Why can’t I get free?

I have known since 2001 that I was dealing with unclean entities. The Lord showed me this, no mistake.  I’m 64 and up untill this point in my life I just thought I was dealt a real cruddy hand in life.  A rain cloud followed me around. I won’t go into great detail here, but it’s fair to say that nothing I have ever done, no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t get ahead.  My money was ALWAYS taken away or blocked from me.  Always in a financial bind, almost being destroyed financially on more than one occasion.  I can never get ahead-always struggling financially, laying awake at night, not knowing how to face the next day.  I have lost major amounts of money. 

I have traveled many miles, seen many people, prayer warriors, spiritual people, I learned of the unclean spirits, and learned of self deliverance, I’ve gone through cleanings, I have dealt with generational curses—my Dad, brother, sister and me opressed, but they have all died not knowing what they were dealing with, I have a nephew that is chocking with the same, but I can’t get close enough to him to try and help.  He hates me, period. 

I’ve gone through every process I know of to get free.  I’ve had some sucessess, but one spirit has told me he was not leaving, I believe it is the mammon spirit, due to the financial problems that continue to control me.  I can’t find a church, it seems that something always occurs that stops me from finding a church.  So I’ve virtually given up on organized religion, and tried to seek other alternatives to hear God’s spoken word, thought I had met with some sucess but this too has been taken away.

I know this posting sounds, so mechanical, but I’ve lived with this for all my life, last 10 years of knowing and trying to get free from it.  I have left all the hellest stories out of this, why bore anyone with all the self pity that these stories would create.  Pity, I’m not looking for, FREEDOM I’m desprately seeking.  At 64, I’m truly wondering–will I die like my Dad, brother, sister never to be free,  If this is my plight—Why did God allow me to know what I was dealing with—nothing makes any since.


I am a cristian, totally surrendered to God, read the Bible, yearn for the spoken word, pray incessently–but I recognize that I’m a very, very angry man –angry because I don’t know why I can get free, I struggle with all that this incurs.


Can anyone feel any connection to my plight–offer any thoughts, answers.  God Bless, and Thanks for reading.

What do YOU think?



  1. SkinnyRabbit says:

    Hello there! I am new here and a fresh Christian so please forgive me for not applying much needed Bible references as so many do!
    My mother has guided me very much so and is very matter of fact when it comes to any bad thoughts that pass through me…’You know where this comes from’ she says, ‘and it aint from God! I agree with what others have said to you… and believe me you are not the only Christian to experience such feelings. These feelings of worry and anger you have come from powerful spirits that can make you feel undoubtedly consumed. But you must remember that these spirits are not from God and thus are trying to keep you down and weaken you so your strength in Him is also weakened! These spirits of Satan may be powerful but do not compare with the compassion and grace that He has for you. He knows your burdens and Jesus wants you to lay them with him, not to carry them like a heavy weight. I have many times carried such things and my mother has always reminded me that there is a constant spiritual battle, but as long as you rebuke these ill thoughts and feelings in the name of Jesus nothing can get to you.
    I believe the mistake that we often make is that God will solve our problems immediately. In some cases yes, but in others it takes time. It doesn’t mean the Lord is not listening! I recently had to pray and banish a spirit that has plagued me for years in the name of Jesus. With utmost faith I believed without doubt He would do this and indeed he did. However I am realistic that if similar if not the same thoughts return not to feel doubtful or negative but to pray once more in Jesus’s name and rebuke. If it worked the first time it will work again!
    I’m deeply sorry for your woes but please try and not feed these bad feelings you have. Each time they are present in you, do not try and work out what it is all about because that would be feeding the bad. Indeed nip it in the bud if you can, firmly remind yourself where it comes from which is not from God and firmly ask it to leave in Jesus’s name.
    Finally, ask God to guide you to a pastor that is experienced and one who will listen to you, your plight and be able to offer sound advice. You do not have to do everything on your own… I for one at times need to speak my woes and questions I may have to someone experienced instead of listening to myself. The Lord will speak to you quietly, just get rid of all that noise going on in your head and still your heart.
    Sorry for writing such a long response and hope through mine and other’s responses that peace and clarity finds its way to you!
    God Bless!

  2. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy towards you, slow to anger and abounding in love (Psalm 103:8). He wants you to experience freedom. But do you believe His truths towards you? You know, I’ve recently been learning that Christ has purchased our FULL victory and freedom on the cross from all curses and bondages, including the curse of our flesh. Through His victory we can walk in freedom from anger, fits of rage, lust towards material possession and money, we can walk in the Spirit of love, power and sound mind He has given us, including peace, grace and joy.

    However I’ve also learnt of the power of doubt and unbelief that can keep us from claiming what is ours in Christ and the truths of God toward us in His word and by His Spirit. Sometimes our freedom can rest on something simply as our unbelief and allowing doubt to steal God’s blessings from us. I wonder if this could be true of your situation? I’m not sure of the specifics of your situation, but I guess my counsel would be to press into what Christ has done for you on the cross, seek God for revelation of this according to your situation from the Holy Spirit, and stand firm in God’s truth and what Christ has done for you and given you, resisting and casting down doubt and unbelief. It’s amazing how we can not receive what God has for us, or the truths toward us in His word if they are mixed with spirit of doubt and unbelief, which God has not given us either. So I guess I would suggest seeking God to stand strong in the victory and freedom that is in Christ Jesus, asking the Holy Spirit for guidance and revelation in regards to this and your situation.

    God bless you.

    Psalm 23
    A Psalm of David.
    1 The LORD is my shepherd;
    I shall not want.
    2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
    He leads me beside the still waters.
    3 He restores my soul;
    He leads me in the paths of righteousness
    For His name’s sake.

    4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil;
    For You are with me;
    Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

    5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
    You anoint my head with oil;
    My cup runs over.
    6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
    All the days of my life;
    And I will dwell[a] in the house of the LORD

  3. Blackmagicrescue says:

    I have to tell you that this kind of post breaks my heart.

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  4. Read Michael`s comment on “the meaning of the tree of life”. You might like the perspective, the viewpoint. I did this a couple of years ago now. and am so much happier. God bless you in this.

  5. carlaforjesus says:

    Hello, I don’t have all of the answers, but I have had thoughts similar to yours about getting “free”. Number one, don’t ever give up on GOD no matter how bad it looks. I want to encourage you to keep the faith and I know without a doubt you are and will be blessed. It’s not as easy as it sounds but you say you are angry – pray for the LORD to forgive you for this and tell the spirit of anger to leave you in the name and authority of JESUS. Look over yourself and see if there is any “door” open for spirits to come through. Many times worrying and fear cause us to lose faith, but now when I start having those old worries come back into my mind, I rebuke them in the name of JESUS and stand on HIS Word and promises. I’m discovering that a lot of my worries and fears are “phantoms” – illusions, a trick of the enemy to keep me down but are not real and have no power over GOD’s Word and Power. Keep fighting, keep the faith and SEE yourself being blessed. GOD bless you in the name of JESUS!

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