mental breakdown of husband is hurting us

I am currently separated from my husband but we have been on friendly terms and speak of reconciling with counseling.About a month or so ago, he out of the blue told me he had thought someone had been bothering things around his place over the past few days,seeing things,shadows moving and such,He thought he heard people laughing at him,in a mocking way,it was in the tone of the laugh..he said he walked out toward where it was coming from,the edge of the yard,(and this is way out in the country) to get a better look and he said there were demons there facing him, 4 or 5 of them.He did say out loud”I rebuke you in the name of Jesus.” He said they all immediately left as in,flew up,all but the one in the front.He said it had a defiant,challenging,smirking look on his face.He said to it..”I see you” and went to step toward it and as he did it spread wings,flew toward and over his head,back over and up and as his eyes are following it up into the sky,he said the sky was full of them.It really scared him,now whether that really happened or not,I do not know.IThat is the only part of this that Im pretty sure happened.he has been dealing with depression over the loss of his job,our home was foreclosed on,he developed a dependency on prescription pain pills from a neck injury.He also developed a drinking problem a few years ago when the problems started and we quit going to counseling,when the affairs wouldn’t stop though praise God he quit drinking a few months ago..I know all of this is bound to play into the mix. Well I tried to explain to him my take on it.the enemy is trying to ruin him and steal his mind.to pray,read his bible,talk to a pastor and so on.I even layed hands on him and prayed for him.He said when he got home that night he heard what sounded like something running away.In my mind Im thinking praise God,theyre running from the blood.
Almost the next night,he began seeing helicopters following him,people lurking in the woods,people following him down the road,hes absolutely covered with scratches from running from a perceived threat,he snapped his wrist running from something he heard walking up on him one night and it goes from bad to worse.jump to now..All he has that remains is 52 acres that he lives on now,in the home where his dad committed suicide 5 years ago,which by the way,our pastors say contributed to the first affair,it was a high school love from 20 years back who called to give him her condolences that turned into a 9 month affair..anyway,he has been staying up nights watching for and seeing people in the woods..now he thinks someone is digging tunnels under the property transporting drugs,that every little scar on a tree,trimmed limb,a water bottle,a plastic bag caught in a tree is evidence that the ”whoevers” are putting markers on his property to pick up and/or deliver drugs.I went by there the other day to check on him and he had what looked like a common weed that grows all over Texas in his hand trying to convince me it was drugs.I and my 19 yr old son have been cursed to no end because we try to tell him that he is mistaken.He fled to the woods with my 9 yr old today,who was wearing flip-flops,into deep woods hiding out all day with nothing to eat or drink,it was over 90 degrees and my son has asthma,he lost his flip-flops and his dad made him trek through the woods anyway,his feet are filled with stickers and thorn holes so no,he wont be going over there till this is over.There is so much more but you get the picture already I hope.
I went to the judge today and got an emergency detention order that will go into effect mon.,two days from now.I have to have him forcibly evaluated because he believes all of this is 100% real.
Whether its the depression mixed with the pills/alcohol or whatever,I believe the enemy is binding his mind by disguise..the ROOT..the cause of this is straight out of the pit of hell. He has most always relied on me to do the praying,going to church and such.He believed in what I was doing,would go occasionally and briefly,got a taste of the Holy Spirit and began living for God but fell away because I had quit trying by then. I have since repented as i believe with all of my heart that i gave up at a critical time when i should have stayed my course.It took months for this to seep in but I got mad at God for the unfairness of it,quit counseling with my pastors,quit teaching children’s church,quit church altogether and entered into an affair myself,seeking the wrong things for solace.Oh yes,I couldn’t beat him so i joined him..a real faith-filled woman of God i was…as i said,I have grieved it and repented thoroughly.I am attending church once again and rebuilding my once close relationship with my Father.My goal? to take back what was once my life, what has been destroyed,what I allowed the enemy to take only it has been one catastrophe after another and now that just as he and I were starting to get on the same page…..now his mind…
Please,I know we do not deserve it but someone pray for him,lift him up,this torn apart family desperately needs someone to stand up for us and help us.I spoke with one of my pastors and I believe what we have prayed for,complete restoration of his mind and this family restored.This has been a five year nightmare that the enemy is fighting tooth and nail.i know that i am fighting from victory but i also know i need support.Guys please,remember us.God has something great in store for this family and i want t be a testimony one day of a restored family.One who has triumphed over about every destructive thing imaginable in the past 5 of a 21 yr.marriage…affairs,pornography addiction,drug and alcohol abuse,drivers license lost because of that,our children bearing the scars of our family falling apart,emotional and physical abuse,a child of an affair born into this,foreclosure of our dream home,job loss,financial ruin,reputations and credit..ruined, YET, We can both now say we do still love one another and we both believe that God has meant for us to be together,only now we can say it at the same time,always before,one or the other was going through bitterness when the other wanted reconciliation.
I will stand MY ground this time,i will NOT give in until i know for certain that God has released me from this.i know the enemy is attacking weak areas….please stand with me and pray for us.
Please be lifting us up in prayer,that i make wise choices in how I handle this,that it doesnt fall on my children in a generational way,that I remain strong in the Lord,that the warring angels are fighting on our behalf,that my husbands mind is healed and the enemy has no foothold and he is completely defeated..utterly..Thank you.

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  1. barbie49701 says:

    Just keep looking up. Things will get better in the end your just not there yet. You will be and you are in my prayers. God Bless u!!! And God will!!!

  2. I have been experiencing similar things,I was diagnosed with ”Psychosis”almost 2 years ago.And started telling people things I was seeing hearing and experiencing but of course most of them thought that I was lying .I started to get very deppressed due to a lot of circumstances also that were around me .On one hand I was declaring Gods word and speaking against what was happening but it all seemed to have been of little avail.I increased the depression by drinking a lot of fizzy drinks like fanta that I normally didnt take and eating less and sometimes nothing at all in fact I had lost about probably 8 kgs or so.

    I dont really understand it all but what God revealed to me was ,I was holding unforgiveness toward a number of people,including a guy who had sexually abused me as a young girl,I was under strife with an employee even though Gods word told me to stop to strife .I was not at all Glorifying God for who he is even though I know Him through His creation ,so Gods word tells us that God will give such peoples minds over to do filthy things with one another for they know God and do not give Him the Glory he deserves.

    Some ways to give God the Glory He deserves,is by us keeping His temple Holy,keep our eyes from watching filthy things , Also please give him this verse,do not be deceived neither fornicators nor liars ,nor idolators nor homosexuals ,nor extortioners and the likes will see the kingdom of God.Meaning they will not enjoy the fullness of what God has instore for his children.THe kingdom of God is righteousnous ,peace and joy in the Holy Ghost .

    Another thing I was doing was ,I was overcome with fear ,that God is mad at me and wants to destroy me .A lady in our little town was struck down by lightning about 3 years ago and that had brought on more fear in me.
    But I know now that God is not mad at us.He wants us to know that no matter how big the Sins are that we have committed ,He still loves us and that is exactly why he sent His son to die for us.Our Sins were nailed on the Cross.In fact all of our sins were nailed on the Cross .Jesus has removed all our sins .And now through him we can have life.Eternal life.

    I was also fighting the wrong battles,thinking people were scheming up against me to just learn that I was wrong.The enemmy can fight us using other people and wants us to hate them.Through throwing in wicked dreams,etc.

    Speak to him words of encouragement and let Him listen to Joseph Prince .He preaches on the message of Grace and speaks words of encouragement .Which builts up ones Spririt and Mind.

    I am also still in the full recovery phase and have learnt to keep speaking Gods word against the enemy
    God is also still busy moulding me into His perfect plan .And He reminded me that He will complete the good works He has started in me until the day of Jesus.

    Closing scriptures..
    Perfect love casts out all fear
    God is a giving God and wants us his children to also Give and be blessed
    God doesnt give us the spirit of fear ,But of Power ,Love and a Sound mind
    Very NB!! Put on therefore the full armour of God which is the breastplate of righteousnous,the sword which is the word of God ,the helmlet of salvation and your feet shot with the message of peace .

    May God Bless you all richly in all things and remember that Nothing is impossible with God.
    Not one thing.

  3. davidchik says:

    Don’t know what to say, but I shall pray for your family.

  4. caseyzon says:

    He got to stay the first 72 hrs. and wasn’t released so he’s on an extended stay..which is good ..he is getting needed help,praise God..I haven’t seen or talked to him as he is still angry at me for being where he is but I am continuing to pray.

    • Timothy Luke says:

      Casey,

       

      You are a faithful wife. There is a saying, "no good deed goes unpunished."

       

      Thank you for the update and may the Lord tear down every stronghold of hell in your husband's life. May he come to his senses and come first and foremost to His Lord and Maker. May he be restored to you and may your love for him be recognized and your faithfulness rewarded many fold.

       

  5. Beloved says:

    Caseyzon,
    My brother has gone through the same thing.Takes a while for that junk to clear out of the liver. Anyway,I will be lifting you and your family up in prayer.Please feel free to private message me(available on right of screen) anytime for updates,prayer concerns or just to vent!
    May the Peace of God and our Lord Jesus Christ overwhelm you,Dear One,
    Beloved

    • caseyzon says:

      I receive that and thank you Beloved..He will be transferred from the hospital to the diagnosis/treatment facility today.Can I ask, if you dont mind, did your brother ever make a full recovery? I mean, did he ever get to be his old self again? Did he remember the irrational things he did and recognize that he hadnt been thinking right? do we just act like nothing ever happened ? Is there such a thing as a recovery from mental illness support group? Do i present or insist on him getting some type of counseling afterward? I just dont want him being lazy about recovery and thinking medication will fix everything as I know it wont.I dont want him to feel pushed or bossed but I have always had difficulty with setting boundaries and sticking to them in our marriage. I want to be as supportive as possible and am just wondering what to expect now..how hes going to act..how I should act..what to do or definitely not do. Thanks Beloved, for any insight you can offer.

      • Beloved says:

        My brother suffered from methamphetamine psychosis,while and a bit after using. He was also diagnosed with bipolar depression and a few other things.Doctors need labels to diagnose things they don’t really understand,in my brother’s case I believe he is severely demonized.I say this with caution,because this is not going to be true for everyone. I have seen my brother “switch” right before my eyes and be very hateful,only to “come to” himself a bit later and be very repentant.I believe that when he is under the influence of alcohol,or other substances,he is almost completely under the control of demons.My brother is also born again.His on again off again issues with alcohol are the result of being severely oppressed.He is attacked with anxiety so severe,that it is almost painful for him to live,so he will self medicate,starting a vicious cycle all over again.The good news? He is currently in jail,due to alcohol related crimes,and will be there a while.Funny,now that he can’t be a danger to himself or others,the crushing anxiety has lifted.I have also seen him completely ” normal” after being sick in bed and praying for three days.I say all this to back up my belief that a major part of his problems are demonic in nature.
        Does this mean that he doesn’t suffer from mental illness? Not necessarily. I believe that the spiritual and physical are intertwined,meaning that someones physical brain can eventually be altered if their thinking is sinful or sick long enough.This is an opinion,but believed by some professionals. The REALLY GOOD news is that with God ALL things are possible.That includes complete restoration of ones mental facilities,no matter what the origin.My brother is still in that process,but he does recognize that a lot of the things he once believed were due to the drugs.The problem with that sometimes is that when going through the psychosis,it is very real to them.It takes a while to for them to understand.
        I’m sorry this is so long,but I’m just trying to answer as honest as possible. There are numerous support groups,starting with 12 step groups for drug&alcohol abusers and their families,to “Celebrate Recovery” (available in most areas) that is a Christian based program for any dysfunction. I’m not sure of the exact name but there are support groups for mental illness,through something like the American Association of Mental Illness,you could google it .There is also tons of info on the web.Some good,some depressing.Just remember who our Father is 🙂
        I would highly encourage your husbands participation,not only in a Christian based group,but also somewhere he could get the “tools” needed to handle stress,and to understand how he operates,and that it might not be in a healthy pattern.After he is somewhat stabilized,maybe deliverance.
        I’m praying for you,please keep me updated,I meant what I said about private messaging me.(We are airing our dirty laundry ,fine by me ,if it helps someone,but I can really only go so far.)
        Peace and Love to You
        Beloved

        • Timothy Luke says:

          Beloved, and Casey, I agree with what you are sharing here Beloved. When this is eventually tracked to its root, I believe there are going to be some serious forgiveness issues to be resolved. Your husband, Casey has been hurt and he has not released the person(s) to the Lord for forgiveness.  Matthew 23:18 mentions we will be turned over to the tormentors unless we forgive other's their trespasses.

          Beloved, I am in complete agreement on mental illness. I believe medically they look at the chemical secretions in the brain and diagnose based upon under, or over secretions of neuroligical chemicals. However, in his book, "In His Image," Dr. Art Mathias quotes some very interesting research that shows how our thoughts impact these secretions.  When we control our thought life and bring it under subjection the the knowledge of Christ, and cast down every vain imagination, we find the chemical balance coming back into line.

          "Father, please help these men find the peace that is available through Jesus Christ, the Prince of Peace. May their families also be granted great grace to handle this and love them through this. In Jesus' name. amen."

          • caseyzon says:

            That is interesting.. I am going to amazon and get the book.It makes sense. Thank you for the info and for your prayers.both are much appreciated!

          • Beloved says:

            I appreciate the information (and always the prayers!) The brain is truly the final frontier,I find this kind of research fascinating! In an old post,I think we touched on this subject, I remember mentioning Dr. Caroline Leaf. Her research into the way our thinking affects our brain is amazing as well. I think what these doctors are discovering ,lines up so well with what the Scripture has to say about our thinking.(Just further proof of the inspiration of Scripture)
            Beloved

          • Timothy Luke says:

            I have seen her book, but do not recall the title of it. Do you know what it is called?

          • Beloved says:

            I believe her book is called “Who Switched Off My Brain”. She has a website http://WWW.drleaf.com,where you could verify this,or get more information.
            On a totally different subject,I think I read that you are a pastor,and have a church.True? If so ,do you prefer to be called pastor?I kinda think of you as my pastor,since I do not have a home church.I hope this is okay.From all the things that you have written about or responded to,I feel that you are a wonderful source of Biblical wisdom,and that you have a pastors heart! I’m not trying to flatter you,I really feel that if I had some theological question,I’d be safe in asking you.Anyhoo,I digress.
            Beloved

          • Timothy Luke says:

            I appreciate your comments. I have pastored a home group and have paid to have ordination as a pastor in pursuit of ministry, but in my heart I know that ordination has lost its meaning.  In the early church it was the home church that authenticated who represented them. Now we have generations of wolves authenticating wolves and so one must personally know the ministry doing the ordaining.  I see people ordained in one denomination simply off the fact they have previous ordination, so even that breaks down! I rely upon the Apostle Paul's word's "You are my epistle." He was saying that the work of God in the life of believers who came to Him through Paul's preaching is the letter of authentication written upon their hearts. As such, I have ceased to seek credentials, and in fact have not pursued them in the denomination I now attend, because I sense they would restrict me to preaching/teaching certain doctrines I may not agree with.  Oh, well, there is my expose`!

            My ministry today is simply sharing and encouraging the faith of believers while I work and meet them. I feel very much I have a pastor's heart, just do not feel released into it at this moment for whatever reason, beyond where I am.  I am seeking to develop as a missionary to my home town.  I do have respect for the title "Pastor," but I find it innappropriate for where I am today, in that I am not devoting full time to the care of the sheep.  Others are best honored with it as a title.

            Thanks for giving me the title of Dr. Leaf's book!

            Tim

             

          • Beloved says:

            There is a huge movement in the increase of home churches.I’m sure you are aware of this.I think this is a very,very good thing.There are also a couple of good books about this.”Megashift” by James Rutz,and “Houses That Changed the World”by Wolfgang Simson Madras.I have not read them yet,but they have been recommended by a person I trust.
            Have a Wonderful 4th of July!!
            Beloved

  6. caseyzon says:

    Yes, its possible.I have asked him if it was methamphetamines and he said no but what else is he gonna say if hes trying to hide it.I had read that delusional disorder,persecutory type, mimics that type of drug use so im just not sure what it is but he is now in the hospital getting tested..his brother coaxed him there,most likely with the cover story of proving me wrong because his focus has shifted to me.Im the monster trying to commit him to the ”nut-hut”. i just want to get him help so he can be who hes meant to be in this life. As I said before, i will not let go of my prayers for him but I WILL be in the background.He wants nothing to do with me now.hearing him sneer those words at me are not new but it still hurt a little because I know that My actions were out of love and with pure intent. I know God has this..I know He will be glorified in this.I am going to continue my life and just pray..every day for his recovery.I will stand,I will stand, and keep standing…I will just be staying away from him unless he changes his mind but as i asked in the first post, please pray for us,a family to be miraculously pulled out of hell on earth.I can understand why you may be reading this,curiosity,browsing or sincere intent.If you do read this, I pray that God impresses on you to sacrifice a small amount of time to lift us up in prayer..Please remember us. Thank you.

    • Timothy Luke says:

      Just a note to let you know I will be praying for you… just now saw/ read your post.

       

      Tim

      • caseyzon says:

        Thank you Tim.His brother told me this morning that a bed opened up at the facility in our area that will diagnose/treat him so praise God! this is a move in the right direction.

  7. Beloved says:

    The paranoid delusions your husband is experiencing,can also be brought on by abusing methamphetamine.Since he has abused alcohol and pills, could this be a possibility?

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