Marriage Restored

I grew up baptist, and was “saved” at the age of 12. However, I never made Jesus LORD of my life. That was apparent in the way I lived the next 18 years.
In July of 1999, I became reacquainted with the man who was to become the love of my life, my husband, my best friend, my soul’s mate. We were joined, by God, in a beautiful ceremony six months later. I was a self-professed “Christian”, outwardly living totally for God, but “you will know them by their fruits”. Inside, I was a jealous, vain, selfish, contentious woman; bitter, hateful and manipulative. And God allowed me to tear down my house with my own hands.

My husband left our “home” in October of 2000. Never thinking he would NOT come back, I let him “stew” for about two weeks. When I finally did get in touch with him, I was told “It’s over, I’m done, I want a divorce”. I was floored. No man had EVER turned away from me, and I couldn’t believe that THIS one would. But he meant it. Something in his voice told me those words were from a heart that had closed itself off to me.

I went back home, in the worse possible pain I could’ve ever imagined. I hurt so badly, I assumed DEATH would be a welcomed relief. When I walked back into that cold dark house, I hit my knees and cried out, REALLY cried out for God’s presence, telling Him that I knew only He could take this pain that threatened to swallow me up from the inside. I vowed that I would live my life for Him, allowing Him to make necessary changes in me, if only He would save me, deliver me, and change me.

Over the next year, I prayed daily, almost constantly, for change, for peace, joy and love, and of course, for my marriage to be healed and restored. I prayed earnestly for my husband’s heart (and mine) to be emptied of the bitterness and unforgiveness, and for revival of the deep, true love we had for each other in the beginning. I’ve begged God to USE ME to give others hope and help in their trials. I’ve asked God to continue to change me into the wife my husband needs, the gentle and quiet spirit precious in His sight, the Proverbs 31 woman. True changes, I asked My Lord, not “surface changes”.

I’m SO grateful to be able to testify today to God’s MERCIFUL faithfulness. He has answered EVERY prayer in my heart, above and beyond ALL that I have asked for or imagined. I am NOTHING like the vile woman I was a short year ago; I have been delivered of pride, vanity, selfishness and worry, PRAISE GOD! I get excited to find that I even THINK differently! My beautiful, beloved husband’s heart has been turned back, and we’re working our problems out for the Glory and Honor of our Heavenly Father. The love has been restored, our marriage is being healed, and we are in church together, praising, worshipping and praying side by side. There is still more we’ll go through for Our Lord, but it’s comforting to know that God DOES hear and DOES answer our prayers, giving us our hearts deepest desires when we delight ourselves in (and live for only) HIM! Amen!

Michelle White

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  1. Just happen to find this article on 5/22 at 5:36pm while listening to Giants Do Fall sermon by Dr. Jasmin Sculark … WOW

  2. cowrevenge says:

    Must have been a tough year, its only been 3 months for me and its tearing me apart, but I know the devil only wins when we say yes and give up the fight. God takes care of us as long as we keep believing. I pray morning noon and night, it seems everyone else has lost hope in my wife, even her own family, But i married her because I loved her. You cant love someone and give up when life gets hard. God loved even when we were enemies. My mom hasn’t given up hope on her. The best mother a person could have. Ask anyone that ever spoken to her. Mom is very sick, spends months in the hospital at a time, but never does her faith waiver, never does she complain or ask why. Seems the devil wants to take away all my earthly comforts. Who else do i cry to when I’m in pain? My tooth hurt so very much, and i longed to just have my wife hold me and tell me its going to be ok, I cried out to her even though i knew she wasn’t there. And i couldn’t go to my parents house with nobody there either. I’m sorry i seem to be off topic. I’ve put it all in the lords hands. Praise God for saving this marriage, maybe it glorify Him

  3. God Bless, I am only a young adult but this testimony is a blessing on how us women of God should be in a marrital home

  4. evstevemd says:

    It hurts to hear such things Ms F. I pray that You have strength. I don’t know where you live but I have godly women who can help you even through Emails and just pray with you. If you need their help just write to me at: babaeliya at hotmail dot com and I will connect you with them. God is love and doesn’t rejoice in divorces. Be sure that He will help you with that little faith you have
    Steve

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    Tit 2:11-12 For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live sober

  5. evstevemd says:

    It is precious story and very encouraging. I really love it
    Glory to God for restoring this precious marriage.
    Wishing you blessed marriage. Thanks Michael for bringing us these testimonies
    Steve

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    Tit 2:11-12 For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live sober

  6. Michelle I praise God for you. Today my husband is leaving our home because of me and all the hurt I have caused. I am faithful that God will restore and heal our marriage. I must admit that I have been a “surface” Christian for far too long. On June 26, 2008, I heard a sermon preached by Jasmin Sculark that ministered to my very heart. The short version is that many of us have the mind of a girl and the body of a woman. She talked about Jarius’s 12 year old daughter that was dying and the woman that had the issue of blood for 12 years. She taught us that she did not believe it to be a coincidence that both stories were located within the same chapter. She further indicated that the 12 year old girl must grow up in order to become the woman that God has called her to be. In the same vain the woman that had the issue of blood for 12 years was healed once she recognized her issue and diligenty sought after the Master. She instructed us to apologize to our husbands for being immature little girls. We also went to the alter that night and she instructed us to call out those things that wounded us as little girls in order to be healed from those things. When I tell you I laid on that alter until church was over I laid there and cried out to God because I knew at that very moment that I had destroyed many people around me and more importantly my marriage. Right after that sermon God put it on my heart to begin reading The Power of a Praying Wife. Oh yeah I had the book and had it for many years, but I did not believe my husband was worthy of my prayers. The enemy tricked me into believing that I was better than my husband, smarter than him, made more money than him, could manage money better than him, disipline our children better, and the most hurtful thing was that he did not deserve my respect. WOW! When I resumed the study I had no idea what lie ahead. We were headed on our annual family vacation two weeks ago when I found it he was having yet another affair. Because God had begun to make a change in me, I did not react as I had done in the past. (Because I believe I am taliking to Christian women I am pouring out my heart.) My usual response would be to cuss at him, yell at him, belittle him, and just treat him horriable. This time I listened to his pain and why he made the decision to cheat and did not pass judgement. I had to trust God to make whatever changes needed to be made in him. God forgives us just as we are and I had to do the same thing. As we driving to our destination his phone rang and I wondered why he did not answer it. We talked and at that moment I learned that this was yet another woman that he cultivating a relationship with. My heart was crushed but I continued to pray for him. It was at that moment that I learned that he was planning to move out of our home hoping to start some type of relationship with this woman. I pressed even more into the presence of the Lord and learned that God cannot make any changes in my husband until he makes the necessary changes in me. During my time of prayer I have learned that I gossip, cuss, back talk, non submissive, disrespectful, judgemental, vain, manipulate, not forgiving, lack a true life filled with prayer, lack real study time in the Word, and that I know all the right things to say to others but I lack the real faith required for restoration. I laid before God this morning and He had me annoit the tires to my husbands car, his hood, and door handle. I really believed that by doing what I was instructed, that my husband would not move out today. He is leaving . . .But I believe God wanted to know if He could trust me to do as He instructed. Now I believe that God has some things he needs to empty out of me before he can minister to my husband and as long as I have my hand on the situation God cannot show himself to be awesome. To the human eye this whole situation seems impossible but in Christ all things are possible. I am trusting and believing God for healing and restoration in my marriage.

    In the meantime I need women who are strong in there faith, have been baptized with the Holy Spirit, and strong in their prayer lives to stand with me and pray. Specifically for the demon of lust also known as asmodai to be cast out of my house, my husband and my marriage. Because of this demon he has repeatedly led my husband into adultry time and time again. The devil is a lie! I will be praying and binding that demon on a daily and nightly basis because he has taken up residence here and believes he is apart of this household and he refuses to go without a fight!!!

  7. You cannot beleive how excited I am after reading Michele’s story. I am going through the same thing and I know deep in my heart that my God is Awesome and I have Faith that my marriage will be restored and that both our spirits will be renewed. All thanks be to God!

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