I need prayer for deliverance from sexual sin brought on by unclean thoughts that I’ve had since I was a child. I’ve been struggling and losing the fight for 15 years now. Some days I am able to stand against it. Some days I am not able to resist and I fall into temptation. I pray daily for God to help me in this area, but there’s no breakthrough. I often have felt distant from God and spiritually trapped because of the shame, the guilt, self condemnation, self unforgiveness and self hatred that comes along with committing sexual sin. Sexual sin has robbed me of God’s love, mercy, grace and blessings. I know Jesus died for all sins and that forgiveness is always available upon asking. However, I feel often like I trample upon God’s grace and forgiveness due to committing sexual sin over and over again even after asking for help and deliverance. I just want to grow in God and not fall along the wayside.
Deliverance From Sexual Sin
Deliverance from Sexual Sin
I’m a female and I have an issue with pornography/masturbation. I’ve been struggling with this on and off for such a long time. It makes me feel terrible when I do it and it sometimes brings me to tears after the fact. I was exposed to pornography at a very young age (10) and ever since then, it has been an on and off battle. I’ll go months without interest in pornography, thinking “Yes, I am finally free!!”, then all of a sudden it strikes again. Sometimes when I go w/o it for a while, i start thinking “Who am I fooling? I’ll be back at it again one of these days…” This terrifies me.
I’ve wanted to tell someone so badly because I want support and help, but it is something I just cant openly discuss with people that know me. I am a Christian, but this stronghold makes me feel like I cannot approach God. I know he is a forgiving God, but I feel as though I am stabbing him in the back daily by asking for forgiveness then committing the act the next day.
For the longest I’ve imagined myself having a child. I would pretend I was pregnant when i was younger, stuffing pillows and balloons under my shirts. I am now in my 20’s and discovered that my period is very irregular. Sometimes I think that this is my punishment because of my sexual sin. I try not to think about it though…
I just want this to stop. I hate sinning against God and my body. i HATE it. I want deliverance NOW. I need help. This is holding me back from spiritual growth.