The Development

From “The Holy Spirit and Christian Testimonies, by C. Marie,

While “Christa Jones” tried to spiritual development in the Lord and grow in the Christian faith, she had a short temper and unstable emotions, and it was a part of her character to have explosions and emotional breakdowns too. Since she was lonely, angry, and deeply distressed, she became emotionally ill. That made her regularly snap, which led her to unintentionally direct violent rages at her own children at times. While she believed to have experienced a spiritual moment one day, she was rebuked and warned that if she did not pacify her anger, as a permanent lifestyle for her to adopt, then her life would change in ways to where she would always have to watch her back against others. She was to experience many horrible incidences.

Psalms 94:12, “Blessed is the man whom thou chastenest, O LORD, …”

Proverbs 3:11-12, “My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction: For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth.”

Hebrews 12:5-13, “And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons. Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live? For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness. Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby. Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed.”

Psalms 118:18, “The LORD hath chastened me sore: but he hath not given me over unto death.”

Revelations 3:19, “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.”

“Christa” immediately became determined to be straightened, to the extent that she worked on her attitude and temper.

Colossians 3:8, “But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, …”

James 1:19-20, “Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be … slow to wrath: For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.”

“Christa” felt that it was a challenge for her because she was filled with a lot of fury, which resulted from the obstacles that she faced in life.

Proverbs 14:29, “He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he that is
hasty of spirit exalteth folly.”

Proverbs 15:1 and 18, “A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but he that is slow to anger appeaseth strife.”

Proverbs 16:32, “He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city.”

Proverbs 19:11, “The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression.”

Proverbs 27:4, “Wrath is cruel, and anger is outrageous; …”

“Christa” was a single-parent mother who constantly struggled to overcome the hurdles that life had thrown at her.

Psalms 37:5-6, “Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; …And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.”

Around that time, “Christa” had a dream that allowed to see how innocent and precious that children were.

Psalms 51:1-3, “Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.

Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions: …”

“Christa” needed to acknowledge that although she deeply loved her children, she often dealt with them very harshly, in physically ways. She had to recognize that as the situation was very serious, it had gotten out-of-control and was unacceptable.

Psalms 111:10, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: …”

Philippians 2:12, “Wherefore, my beloved, … work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.”

Psalms 37:8-11, “Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil. For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth. For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be. But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.”

Ephesians 4:30-31, “And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice:”

One day, “Christa” and her children were outside of their home. Then they were approached by a much older woman named “Phoebe,” who was also a single-parent mother, and she had some children with her side. After a friendly introduction, “Phoebe” told “Christa” that she lived in the same neighborhood, and how the children with her were just a few out her very large family.

“Phoebe” eventually noticed that “Christa” and her children lacked the large devoted bodyguards that she stayed surrounded by. So after that, “Christa” and her children were victimized by “Phoebe,” her many adult children, and bundles of grandchildren, while “Phoebe” was the instigator, troublemaker, and ringleader of the entourage.

Psalms 27:11-12, “Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.”

While “Phoebe” and her entourage viewed “Christa” and her children as a small household who were defenseless and weak against them, “Phoebe” carried herself as if she was an influential thug mother.

2 Samuel 24:14, “And David said … I am in a great strait: let us fall now into the hand of the LORD; for his mercies are great: and let me not fall into the hand of man.”

Psalms 56:4-6, “In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me. Every day they wrest my words: all their thoughts are against me for evil. They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps, when they wait for my soul.”

“Christa” acknowledged that “Phoebe” and her entourage never had a personal conflict with her.

Proverbs 3:30, “Strive not with a man without cause, if he have done thee no harm.”

But “Christa” knew how “Phoebe’s” outlook on life was, “bad is good” and “good is bad,” and such characteristics to be the meanest, nastiest, and the most feared were placed upon “Phoebe’s” family. They regularly engaged themselves in behaviors that would have concerned and disturbed any typical mother. However, a significant amount of their sinful behaviors were done from “Phoebe’s” commands and approvals, as they modeled after her individually by some different degrees.

Nevertheless, “Christa” had compassion in her heart for them.

Titus 3:2, “To speak evil of no man, to be no brawlers, but gentle, shewing all meekness unto all men.”

St. Matthew 5:9, “Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.”

Hebrews 12:14-15, “Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord: Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;”

2 Peter 1: 4-11, “Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust. And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity. For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath forgotten that he was purged from his old sins. Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall: For so an entrance shall be ministered unto you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.”

Upon “Christa” growth in the Christian faith, “Phoebe” and her entourage interpreted her kindness and mercy as if those were her ways of trying to impress them.

Psalms 4:5, “Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the LORD.”

St. Luke 6:35-36, “…, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful.”

Romans 12:9-10, “Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;”

Romans 15:1-4, “We then that are strong ought to bear the infirmities of the weak, and not to please ourselves. Let every one of us please his neighbour for his good to edification. For even Christ pleased not himself; but, as it is written, The reproaches of them that reproached thee fell on me. For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope.”

Consequent to “Phoebe” and her entourage’s presumption, they carried themselves more outrageously negative towards “Christa” and her children.

Psalms 25:2, “O my God, I trust in thee: let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me.”

St. Matthew 5:39-48, “But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also. And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain. Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away. Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same? And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so? Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.”

Whenever “Christa” felt angry and ready to snap, she asked the Holy Spirit if He would move in her in ways that would comfort her. She also became more determined to present herself as Godfearing as she could.

2 Corinthians 13:11, “Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you.”

Proverbs 10:27, “The fear of the LORD prolongeth days: …”

Proverbs 14:26-27, “In the fear of the LORD is strong confidence: and his children shall have a place of refuge. The fear of the LORD is a fountain of life, …”

Proverbs 16:6, “By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil.”

Proverbs 19:23, “The fear of the LORD tendeth to life: and he that hath it shall abide satisfied; he shall not be visited with evil.”

2 Corinthians 7:1, “Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.”

Psalms 115:11, “Ye that fear the LORD, trust in the LORD: he is their help and their shield.”

So while “Christa” held her peace the best that she was able to, she continued to practice daily composure and restraint towards “Phoebe” and her family.

Psalms 112:1, “… Blessed is the man that feareth the LORD, that delighteth greatly in his commandments.”

Romans 12:17-21, “Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men. If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men. Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head. Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.”

Psalms 115:13, “He will bless them that fear the LORD, both small and great.”

“Christa” valued her “Quiet Time.” That was a peaceful, silent, anger-management, prayerful event that took place after all of her children were asleep in their beds.

Ephesians 2:13-15 and 21-22, “But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes were far off are made nigh …For he is our peace, who hath made both one, and hath broken down the middle wall of partition between us; Having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; for to make in himself of twain one new man, so making peace; In whom all the building fitly framed together groweth unto an holy temple in the Lord: In whom ye also are builded together for an habitation of God through the Spirit.”

During “Quiet Time,” “Christa” turned off all of the lights and gave her thoughts to the Lord, while she either exercised or sat in a room at night, with opened windows in her home, so that she was able to breathe in some fresh air and have it circulate in all of the rooms meantime. She also prayed about the blessings she had, as well as motivated herself to continue to try being a better mother and role model to her children, along with thoughts of how she would be a better woman of God.

Psalms 103:8-18, “The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever. He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us. Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust. As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more. But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children’s children; To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them.”

Psalms 25:4-21, “Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day. Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old. Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O LORD. Good and upright is the LORD: therefore will he teach sinners in the way. The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way. All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies. For thy name’s sake, O LORD, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great. What man is he that feareth the LORD? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose. His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth. The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant. Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net. Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses. Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins. Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred. O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee.”

Psalms 19:12-14, “Who can understand his errors? Cleanse thou me from secret faults. Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and I shall be innocent from the great transgression. Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.”

At one point, whenever “Christa” seen some of “Phoebe’s” entourage outside, they would yell insults and taunts at her.

Psalms 56:9, “When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me.”

Psalms 59:1, “Deliver me from mine enemies, O my God: defend me from them that rise up against me.”

Psalms118:6, “The LORD is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?”

During one of those incidences, “Christa” began to pray to God about the conflict, when she believed to have felt the Holy Spirit from within, given the tension filled air. While she believed that He was comforting her meanwhile, she tuned those individuals out.

Isaiah 41:10, “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”

Psalms 109:3-5, “They compassed me about also with words of hatred; and fought against me without a cause. For my love they are my adversaries: but I give myself unto prayer. And they have rewarded me evil for good, and hatred for my love.”

Psalms 17:5-9, “Hold up my goings in thy paths, that my footsteps slip not. I have called upon thee, for thou wilt hear me, O God: incline thine ear unto me, and hear my speech. Shew thy marvelous lovingkindness, O thou that savest by thy right hand them which put their trust in thee from those that rise up against them. Keep me as the apple of the eye, hide me under the shadow of thy wings, From the wicked that oppress me, from my deadly enemies, who compass me about.”

Psalms 34:7-9, “The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them. O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him.”

Psalms 118:4, “Let them now that fear the LORD say, that his mercy endureth for ever.”

“Christa” aimed to become emotionally stable and reserved. From the prayer, she told God that she was tired of how disturbing “Phoebe” and her entourage treated her and her children, despite how good she and her children been to them.

1 Peter 3:12-16, “For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil. And who is he that will harm you, if ye be followers of that which is good? But and if ye suffer for righteousness’ sake, happy are ye: and be not afraid of their terror, neither be troubled; But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear: Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ.”

Psalms 60:4, “Thou hast given a banner to them that fear thee, that it may be displayed because of the truth. Selah.”

Psalms 103:11, “For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.”

After the particular disrespectful incident, “Christa” came to respond to “Phoebe” and the entourage by staying friendly, but avoiding them on the streets. She also practiced to control her emotions, and allow God to deal with her issues in accords to His righteous judgments.

Psalms 119:156-157, “Great are thy tender mercies, O LORD: quicken me according to thy judgments. Many are my persecutors and mine enemies; yet do I not decline from thy testimonies.”

Psalms 27:1-6, “The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident. One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple. For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.”

Psalms 31:19-20, “Oh how great is thy goodness, which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee; which thou hast wrought for them that trust in thee before the sons of men! Thou shalt hide them in the secret of thy presence from the pride of man: thou shalt keep them secretly in a pavilion from the strife of tongues.”

Psalms 18:17-30, “He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me. They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the LORD was my stay. He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, because he delighted in me. The LORD rewarded me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me. For I have kept the ways of the LORD, and have not wickedly departed from my God. For all his judgments were before me, and I did not put away his statutes from me. I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity. Therefore hath the LORD recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight. With the merciful thou wilt shew thyself merciful; with an upright man thou wilt shew thyself upright; With the pure thou wilt shew thyself pure; and with the froward thou wilt shew thyself froward. For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks. For thou wilt light my candle: the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness. For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the LORD is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him.”

“Christa” and her children’s conflicts with “Phoebe” and the entourage eventually became past issues. But it still remained a part of “Christa’s” lifestyle to constantly check herself in the Holy Spirit, two being about how she was a mother to her children, and how she was as a woman of God.

2 Timothy 2:15, “Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.”

Psalms 139:1-18 and 23-24, “O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

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