Written on Saturday, July 19, 2008 http://www.myspace.com/solomon69
John 8:32 Says :- 32 And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
31 Jesus said to the people who believed in him, “You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings.” 32 And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
Dear Breath of GOD,
Even though I was born and brought up in a Christian family I never know JESUS as my LORD and personal SAVIOR. I was just following Christianity just because I was born and brought up in that custom. I never had any knowledge of who JESUS was and is.
Finally, when I was sixteen I heard for the very first time in a Pentecostal church about the LORD’s rapture, antichrist and HIS second coming. He also preached by saying ‘If you die today where will you go’ that scared the nerve out of me.
In the end of the sermon, the pastor who preached mentioned to raise the hand of people who accept JESUS as LORD and personal SAVIOR and I did. That’s was the day I asked JESUS into my heart in fear of being left out during rapture and in fear of facing the days of antichrist.
My fear was, I wanted to be taken up in the rupture, without being left out. That was my highest priority and I did all what I can to keep my spirit, soul, mind, and body without blemish from wrong doings. I was sixteen in the year 1990 when I first heard such message and due to that, a transformation took place in my life.
The fear of antichrist and rapture did not last long in my life. I was able to keep the light burring within myself only for about sex months and gradually I became cold within myself. I was thinking it was too soon to become holy by trying to be perfect following the truth, while there is lot of fun and folly out there to enjoy, explore, and discover the possibilities of impossible.
Though I consumed alcohol and smoke cigarettes, I never had any kind of drugs.
What caught me was my own weakness of my flesh for flesh. I was much keen to explore the human sexuality (involvement or interest in sexual activity with) with the counterpart. I was not like this before. All started after I started to read explicit literature about sex and it motivated my mind to try those in real life taking advantage of weaker sex by manipulating them to trust me as a honest guy, this became a pleasurable adventure for me.
I never gave up on attending the Pentecostal church. With all my falsehood ‘I was a wolf covered with sheep skin’ no one knew what sort of a person I was except LORD JESUS and satan. Yet with all my sins, I truly had a desire to follow JESUS because I was hearing every Sunday life saving message about the love of CHRIST from the ‘pulpit’ to bring me out of the pit.
I was touched by the love and sacrifice JESUS made on the cross with obedience and humbleness in order to save me from my sin and shame. To save me from my willful sins to give me courage and strength to resist t them.
Even after knowing the truth and the truth will set me free, I was not happy to follow the truth but followed the lies of my mind. I know very well the truth kept on pricking my conscious to repent from my willful sins but simply the mind did not give in.
One day in the year 1996 March as I was listing to a sermon, my conscious stared to pricking me saying the precious souls that I have win for the LORD are been manipulated by my selfish motive and that broke my heart. I started to realize if those souls have to die right now, then I am the one who is responsible for them, in not getting to know the LORD JESUS.
Genesis 2:7 Says :- And the LORD GOD formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul. ….
Ecclesiastes 12:7 Says And the dust goes back to the earth as it was, and the breath goes back to God who gave it.
The above given two word of GOD are the eye-opener for my life, soul, spirit and body to be free from my willful sins.
I realize that all souls are breath of GOD, created by GOD for a plan and purpose by HIM. I felt very ashamed of myself, sad for all what I have done. I realize hurting, cheating, lying to a soul means hurting GOD in return. It is GOD’s breath, which is in each one, and they do not know that they belong to GOD and HE is their creator. GOD wanted each one of us to proclaim the good news about HIM that HE died on the cross, rose from the dead so we may have eternal life with HIM, to take away our sin and shame in order to save us all.
From that day onwards, I started to call upon my CREATOR to help HIS creation in order to have a change of heart, renew of my mind within myself which I could not see from Jan 1990 to March 1995. I know for sure that He is near to me throughout all my willful sins that I committed deliberately, but I did not turn to him.
I was fully aware if I call HIM HE is ever willing to help me to come out of the pit I was in, but I did not call. When I called upon HIM, HE did help me to come out of the bondage I was in. With my desire to change and with the help of my LORD JESUS I was able to give up the things once I did. I was reluctant to give up in the start but finally manage to come out of it all by HIS love, grace, and mercy.
Later on, I revealed to those I pretended to be good, asking them to forgive me for the wrongs I have done to them and leading them to CHRIST.
Dear Breath of the LORD JESUS.
‘Look at me’
If what I mentioned above spark any wisdom to you and if you or your friends are in the same boat as once I was. On the other hand, going through something similar like what I went through or extremely different from mine. This is your day. Ask JESUS into your heart. Make HIM you personal SAVIOR. Save yourself from your willful sins.
Say this prayer.
LORD JESUS, I am a sinner, please come into my heart. Help me to change and to be the person you want me to be, to bring many unto you. In the name of JESUS, I ask you heavenly FATHER GOD. Amen.