her if she would not mind me sharing a couple of dreams I had. She agreed and I relayed to her the events of the past couple of nights. After I was done, she looked at me and told me that she had four children (four vessels?) and that her oldest son from an illicit relationship from her youth before she knew the Lord had struggled with his life for years. She told me that in his youth he had gone to church and made a profession of faith but that got away from the Lord and started using drugs, drinking and commiting crime. He spent some time in jail and had a son from an illicit relationship as well. Funny how these patterns seem to repeat themselves in ones children, but I digress. She told me that he has started to get his act together and has found a steady job but was still not following after the Lord. He was fractured in spirit and angry at God. I knew that the dream was for this woman. I asked her if we could pray for her son. we did and she was really blessed by this.

After this time I got back in my car and headed back to the office. It was on the way back that the Lord gave me another name and put the word Holiness in my mind. The name was one of my co-workers. When I got back to the office it was the end of the day and I spoke to him about what the Lord told me. He said to me that he indeed was struggling with the matter of holiness and really needed prayer and a touch from God. When went into a prayer closet that is set up in our facility and poured out prayers on his behalf as I layed hands on him. The Spirit of the Lord moved in a powerful way and once again the Spiritual language came forth from my lips. What a blessing. This young man was overcome with emotion as the Lord shot straight to his heart and
he worshipped the Lord greatly. When we finished he thanked the Lord for having me pray for him and he left greatly encouraged.

Later that day after attending a church service I was suddenly overcome with a great exhaustion such as I had never felt experienced before. I had asked for an overflow and the Lord granted it. Blessed be the name of the Lord, his Son Jesus and his blessed Holy Spirit.

Walk in Wisdom Toward Them That are without Redeming the Time. (Col. 4:5)

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