Prayers needed

Im a 27 year old woman with so much life experience in pain and sufferings. However God has provided favor for me along my journey. This is what gives me such strong faith in moving forward in a postive manner. My biggest trail at this time is the father of my kids. Ive been in a relationship with him for the last 10 yrs. ( yes making me only 16 when I meet him) He is five years of age older than I. Since day one this man has had a life of drugs, stealing and physical abuse towards me. As a teenager I was young and nieve. I always thought that if I loved him enough and stayed loyal he would change. Yes, very wishful thinking. But leaving him was not an option. He would put great fear in me and put hands on me to the point that ive needed stitches. Needles to say he has spent many years in and out of prison. He was incarcerated this last time 3 yrs ago and will be out by christmas of next year. Upon him going back to jail this last time I have told him, we are no longer in a relationship. I have not sent him money or even seen him. He has sent me many threatening letters and is fabricating way out stories about what he thinks im doing while he is away. I have always done very well for myself and my children financially while he is away. Im able to be focused in a postive direction. I dont want to live in fear of his return. Although I know he is very capable of taking my life. I want him to control me no more. However people around are always saying ” what are you going to do when he comes home? Arent you scared?” Its a constant reminder that I will face him again soon and I will have to face the reality of the choice I have now made yet again. My kids are 9 1/2, 8 & 5. They are so amazing and I pray for God to touch their fathers heart and allow us both the blessing to watch our children grow up into humble, successful adults. Any prayers for this matter are GREATLY appreciated!!

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  1. VMarie,
    It sounds like the Lord has allowed for separation of the two of you for a reason (2Cor. 6:17-18–separate yourselves from anything that the Lord sees unclean, even a relationship that’s not Godly, and He will heal you). This is a time for your healing and if he’s willing, his also. More than likely if there is some form of control involved in a relationship, than it will react to its ‘lack of control’ of the situation. Of course, I am speaking from a spiritual perspective not in a natural sense. No one is supposed to control you. That is not what God created relationships for. He created them with Him in mind. And anything or anyone that is defeating the purpose of what He is all about, which is freedom and spreading His love among each other rightly, than it’s not in Him. The Scripture that speaks out to me about this is Romans 6:16 “Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one of whom you obey–whether you are slaves to sin which leads to death, or to obedience which leads to righteousness?” (NIV) This leads me into what is best to do now to prepare yourself in the days ahead, and the Lord can take care of those other issues (but don’t focus on what others instill in you by words); instead focus on what God says to you. Learn to hear His voice more and be led by His Spirit. By doing so, you will no longer be a slave to what is not of Him and instead will live in what He has called you to be in Him–in addition to do for His purposes. When you walk in obedience to the Lord, He will protect you from those that do not. Use your time wisely not focusing on what others may perceive outwardly, but address what the Lord wants to do with you in this time of separation. There is healing and strength in this process through His leading, you just have to take it and walk into it.

    John

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