If ever there was a year I needed a Miracle 2010 was it!

First I have to say I didn’t get my Miracle. I had to pass through ever trial and suffering and sickness and the grief that came my way.

There were times I cried out to God “No More! I can’t deal with this and I’m not strong enough to take it just Kill Me please and stop all the pain.”

I won’t do into detial but I have sufferred for years with chronic illnesses and so being really sick with undiagnosed symptoms for quite a while. Striggling most of the year with Chronic Fatigue that kept me so tired I could hardly go anywhere including for more medical tests I really needed to get done. Grieving a painful loss and generally not coping with all I was experiencing in myself and in my family.

I sufferred spiritually and physically and my emotions were all over the place. How I managed in late October to finally go for an exploritory operation I can’t even say. They found a tumour missed through other non-invasive testing. I got it out late November and am currently still recovering from the major surgery I had.

The ONLY thing I can say that I experienced which was good last year was hearing the surgeons report that the Tumour had no cancer and they didn’t find any in the surrounding tissue.

My year was exhausting and though I prayed and read the Bible and prayed and pleaded with God I got NO relief, no miracle, no breakthrough. I had to suffer every set back, every complication, every thing that could go wrong pretty well did and I had to experience it & live through it all.

I can say I was tested to the end of my strength and I pleaded for God to give me some supernatural help but none came.

Now you would think that I would give up on God. Oh I was angry that I was going through all this with no relief or help but I was not stupid enough to give up God. Like Job’s wife, Satan kept wispering in my ear ‘curse God and die”. Well I didn’t. I cried many tears and was in pain and anguish. I even felt abandoned by the Lord as if I had done something to deserve what I had to go through.

There was only one scripture I could cling to that made any kind of sense in the midst of what I was going through:-

A 43:2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

ISA 43:3 For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

Like Job I will never know WHY? I just know I had to pass through as there was no other options. I hope I am at the end of this testing. That this year I will not have to suffer as I did last year.

I learned that we don’t always get Miracles. Sometimes God lets us go through the suffering and the pain even when you think it is beyond your ability to cope with what you are experiencing. Don’t get angry with God, don’t curse God or even the Devil. Just grit your teeth and know there is an end to every test or trial.

PHP 3:12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

We should not be expecting Heaven here on Earth. Heaven is where we will finally go to and find rest from this Earth. Until then we have to battle with the suffering that comes from sin that has corrupted this Earth. I guess what I’m saying is don’t give up.

2PE 3:11 Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12 as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13 But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness.

Sorry for the long post. I just wanted to share what God did for me in 2010 was to help me not lose my faith and to get through the worst year of my life.

Thanks
MelC

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  1. Timothy Luke says:

    Happy New Year Melody! We have walked the walk of endless illness and yet, the Lord was faithful to make an end of it, as you know. Keep asking Him what is between you and the healing He has for you. He loves us and gently leads us into all His goodness.

    "Father, as we all enter this new year (by this world's reckoning),  help us to see our situations as you see them. Help us to have your eyes and ears to understand your perspective. Help us to press in to receive the good and resist those things which torment us, but are not your best. We live to glorify you. You were glorified in the healing of the blind man, not his blindness. You were glorified in the resurrection of Lazarus, but not in his passing. Even so, though we walk through this broken world, and are broken at times with it, we trust you will be glorified by healing us and delivering us as we draw near to you in spirit and in truth. I pray a special prayer for Melody – if it please you Lord, let this be the year of her deliverance from infirmity. Cause her to mount up with wings as eagles and soar above and away from the illness that now enfolds her. In Jesus' name. amen."

    Timothy

    http://www.perfectinglove.com/ourstory

    http://www.perfectinglove.com/ourstory.mp3

  2. Sometimes we go through horrible trials and no miracle comes to relieve us in what we think is a reasonable time.

    Chronic fatigue is a horrible thing. My wife overcame it, it can be connected with ANY NUMBER of causes. I pray God will lead you to all the causes and better yet – just come upon you with power and heal you forever.

    Join us on skype if you have time.

    The other thing is if John Mellor ever comes to your part of the world make sure you get there as much as you can, because many miracles happen in his meetings.

    • MelodyCat says:

      Michael & Tim

      I actually know of John Mellor and I contacted his ministry to pray for me during the year.

      I finally found the answer to my chronic fatigue. I prayed about it and there were 3 newspaper articles over a fortnight that talked about lack of vitamin D and a connection with Chronic Fatigue. Then I rang a friend(who is a Nurse) to wish her Happy Birthday, shared about my chronic fatigue. She had recently been working with patients who had immune deficiency illnesses and chronic fatigue. She also suggest taking vitamin D and trying to walk a little every day. It took about 4 to 5 month after I started taking vitamin D to start feeling much better and I went for my medical exams and follow up.

      I certainly know God sent me that information about vitamin D. If I hadn’t been able to shake the chronic fatigue I would have ended up with cancer. My tumour was very mature and the two specialists that operated on me said they were surprised it wasn’t cancerous but they were sure it would have become cancerous very soon.

      I didn’t get a Miraculous healing in that God didn’t just lift the chronic fatigue off me. OR a miraculous removal of this tumour, so I had to have it surgically removed. However I know God was in contorl and I know He enabled me to get the medical treatment I required on time. God answered my one prayer request that I had prayed from the start of these strange symptoms which went undiganosed until we found the tumour. I prayed for me not to have to face Cancer. I guess God decided Cancer was beyond my strength to cope with and so I got my answered prayer.

      I have had a miraculous God given healing once many years ago. It’s not that God doesn’t work that way. However, God works in different ways at different times and He may do one thing for me but something else for another person.

      I always pray for healing. After this year I have learned not to worry about if I don’t get fully healed before I go to be with the Lord (either through Rapture or Death). If I’m not healed on this Earth I will be in Heaven.

      I pray with confidence for healing or whatever problem I have, knowing God will answer yes or no depending on what the Lord thinks I need to go through at this time in my life. God does work all things together for our good. For our eternal good not just earthly good. Every pain, trial or suffering is meant to refine us like fire refines gold (it gets rid of the dross the bad stuff).

      I don’t like going through the hard times but even though I don’t know WHY or “for how long” I must suffer; I know God is there now and He wants to achieve some spiritual Good through what I am experiencing. Also these trials or suffering don’t go on forever, they do end or God at least brings some relief in the midst of the suffering. It’s all about knowing God and trusting Him.

      Meanwhile I am still praying for my healing and I also pray while I’m waiting God will help me get through my recovery which will take a few months. In the midst of I am saying “whatever you are doing help me change to be more as you want me to be, more like Christ”. Because God will wrestle with you and you might as well let Him win or you will just have to go through something else for God to achieve what He wants in your life.

      Thanks Guys for your kind responses. Now you know why I have been away most of 2010. I have one more minor operation to sort something else out (related to this) later this year but it won’t be as intrusive or big as the one I just had.

      Cheers
      MelC

  3. Way to persevere! I’m encouraged by your testimony and pray that God will bless you abundantly in 2011. Sometimes God uses our suffering to bring glory to His name and it’s exciting to see that despite all that has happened in 2010 you are still praising His name! Thanks for sharing!

  4. Joshuagm1991 says:

    I really enjoyed reading what you had to say!
    God bless you for enduring! You are amazing.

    PHP 3:12 made me really happy by the way, I’m not even sure why.

    How exciting it is to be called by the ALPHA AND THE OMEGA! Is there anything in creation as blessed as we? Look at the sea and the birds in the trees. It was made for we, who are made for he.

    edit: I never rhyme…..That was weird.

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