Youth Delivered from Drugs, Porn, Masturbation, Depression

I’m Isaac Snuffer, 15, and here is the story of how God has changed my life completely.

I was raised in a Christian home, attending a church where God moved greatly as young as 2, and saw God move all the time. During this time I gave my life to Christ, but did not fully understand the power of God nor even who he was. All I knew was the basics of the faith taught in the nursery classes at churches.

Now skipping on, about the time I got into sixth grade, about the time I was 11, because of peer presure I started to get into pornography and masturbation, getting worse as time went on, not acually knowing that these things were sinful at the time. This was about 2003. The next year I got in with a bit of a worse crowd. For about a year I was fine, but starting about summer 2005 I started swearing, and listening to somewhat Satanic music. Also about this time depression hit me. I started to hate my life, wishing it would end. I was ready for suicide. Then in winter 2005 I started skateboarding, as a release for all of my
feelings of depression. This worked for about half a year, about mid-spring 2006. About this time it started coming back, yet I didn’t want to just end it all.

Though I hated life I had something in me telling me not to end it, a fear of death, which I know now was God
watching out for me even though I was against him. So about that summer I started looking up ways to get high. I wanted an escape from the pain I felt inside. So in November 2006 I tried to get high for the first time, taking Diphenhydramine HCL(an OTC medicine which I will not mention the brand name incase of someone wanting drugs reads this). It wasn’t all that good, but I needed to get rid of the pain, so I continued to take it in low doses, until one Sun. night in Nov. I decided to take some until I really got an effect. I ended up taking 18 times the reccommended dose, and in this started hallucinating heavily, which scared the crap out of me, but I convinced myself it was fun. After this point I was taking OTC drugs heavily, even stealing some from Wal Mart to meet my need for drugs. I was getting
high at least twice a week. I know I was addicted, and even once saw a demon come out of my television. I once again began to contemplate suicide, unbeknownst to my friends, who thought I was happy. Even my friend who I did drugs with, who was ironically from my youth group,
thought I was happy. But I wasn’t.

Then, on March 9, 2007, my youth group went to a 3 day youth rally in Knoxville. On the second night me and my friend were saved and filled with the Holy Spirit, and I was freed. Freed from the hold drugs had on me. Freed me of my masturbation. Freed on my depression. Freed of the bondages of sin.

Since then, God has done great things in my life. I’m happy. My personality was changed from the mess it was in to a loving personality. I don’t swear anymore. I’m a completely different person. Thank you God, for accepting even me into your family.

Isaac Snuffer, Victory Skater!
isaacsnuffer AT@ gmail.com

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  1. hey everyone, I came on here to say that i am struggling to with this also. i feel that there is no hope for me. i tried everything to get rid of this.. and i just cant do it. but i refuse to give up and im going to keep on going until it is gone FOR GOOD. Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. if you can keep me in your prayers.

  2. Dave Newt says:

    I understand about the porn and masturbation thing. When I decided to quit masturbation I found that it was much more difficult than I had imagined. I resisted the urge but could not escape from it. I sought God and prayed and prayed but nothing. Until one day when I gave up trying to quit I said to God “I cannot quit,it´s too difficult”. From that point on I have never had the urge to masturbate. I believe their were evil spirits around or in me which God dealt with in His own time. The time I was set free from this conincides with a demonic attack while I was sleeping. I woke, half awake knowing there was something maligne on my bed and I was unable to speak. This did not worry me, but from then on I found myself to be free of this bad habit. When you stop trying to do things and let God do them that is when things begin to happen. Also, we must stop looking at garbage on the T.V. “Turn our eyes from worthless things and revive is our way” speaks the Psalm. LEt us never forget th magnitude of God and His wisdom. Amen.

  3. gordwick says:

    You had some pretty tough experience at your early age, that’s why it’s very encouraging to learn that you recovered form all that. You should make your story accessible for more teens, as we speak there are thousands of teens living in despair and misery because of drugs, they need to know that recovery is possible and there is a way back from drugs and depression. Working in a drug rehab center helped me see that there is hope as long as you decide to make a change in your life.

  4. jevoneagle says:

    Kim, God loves you so much, He cares for you and really want to set you free. He knows your weakness, and He said : ” My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness” (2 Cor 12:9-10)”.
    When you are struggling with your own power, you might end up in failure. Thus, let the Spirit of the Lord works within you. Live by the Spirit not by flesh. It will set you free.
    One fact that I know, that demons often attack God’s children through EYES. So, be careful with what your eyes see. Let your eyes see on God, not to this world. You are holy because He is holy.
    How you use your time also is also important. Time is about God’s trust. Whether we will use it wisely or just spend it with useless activity. Demons often attack when we don’t use our time as it should be. For instance, when we are browsing in google to search for some assignment task, we open the porn page, thus we falsely use our time. So be wise in this day.

    The last but not least, the most powerful way to free up your self from any sins are:

    RUN RUN RUN
    Run from all the things that stimulate you to do the sins. Run from watching porn movie, books, picture, etc. Pornography will be always exist, we can never make it disappear. but we can run from it.

    PRAY PRAY PRAY
    Praying is the easiest way to ask for God’s strength. Remember that we can do it by our own strength, but only by His.

    There is NO “JUST THIS ONCE”

    Jesus loves you Kim

  5. isaacjohnson45 says:

    I too have suffered from addictions to both drugs and porn. I found myself going down the wrong path away from everything I knew to be good and right. The harder I tried to pull myself out of this vicious cycle the farther away I found myself from being on the right path. The drugs and pornography were ruining my life and I wasn’t able to be happy. I was more and more isolated from the general public and looked down upon by my friends, family and community. I needed answers and I needed happiness. I had to regain control of my life again. I found my salvation in Narconon Vista Bay. I was able to cure myself of my wrong doings and pursue a life that was more in tune with what is right and moral.

  6. healedbyfaith says:

    I shared a similar experience with addiction to porn and masturbation. I got drunk with the filth from lewd movies, books and at one point I found myself fantasising about lesbian activities. It got worse and worse, i felt totally cut off from God. I became angry, depressed, suicidal..you name it.

    The Lord spoke to my heart and i realised how deep I had sunk, and I wasn’t sure if it was possible for God to love me anymore. I wept and prayed, cried out for mercy! God’s spirit set me free and I was moved to get rid of all the garbage i has accumulated. I threw out the books, movies, sex toys..everything.

    Praise God today I am free. The temptation is there but God’s grace has kept me. He can deliver you. Just profess that you denounce and renounce every sexual immorality in the name of Jesus. Declare that God’s grace has the power to break every chain and enemy stronghold in your life in the name of Jesus. I pray that the healing, saving power of Jesus will set someone free this day, amen.

    • I was brought up with the saying, “Everything in moderation”. As far as I am concerned thst can include some drugs and definitely masturation. Why would there be cannabis and salvia growing wild if people were not supposed to get some benefit from them. Cannabis has many medical uses for example.

      As for the M word, I agree it can be become a bit obsessive at times but if people are not in a relationship, so what. Even if they are in one, mutual masturbation can be very pleasing. So can looking at porn.

      My main issue is with women being seen as sexual objects for male pleasure but there are so many amateurs posting porn these days who appear to be under no finacial or other pressure to do so. Of course many religions are guilty of keeping women in their place. I was watching this clip
      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhHG1ik-ZL4&feature=player_embedded
      about how many wives a Saudi man is allowed to have according to the koran.

      • new creature says:

        What about murder – in moderation of course? What about lying…in moderation of course? What about a little hatred…or swearing…or wishing you had something that belongs to your neighbour…or to the rich man in his ivory tower…or cheating on your boss…or cheating the Tax office…all in moderation of course?

        No. My friend. Let me tell you that masturbation is fornication with yourdself. It is sodomy. Read Genesis 38. There you have an account of a son who masturbated so that the lady he should have married didn’t get his seed…”he wasted his semen to the ground…” (Gen.38:9). Now read verse 10. “And what he did was evil in the eyes of Jehovah, and He also killed him.”
        Onan died simply because he masturbated. God has never changed on this issue. It is a mercy that I, and the tens of millions of people who have fornicated in this way were not struck dead by God at the first filthy act of sin. God could have done that. I dare say if He had, there would be very few people left alive today.
        God is giving us time to repent so that we will live forever with joy and gladness in His Heavenly home. And to be useful on this earth in the meantime.
        Be not deceived. God is not mocked. Whatever a man sows he will reap. Sow a little masturbation and you will reap the consequences for eternity and you will never be free from that sin in Hell and the Lake of Fire. Flee from the wrath of God and run to Jesus. Flee fornication!
        Jesus wants to fill you with His love and holiness – purity, and power. Jesus will give you new greater desires. Repent. Believe in Jesus. Be baptized in water for the remission of sins. And you will receive the gift of the HOLY Spirit. Get into God’s HOLY Word. Surround yourself with holy people made holy by God through Christ who love the HOLY God and people and hate unholy sin.
        Just a quick note on Onan again. The semen is seed – of human life. Onan kew his semen was seed of life – from God. This is God’s gift to you to be given in in holy marriage according to the Bible, not so that you can spill it down the toilet. But so that God may have another person who will praise Him for eternity. The pleasure that comes from the sex act is to be shared with your marriage partner (of the opposite sex), not to spend on yourself.
        Each time any one masturbates they are stealing from God (if they do not end up marrying), and from their wife if a man or husband if a woman) as well as God.
        Masturbation for a fellow is no different in God’s eyes to getting hold of a new born baby and dumping it in a black plastic bag and throwing it into the rubbish bin. Masturbation is theft. Thieves will end up in Hell unless they repent.

        Jesus came to show us the only Way to Heaven. let Him take over your whole life – hold nothing back. Ask Him to get rid of every corrupt thing which will condemn you to everlasting shame, and fill you with everything that will prepare you for everlasting glory. Love life. The seed from the body – is life. Treasure it. Keep it safe until God gives you a wife to share it with. God holds us accountable for everything He has given to us. Would you flush your paycheck down the toilet? Would you set fire to your house and just enjoy watching it burn? Those who are cast into hell will burn in unquenchable fire. Don’t go there. You body is a temple a holy temple of the Holy Spirit. God wants to take over all your desires, man or woman, and fill you with His glory and light. Don’t sell yourself short any longer. It is not worth it. I know. Jesus is so WONDERFUL. Love Him and enjoy Him. He is greater than any sin or sinful desire.

        • Timothy Luke says:

          Onan died because he defrauded the wife of his brother and he defiled her. He rebelled against the commandment of the Lord to raise up a name for the dead. It was not just a simple case of masturbation.

          Masturbation is wrong, for a number of reasons. The first of which is that it takes something that was created for a specific, and special relationship with another, and turns it into a selfish act. The addictive nature of it also tells you that the devil is the one driving it, not the spirit of God.

          Just adding some thoughts to what you have shared. We are definitely in agreement that this is wrong….

        • lookinforacity says:

          Hi Ian

          Reading the account of the event spoken of, it did not say he masturbated, it could also be understood from the way it was written, he had sexual relations with her but did not complete the act with her.
          If you know what I mean?
          You are reading into scripture, something which it does not clearly say. therefore you cannot assume it does, that is shaky ground to base a doctrine on.

          Gen 38:9
          And Onan knew that the seed should not be his; and it came to pass, when (HE WENT IN UNTO HIS BROTHERS WIFE), that he spilled it on the ground, lest that he should give seed to his brother.

          I agree with what Tim has said, but I would add, Onan, appearing to be honoring his brothers memory, “TOOK” her to wife, but defrauded her.

          Be Blessed
          JIM

          • new creature says:

            The word ‘masturbate’ is not in the text for sure. But is it in any modern paraphrase?
            We must put it under fornication – all or any form of sexual perversions.
            But we cannot dismiss it entirely from the passage as a possibility. I will be less dogmatic on the point I made there, so thank you for pointing it out. But lest anyone think this then softens God’s condemnation against masturbation, – Do not be fooled, God is not mocked. It has an end. There is nothing good or virtuous about it..

            If anyone is interested, have a look at the entry on the www under Pastor Philip Mantofa’: A Trip To Hell – Kesaksian Tentang Neraka. A modern voice cries out against an old practice in the love and name of the Lord.

          • lookinforacity says:

            Hi Ian

            A Paraphrase version, can be used in some instances for clarification of difficult passages, because it is written in the language of today, (the vulgate) of our time. It may give you some direction of understanding, but Paraphrased versions, are useless when we get into the area of Interpretation of the Bible.

            When you say
            “But we cannot dismiss it entirely from the passage as a possibility.”

            My answer is:
            In the Old Testament, when we see the phrase “AND HE KNEW HIS WIFE” we know what is being spoken of, also, in like manner, when we see in this passage, “HE WENT IN UNTO HIS BROTHERS WIFE” the same circumstance is the subject.
            Therefore when it says “he went in unto her” we understand, it was for the purpose of sexual relations.

            Are you aware, that the post you have answered which was posted by JT865able, was posted on March 18 of – – 2010?

            Be Blessed
            JIM

          • Timothy Luke says:

            Jim, perhaps it is an example of when we want all the fun, but none of the responsibility of sex. This nation is dying and its liberties are being stripped away all for the wanton desire of those who wish to play the game, but not pay the price responsibility-wise. Sex is for marriage, period.

  7. childofgod_24 says:

    read your posting on christian-faith.com i am currently struggling from an addiction to pornography and masturbation. i have prayed several times for God to deliver me. but it seems as though i keep going back to it. My story is similar to yours, it all started with what I saw, then it grew from there. I fell so guilty and i hate myself after I look at it and masturbate. I love God soooo much and I do believe that he wants to deliver me. I get frustrated because no matter how much a pray or fast it seems that i cant break the addiction. I want to the desire to go away!!!!!! I hate myself after I do it and i have been at the point several times that i am o ashamed that I want to kill myself or just give up on God and ever being delivered but the voice that lives within me tells me not to give up there is a break through waiting on me. i just need to press in a get it. You are the only person on this earth that I have told this to. no one else knows!! im telling you because i want you to be the one who stands in the gap for me. i want you to keep me in your prayers because I iknow that you inderstand were I am coming from. please respond to me as soon as you get the chance… Thank you soooooo much for telling your story. i appreciate it !!

    God Bless you,

    Kim

    • kings son says:

      Hey Kim,

      I understand your pain. The enemy causes us to feel guilty of our mistakes. I too was caught up with this. It was taught to me at a young age by my father, who was and is a christian. I do not blame him, but I did not know, so i lived w/ this addiction from age of 9 to 27. It turned into a habit. It was like a outlet. Perhaps there may be a deeper issues in your life of why you fell into this sin. We as christians must remember that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. We must def. repent(in heart) and turn away. I am taught that what we bind on earth is bound in heaven and what we loose on earth is loosed in heaven(matthew 16:9) Now what you do is read this to build up you spirit man. Then you bind the spirit of masturbation and porn and loose temperance, faith and thank God and believe/ know that He has healed you. By His stripes it is done in Jesus name.

      Greater is He that is in you, then he that he that is in the world. The enemy is condemned already. He want you to feel the same way. You know the saying, misery love company. He is really miserable. Keep your strength and do not become weary in well doing. Stay strong. You should ask for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. He is our comforter. He will direct you. You yoke has been broken in Jesus name. Recieve this freedom.

      Sincerly,

      kings son

  8. gillian says:

    That is so awsome. God is great, and I am sure he has something very special for you to do for Him.

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