“The Fastings,” an excerpt from The Holy Spirit and Christian Testimonies, by C. Marie, www.theholyspiritacts.com
“Shelly Blue” went on fast and a prayer for a couple of months, and she fasted weekly for twenty four hours, as those were considered to have been very spiritual exercises of faith and growth for her. She consistently used a sunset hour on one evening, until a sunset hour on the next one. Those were during the slow days of the week for her.
So at those time periods, “Shelly” kept her workload to a minimal while she done nothing else but mostly pray to God, express any guilt and remorse that she had, recognized her faults and repented from what needed to be change, focused on the Lord, and read The Holy Bible.
Psalms 139:23-24, “Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
After “Shelly” awakened, already in the middle of her fast, she prayed and blessed herself. Then she spent part of the day in prayers on behalf of random people, while she tried to carry herself as peaceful and Christ-like as she possibly was able to. After she fasted a few times, it became a habit for her to always look at herself, to have a conscious of her own thoughts, words, and behaviors.
St. Mark 7:15-23, “There is nothing from without a man, that entering into him can defile him: but the things which come out of him, those are they that defile the man. If any man have ears to hear, let him hear. And when he was entered into the house from the people, his disciples asked him concerning the parable. And he saith unto them, Are ye so without understanding also? Do ye not perceive, that whatsoever thing from without entereth into the man, it cannot defile him; Because it entereth not into his heart, but into the belly, and goeth out into the draught, purging all meats? And he said, That which cometh out of the man, that defileth the man. For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, …wickedness, …, an evil eye, …foolishness: All these evil things come from within, and defile the man.”
If “Shelly” wanted to get the Lord’s attention, but did not know what to think about, she just said, “Jesus” in her thoughts. She also had some moment when she told God that she just wanted to respect and pay attention to Him and the Lord, although she just wanted to relax and have nothing in her thoughts at the time. If she did not make such interactions either, then she counted her blessings to God, or sung songs from her heart to both Him and the Lord.
The time eventually came when “Shelly” believed that the Holy Spirit gave her revelations about people she knew, who needed to be prayed about, even if she had not seen or thought about them in the years that passed. From what she knew then, one moment she was into her fast, then would instantly think about certain people. Sometimes she did not know what to pray about. So she just thought about what she knew and prayed for what she felt needed prayers, which she later acknowledged how those were usually the very same things that needed her attention, to bring to the Holy Spirit.
During “Shelly’s” fast, she believed that she fully examined herself, renewed her heart, rejuvenated her spirit, further strengthened her relationship with the Lord, and identified her own faults, as much as she was able to keep from distractions. Nevertheless, she recognized that whenever her thoughts wondered off to some things that were considered to have been sinful and unholy, she excused herself, refocused on the Lord, continued her prayers, as well as gave and kept her thoughts towards Him as much as she was able to. After the weekly fast would end for the week, she would awaken and come to believe that she gained further insights about at least one person who she kept in her thoughts and prayers during the fast that ended some hours earlier. From that, she further kept individuals in her thought and prayers, which continued after she finished her scheduled fastings.