To overcome fear of potential harm

Im a 27 year old woman with so much life experience in pain and sufferings. However God has provided favor for me along my journey. This is what gives me such strong faith in moving forward in a postive manner. My biggest trail at this time is the father of my kids. Ive been in a relationship with him for the last 10 yrs. ( yes making me only 16 when I meet him) He is five years of age older than I. Since day one this man has had a life of drugs, stealing and physical abuse towards me. As a teenager I was young and nieve. I always thought that if I loved him enough and stayed loyal he would change. Yes, very wishful thinking. But leaving him was not an option. He would put great fear in me and put hands on me to the point that ive needed stitches. Needles to say he has spent many years in and out of prison. He was incarcerated this last time 3 yrs ago and will be out by christmas of next year. Upon him going back to jail this last time I have told him, we are no longer in a relationship. I have not sent him money or even seen him. He has sent me many threatening letters and is fabricating way out stories about what he thinks im doing while he is away. I have always done very well for myself and my children financially while he is away. Im able to be focused in a postive direction. I dont want to live in fear of his return. Although I know he is very capable of taking my life. I want him to control me no more. However people around are always saying ” what are you going to do when he comes home? Arent you scared?” Its a constant reminder that I will face him again soon and I will have to face the reality of the choice I have now made yet again. My kids are 9 1/2, 8 & 5. They are so amazing and I pray for God to touch their fathers heart and allow us both the blessing to watch our children grow up into humble, successful adults. Any prayers for this matter are GREATLY appreciated!!

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