Sexual Immorality

In the past year, God has delivered me from suicidal thoughts, magic, and the occult. But I still struggle with my sexuality and immorality. I started masturbating a year ago and quickly became addicted. There have been times where I have masturbated four to six times a day. I’ve tried stopping many times but my longest period of abstinence was a month before I lapsed back into it again. I have prayed to God for deliverance from this, but it has not happened yet. And, worse, I fear I lack the faith or sincerity to pray for it anymore. I am finding that I am just apathetic at this point. I know in my mind what I am doing is wrong and disgusting, but I don’t feel it anymore, and I know this is terrible. I don’t know how I can repent without meaning what I am saying and feel horrible about it. I want to feel disgusted with myself just so I would have some more incentive to stop.

Secondly, I struggle with my sexuality. I am not gay or bisexual. I am extremely ashamed to admit it, but I am somewhat zoosexual. I try to repent and stop fantasizing about it, but I always fail and I feel like a freak when I do. I would never consider in acting upon the fantasies now, but in the bible it says that if a man looks at a woman with lust, he has already committed adultery in his heart. I may have well done it with all the fantasies I have had. I used to be more attracted to men. I still am, but not as much. And it really bothers me.

If you could offer any support or suggestions, I thank you in advance. It is highly appreciated.

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  1. michael says:

    You need to get down to the roots of why your sexual desires are like this, and let the Lord put the ax to the root of the tree. The best way I know to deal with things like this is through fasting – don’t eat – just drink water or juice for some days. Use the Bible as “food” for your spirit.

    In Christ, all things are made new. Believe for that. Romans 6 – reckon yourself dead indeed to sin and alive to God. Please see the teachings on this site.

     

    May God give you complete and lasting victory over sin!

     

     

     

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