Enemies, hatred, and love testimony
“Love and Enemies,” from The Holy Spirit and Christian Testimonies by C. Marie, www.theholyspiritacts.com
Every aspect of “Tangi Fields” was thoroughly examined and studied by some adult age females. Then whenever her name came up of if they happened to see her, they formed gossip sessions in which they insulted and ridiculed everything that they noticed about her.
Proverbs 16:28, “A froward man soweth strife: and a whisperer separateth chief friends.”
St. Luke 6:45, “A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.”
Proverbs 12:14, “A man shall be satisfied with good by the fruit of his mouth: …”
Those females carried themselves as if they were characteristically envious, insecure, self-important, boasters and hateful. In connection to “Tangi,” they competed with and obsessively compared themselves to her. They searched for reasons to brag and pat themselves on their own backs. While they acted out in those ways, they tried to discover everything that they wanted to dislike about her, and place below them. From those isolated self-breakthroughs, they would convince themselves and others that she was inferior to them overall, and that they were truly special females.
Psalms 41:7, “All that hate me whisper together against me: against me do they devise my hurt.”
2 Timothy 3:1-2, “This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, …”
Proverbs 28:25, “He that is of a proud heart stirreth up strife: but he that putteth his trust in the LORD shall be made fat.”
Proverbs 6:16-19, “These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: A proud look, … An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, … and he that soweth discord among brethren.”
As those females typically complimented themselves and openly expressed their offensive opinions about “Tangi,” they always looked for more reasons to lengthen the heights of the pedestals that they appeared to have stood on, and act over-confident about themselves.
Proverbs 27:2, “Let another man praise thee, and not thine own mouth; a stranger, and not thine own lips.”
2 Corinthians 10:17-18, “But he that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord. For not he that commendeth himself is approved, but whom the Lord commendeth.”
Other people who were a part of those females’ inner circle were encouraged and influenced to automatically find reasons to despise “Tangi.” Then once the others placed her behind and below those females, the others went along with the oppositions as they also included themselves to offensively band against her.
Galatians 5:14-26, “For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this; Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. But if ye bite and devour one another, take heed that ye be not consumed one of another. This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; …, uncleanness, …, hatred, …, wrath, strife, …,Envyings, … and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.”
Eventually, if those females and their inner circle had anything direct to say to “Tangi,” while in her presence, it usually was in a form of dirty looks, unkind remarks, self-absorbed type comments, silent tension, and hostile confrontations. As she came to view them as her enemies, she did not think that she done anything to motivate them to strongly dislike her to the extent that they all had, as she came to expect those reactions whenever she was in their presence. So over the following years, due to the constant dramas and conflicts that she encountered with them, she realized that they had no limitations as to what came out of their mouths and how mouthy they were to her.
James 3:1-18, “My brethren, be not many masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation. For in many things we offend all. If any man offend not in word, the same is a perfect man, and able also to bridle the whole body. Behold, we put bits in the horses’ mouths, that they may obey us; and we turn about their whole body. Behold also the ships, which though they be so great, and are driven of fierce winds, yet are they turned about with a very small helm, whithersoever the governor listeth. Even so the tongue is a little member, and boasteth great things. Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth! And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell. For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed of mankind: But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. Therewith bless we God, even the Father; and therewith curse we men, which are made after the similitude of God. Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be. Doth a fountain send forth at the same place sweet water and bitter? Can the fig tree, my brethren, bear olive berries? either a vine, figs? so can no fountain both yield salt water and fresh. Who is a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom. But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your
hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth. This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish. For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work. But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.”
Regardless as to what those females and the others from their inner circle said against “Tangi,” she knew that no matter how wrong they were, they knew that the others would automatically backed them up and participated in their fights. So whatever conflicts they created, they knew that the others would help them finish the hostilities. Based upon the animosity, “Tangi” interpreted them all to have been generally unhappy, angry, hateful, and immature, as they were quick to make enemies out of everybody.
Proverbs 29:22, “An angry man stirreth up strife, and a furious man aboundeth in transgression.”
“Tangi” felt that her enemies done a lot to push her buttons and test her limits. Those were in the amount of offenses that they tried to and actually done to her. She was regularly placed in situations in which she was led to control her part of the conflicts with them, because it was out of their characters to flinge from anybody. They were not known for walking away from brawls, competitions, and arguments, as they kept entertained by their creations. She was almost always the one who walked away from them.
Proverbs 20:3, “It is an honour for a man to cease from strife: but every fool will be meddling.”
Proverbs 25:21-22, “If thine enemy be hungry, give him bread to eat; and if he be thirsty, give him water to drink: For thou shalt heap coals of fire upon his head, and the LORD shall reward thee.”
St. Matthew 5:43-48, “Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? …And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? …Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.”
At the same time, “Tangi” was unknowingly in spiritual wars whenever she was around her enemies, which adversely affected her enough to where she eventually accepted hatred in her heart. In the Christian faith, as she became a hateful person, she had issues with peace, tranquility, and happiness.
2 Corinthians 12:20, “For I fear, lest, when I come, I shall not find you such as I would, and that I shall be found unto you such as ye would not: lest there be debates, envyings, wraths, strifes, backbitings, whisperings, swellings, tumults:”
“Tangi” wore her hatred on her sleeve and was constantly reminded of the hostility that she had with her enemies. The situation escalated to where she physically felt hatred in her throughout the days and nights. She refused to mention the first names of some of her worse enemies, she had some reactions whenever she heard their names from other people’s mouths, and seeing individuals who resembled them did not make much of a difference to her either. Whenever she felt hateful, she suffered from tension, anger, bits of fire in her vision, and body shakes.
2 Corinthians 7:1, “Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.”
As “Tangi” clung to the dangerous, deep-rooted hatred, she regularly entertained herself with unholy imaginations. The ungodly thoughts and stressful body reactions led her believe that she would have lost control of herself if some of her enemies were around her at the very moments when she tolerated the bait of hate.
1 John 4:7-21, “Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us. Hereby know we that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and do testify that the Father sent the Son to be the Saviour of the world. Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him. Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. We love him, because he first loved us. If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen? And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also.”
“Tangi’s” hatred often came in her dreams over the years, and the situations were serious enough that she awakened with big grins on her face afterwards. But instantly became sad, ashamed, and embarrassed because by then, she immediately thought about God. She still claimed Christianity, tried to walk in The Word of God faithfully, and tried to develop spiritually in the Lord. Yet, as she recalled, whenever she was caught off guard by acknowledging what she carried in her heart, she would acknowledge that she had a problem, a spiritual one, and God knew it.
Psalms 66:18, “If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me:”
Eventually, while “Tangi” labeled herself as a woman who grew up and tried to carry herself lady-like, with class, she further aimed to hold her tongue and outgrow bitterness.
1 Thessalonians 4:11, “And that ye study to be quiet, and to do your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you;”
James 1:19-20 and 26, “Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath: For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God. If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man’s religion is vain.”
Proverbs 10:19, “In the multitude of words there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise.”
Proverbs 21:23, “Whoso keepeth his mouth and his tongue keepeth his soul from troubles.”
1 Timothy 2:2-3, “…that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and honesty. For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Saviour;”
St. Matthew 15:11 and 18-20, “Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man. But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, …, These are the things which defile a man: …”
St. Matthew 12:33-37, “Either make the tree good, and his fruit good; or else make the tree corrupt, and his fruit corrupt: for the tree is known by his fruit. … for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh. A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth evil things. But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned.”
Proverbs 17:27-28, “He that hath knowledge spareth his words: and a man of understanding is of an excellent spirit. Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: and he that shutteth his lips is esteemed a man of understanding.”
1 Peter 1:14-20, “As obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance: But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation; Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy. And if ye call on the Father, who without respect of persons judgeth according to every man’s work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear: Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, …But with …Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot: Who verily was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you,”
But “Tangi” did not want to admit to herself that she hated anybody because she knew that hatred went against The Word of God. So she used phases such as “can’t stand” and “really don’t like”instead.
St. Matthew 6:14-15, “For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”
As “Tangi” studied The Holy Bible and prayed to God throughout the years, while she fed on the bait of hate, she inevitably began to resist the hatred that she carried.
Romans 13:8-14, “Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law. For this, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not kill, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness, Thou shalt not covet; and if there be any other commandment, it is briefly comprehended in this saying, namely, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. Love worketh no ill to his neighbour: therefore love is the fulfilling of the law. And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.”
From a dream, “Tangi” unexpectedly envisioned a couple of her enemies inside of her home. However, she was cautioned about those particular ones. After she awakened, she was puzzled about the dream because although the years that passed had helped minimize some of the influence of hate, she did not believe that it was probable that those individuals would be inside of her home as the dream suggested.
Psalms 18:2-3, “The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.”
Psalms 25:18-20, “Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins. Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred. O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.”
While “Tangi” stayed focused on her growth in the Christian faith and other thoughts instead of her enemies, chains-of-events happened within the same year of the dream. Then she received friendly visitations in her home from the same particular ones who she had a dream about. She was delighted to sincerely stretch out her arms to the others ones afterwards.
Acts 24:16, “And herein do I excercise myself, to have always a conscience void of offence toward God, and toward men.”
Romans 12:18, “If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.”
St. Matthew 5:23-24, “Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee; Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.”
Proverbs 10:12, “Hatred stirreth up strifes: but love covereth all sins.”
Due to the magnitude of the intense hatred that “Tangi” once held inside of her heart, as hate became of part of who she was as a person, such bait directed her emotions, mouth, and actions for a long time. So based upon her spiritual development in the Lord, she felt an unavoidable strong push from within, to go on a necessary fast and prayer immediately. It was a double one, where after it was over, she ate a meal before she acknowledged that she urgently needed to go on another fast and prayer afterwards.
St. Luke 7:47-48, “Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.”
James 4:6-12, “But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble. Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, … Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up. Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge. There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another?”
During the fast and prayer period, “Tangi” felt driven to minister to others, and based upon how she felt, she believed that she was very Spirit-filled. She came to believe that the Holy Spirit was similar to an eye of a powerful hurricane, who had winds that reached out and affected everybody around her, which created a spiritual whirlpool from within her.
Ephesians 5:17-18, “Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is. And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;”
“Tangi” never forgot the dream that cautioned her about a couple of her enemies who were the heartless ones out of the bunch, as they carried themselves as if the dream was one that accurately forewarned her about them.
Psalms 39:1-3 and 7-9, “I said, I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue: I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me. I was dumb with silence, I held my peace, even from good; and my sorrow was stirred. My heart was hot within me, while I was musing the fire burned: then spake I with my tongue, And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee. Deliver me from all my transgressions: make me not the reproach of the foolish. I was dumb, I opened not my mouth; because thou didst it.”
“Tangi” understood that as God judges everybody and everything, she needed to make sure that she always stood right with Him, even if people she knew did not.
1 Samuel 17:37, “David said moreover, The LORD that delivered me out of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear, he will deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine. And Saul said unto David, Go, and the LORD be with thee.”
From that, “Tangi” wholeheartedly continued to love her enemies, and at a distance whenever any of them attacked her by their words and had disagreeable characteristics.
Psalms: 140:1-7, “Deliver me, O LORD, from the evil man: preserve me from the violent man; Which imagine mischiefs in their heart; continually are they gathered together for war. They have sharpened their tongues like a serpent; adders’ poison is under their lips. Selah. Keep me, O LORD, from the hands of the wicked; preserve me from the violent man; who have purposed to overthrow my goings. The proud have hid a snare for me, and cords; they have spread a net by the wayside; they have set gins for me. Selah. I said unto the LORD, Thou art my God: hear the voice of my supplications, O LORD. O GOD the Lord, the strength of my salvation, thou hast covered my head in the day of battle.”
Regardless, “Tangi’s” enemies stayed in her thoughts and prayers, while the bitterness from them softened overtime.
Proverbs 16:7, “When a man’s ways please the LORD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.”
Meantime, whenever“Tangi” was able to look out for any of her enemies, to bless them physically, she jumped at the chances to do so.
Philippians 2:12 and 14-16, “…, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Do all things without murmurings and disputings: That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world; Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.”
As “Tangi” adapted a character in which she became a prayerful woman, she came to habitually pray for herself, her own family members, people she knew, her enemies, as well as those who she did not know but heard about, even if she read about them from her local newspaper.
St. Mark 11:24-26, “Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses. But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.”
1 John 5:14-15, “And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.”
It had gotten to where the very same people who “Tangi” once hated from the core of her heart and the pit of her soul became the same ones who she often asked God to consider wealth, longevity, and peace for them and their households. She also made request to God if they would be led to faithfully walk on the path to Eternal Life.
St. Matthew 7:12, “Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.”
Philippians 2:3-9, “Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, …Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:”
Alongside with that, mockery, nosiness, and crude gossip became something that “Tangi” avoided.
1 Peter 3:10, “For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile:”
Ephesians 4:29-32, “Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers. And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption. Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.”
Psalms 34:13, “Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile.”
Psalms 141:2-4, “Let my prayer be set forth before thee as incense; and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Set a watch, O LORD, before my mouth; keep the door of my lips. Incline not my heart to any evil thing, to practise wicked works with men that work iniquity: and let me not eat of their dainties.”
Whatever ridicules, insults, and tattling from whatever goes on in other people’s personal business that “Tangi” was told, she made it a part of her character to pray to God on behalf of whomever the offensive gossips, spiteful comments, and malicious tattling were about.
1 Timothy 5:13, “And withal they learn to be idle, wandering about from house to house; and not only idle, but tattlers also and busybodies, speaking things which they ought not.”
1 Peter 4:15, “But let none of you suffer as a …. or a busybody in other men’s matters.”
Ezekiah 16:49, “Behold, this was the iniquity of … Sodom, pride, fulness of bread, and abundance of idleness was in her and in her daughters, neither did she strengthen the hand of the poor and needy.”
Whenever “Tangi” was given information about the problems of other people besides her enemies, they also went to her thoughts and prayers, as she physically blessed them if able to, out of concern and mercy.