I need prayer…

I’m in a very horrible place. I’m not sure what is wrong, or exactly what I’ve done and am doing, but I’ll say that I am in sin and for the most part, I like it. I feel like I’m being forced to obey and to repent and to follow Christ. Whatever happened to doing it out of love and choice? Seriously, I just can’t stand this fight. I really want to either be all in or all out, not always straddling the line and playing around with things. Since I was converted I’ve been trying to follow after Christ/Apostles’ examples and I fail miserably and then I walk in sin for a time. Please just pray for me.

Sad to say, but so many things look better than how this life has been. Even becoming a Navy SEAL is more appealing at the moment than the joyless, religious life I’ve been living. This is an option that I plan on pursuing, by the way.

What do YOU think?



  1. yashua777 says:

    If we feed our NEW NATURE then that will help us overcome temptation. We need to be occupied with the things of Christ to help overcome temptation.

    And have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all. Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3:10-14).


    forgive all to avoid torment

    stay in the anointing all week (pray with out ceasing) at work pray with your inner man your heart

    fast miss a meal or two this puts down the flesh

    cast your problem with this to our heavenly father in prayer

    ask others to pray with you for GODS power to overcome

    through the spirit kill the deeds of the flesh (will power is hopeless) you still need to choose with your will to stop sin (dont condemn your self is you fail, get together and go forward)

    the key is GODS power

    his kingdom on earth as it is in heaven

    last watch what you say and how your inner feelings are quickly repent in prayer



    if you need help yell to us

  2. jesseedavis says:

    I will be gone for the rest of the summer working as a camp counselor for a local campground. Part of my job is to present a clear presentation of the Gospel to my kids. The rest of my job is to walk the part, including caring for them and watching over them. Pray that I can walk in faith and in love. Also pray that God will grant plenty of opportunities to show Himself off through me and through the others working there!

    See you guys in after a while!

    Jesse Davis

    • MelodyCat says:

      Praying for the Lord to be with you as you deal with the kids at Camp. Praying for the Holy Spirit to lead your conversations with the kids and to give you the words to speak to them. May the Lord enable all the kids who attend camp to be able to understand the gospel message. In Jesus Name I pray that the Lord will cut off all the schemes and plans of the enemy. May only God’s Will be done during this time. Amen

      It’s winter time for me. LOL Hope you have nice weather during the time of the camp.


      • JustAGuy says:


        Blessings and Peace,

        • jesseedavis says:

          I’m just stopping in to see the changes which apparently has been a LOT! I’m still at the camp working with the kids. It is really rough and all, but I love every minute of it. The things God is doing within me alone blows me away and watching God work in these kids is just amazing. It leaves me absolutely speechless.

          I love what has been done with this site. It seems easier to use, though I don’t have time to check it all out and see what all has been done. I may be in here a few more times before the summer is over, so I’ll definitely see replies to this.

          You all are in my prayers. God bless.

          • MelodyCat says:

            Hi Jesse

            Good to hear from you. Will keep you in prayer.

            Yep the website I think is easier to navigate and keep up with others and the blogs you have been involved in.

            If you have any stories of encouragement to share from the camp, I’d love to hear them. You can change the kids name for anonimity if need be.

            I’m so glad to hear that the Lord is working in the hearts and minds of the children there. Kids are getting such a rough deal in this world that has abandoned God’s Commandments. By taking God’s Word out of schools and stopping prayer we are robbing the current generation of the chance to come to know Jesus but that is Satan’s plan. God will not let him get his way so easily. Praise God for willing Christians like yourself to spend this time with our youth helping them come to know God’s Truth. amen.

            Prayer on the way as soon as I finish typing this.

            Cheers and nice to meet you Jesse.

          • Timothy Luke says:

            Hey Jesse! Great to see you here again! Glad to hear the good report. May God sow much seed for His glory through you, and may you reap much healing and deliverance yourself brother!

          • Can’t wait to to hear more from you- missed your goodly interactions!


  3. Sam D Houston says:

    I have been married for 11 years.My wife and I Have attened A Church here for 2 years.The past 3 or 4 months she doesn’t want to go to church,shes went back to drinking( 5 years without it),cursing,and other things.I have talked to a christian friend and he told me about Christian domestic disipline.(googled)I have read about but want to know if its working for anyone in a situation like mine?

    • JustAGuy says:

      If you want to know if it is working, go to their websites and read their testimonies. If you want to know if it is of God, that would be another question. The websites I peeked at say this is a consensual arrangement and I do not see consensus in your wife’s actions as you have shown them. Personally, the concept sounds like abuse in a white robe.

      Blessings and Peace,

    • Mr.Brent says:

      Christian domestic discipline is not a quick fix. You need to understand that it is our duty to be the head of the household not only over the wife but also the children. Proverbs 6: 20 My son, keep your father’s commands and do not forsake your mother’s teaching. 21Bind them upon your heart forever; fasten them around your neck. 22 When you walk, they will guide you; when you sleep, they will watch over you; when you awake, they will speak to you. 23 For these commands are a lamp, this teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life, 24 keeping you from the immoral woman,
      from the smooth tongue of the wayward wife. It is the husband that will be at fault if they let there wife or children do whatever there HEARTS desire. In Jeremiah 44:19 The women added, “When we burned incense to the Queen of Heaven and poured out drink offerings to her, did not our husbands know that we were making cakes like her image and pouring out drink offerings to her?” Husbands new of the disobedience and did nothing. The wife needs “visible” boundaries. It says in1 Peter that they are the weaker partner. It also is said in 1 Timothy 2 :11A woman should learn in quietness and full submission. 12I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man; she must be silent. 13For Adam was formed first, then Eve. 14And Adam was not the one deceived; it was the woman who was deceived and became a sinner. 15But women will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith, love and holiness with propriety.
      I know that people can debate this subject but remember it is not a debate with me it is the WORD you will be debating. I didn’t write it ,just obey it. With saying that, authority come with a great amount of responsibilities. Just as being the head, there is a covering that takes place. In 1 Corinthians 11:5And every woman who prays or prophesies with her head uncovered dishonors her head—it is just as though her head were shaved. 6If a woman does not cover her head, she should have her hair cut off. Here is were my opinion of the scripture. I would rather correct my wife in a different way than to cut of her hair. Now that was for praying. What happens when they go to a bar with friends and drink alcohol and party all night.(why cant they do that if there is no consequences?) Were are here boundaries? As just the same for your children as much for your wife, there are going to be times were there are mistakes and just plan out rebellion. For that being said the discipline that is to follow is different. I don’t believe in all the things they say on the CDD website. For instance (again my option) maintenance discipline. God did not intend for us to provoke but to withhold honor. I think there’s something wrong when someone needs to be reminded who is boss. Sam, I think you need to have a heart to heart with God before you and your wife discuss this matter. Being in rebellion for any length of time (after receiving Gods gift of salvation) can harden there heart. It might take hours of talking (lectures-another type of correction) to her before she can grasp the idea. Saying that, you need to know and understand Gods word. You will need it . Jesus used it to overcome Satan.
      Your brother in Christ

    • yashua777 says:

      can i help?

      prayer and anyway i can for you!

      check you faith on forgiveness fix any unforgiveness

      try and find out any disappointments you wife has (find out what here hopes are)

      see my other posts on hope (to repair the hope and heart)

      keep the power of GOD on you all the time (listen to what GOD says to you on this)

      its a test also for you to press in to HIM

      ask GOD to protect your family as you are the head and authority

      Gen 2:24 Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.

      your prayers have a great affect for your wife

      1Cr 7:14 For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean; but now are they holy.

      God could be dealing with her pray and fear not as he grants us our prayer

      he also looses no one (i went through a similar phase untill God fetched me back)

      love her like all is ok and she will remember in later times and love you for your love in a hard time.

      Once a person trusts Christ as their Savior can they lose this salvation? Is it possible for someone to fall from grace? The issue is simple: the salvation that Jesus Christ offers is either conditional or unconditional.

      If is unconditional, then there is nothing we can do to lose it. If it is conditional, then there is some thing or some things that we can do to lose it. The real issue is, What does the Scripture say?

      What Does The Bible Say?

      As the Scripture is carefully studied we find that a true believer in Jesus is safe and secure eternally. The following relevant passages make this clear.

      1.Never Perish

      Jesus said those who believe in Him will never perish:

      My sheep hear My voice, and I know them and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand (John 10:27,28).

      These verses could not be stronger. Those who trust Jesus will never perish. Jesus said nobody will take believers out of His hand. This is because believers are securely held in the arms of God the Father.

      2.Eternal Life

      The Bible promises eternal life to all who believe in Christ. The most famous verse in the Bible says:

      For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life (John 3:16).

      The promise of eternal life is not true if it can be lost. There is, however, nothing conditional stated in this promise. If a person believes in Jesus they shall have everlasting life. Everlasting means forever.

      3. Present Possession Of Believer

      Those who believe in Jesus presently possess eternal life.

      I tell you the truth, whoever hears My word and believes Him who sent Me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life (John 5:24).

      Salvation, therefore, is not something that is far off in the future—it is a present possession of the believer. Salvation is not looked upon as a day-to-day thing. We do not keep ourselves saved day after day. Scripture treats our salvation as something that is secure forever.

      Eternal Life Defined

      Thus eternal life has already begun for the believer. The Bible defines eternal life as knowing Christ.

      Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent (John 17:3).

      4.Nothing Shall Separate

      The Bible says nothing shall separate us from Christ.

      Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril or sword . . . For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:35, 38,39).

      This passage makes it clear that nothing shall separate Christ from those who have trusted Him. Nothing. This includes the believer separating themselves from Christ.

      5.Christ Remains Faithful

      That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day (2 Timothy 1:12).

      The Apostle Paul stresses the fact that Christ is able to keep that which we have committed.

      6.He Keeps Us From Falling

      To Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before His glorious presence without fault and with great joy — (Jude 24).

      The idea here is that He is the one who keeps us from falling, we are not keeping ourselves.

      7.Kept By God’s Power

      The Bible says that we are kept by God’s power, not our own.

      Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade — kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time (1 Peter 1:3-5).

      8.We Have Been Glorified

      The Bible already speaks of us as being glorified:

      And those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified (Romans 8:30).

      9.It Is A Gift

      Salvation is a gift. A gift is often confused with something earned. No one can earn their salvation, it is God’s gift to us.

      For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast (Ephesians 2:8,9).

      It has been given to us by Christ, we had nothing to do with earning our own salvation.

      10.We Are Joined To Christ

      Once a person has been born again by the word and the Spirit of God he receives new life in Christ. God puts Christ’s righteousness on his account

      For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him (2 Corinthians 5:21).

      But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God—and righteousness and sanctification and redemption (1 Corinthians 1:30).

      11.Christ’s Sacrifice Is Adequate

      The sacrifice of Jesus Christ was adequate for our salvation.

      For by one offering He has perfected forever those who are being sanctified (Hebrews 10:14 ).

      There is nothing that can be added or taken away from His sacrifice.

      12.He Will Complete What He Started

      The Bible says it is God’s power that saves us:

      being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6).

      He started the salvation process, He will finish it.

      13.Kept By God’s Power

      Furthermore, that which keeps us saved is God’s power, not our own.

      who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time (1 Peter 1:5).

      We did not save ourselves, we do not keep ourselves saved.

      14.We Are A New Creation

      We are identified with Christ as a new creation.

      Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new (2 Corinthians 5:17).
      And raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus (Ephesians 2:6).

      15. Christ Paid The Penalty Once

      Jesus Christ has paid the penalty once and for all for sins. God will not demand payment for a second time. The Bible says:

      For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit (1 Peter 3:18).

      Since Christ has died for our sins we will never have to die for them.

      Questions To Be Answered

      If someone believes salvation can be lost, then there is a number of questions that must be asked. What sin or sins would cause me to lose it? How do I know when I’ve lost it? If I lose it, can I get it back? Do I have to get baptized again? What does the Bible mean when it promises eternal life for those who believe? How long is eternal life for? Finally, if a person can lose their salvation then how can they explain what John wrote:

      I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life (1 John 5:13).

      If a person could lose their salvation then no one could know, from moment to moment whether they are saved or not. Yet the Bible says that we can know. This is because once a person truly trusts Christ as Savior they cannot lose that salvation.


      Once a person trusts Christ as Savior they become His child forever. Because He saves and keeps us, nothing shall separate us from His presence.

      sorry for the long post (its important for you though)

      my comment is not in any way an order to do any thing its just my suggestion to help


  4. jesseedavis says:

    This makes perfect sense to be honest. I read your post on the double-minded and the beginning of it is exactly where God has put me in ministry. It is complicated and tough, but I can’t get anywhere when I keep going around defeated by things. It just won’t work.

    🙂 As for getting into the Navy SEALs, only God can get me in there. I have asthma, an automatic disqualification for any military branch, 4 felonies of class 2’s and 1, also a DQ, and poor eyesight in one eye, which is not a problem because it can be corrected. However, I have two strikes against me already, and for the time being, being on parole is the third and final strike. No recruiter will see me while I’m on parole, period. Now having said all this, I’m not giving up. For some reason, this is one fight that doesn’t bother me and it just seems to be an easy challenge compared to some issues I’ve fought. It’s the spiritual battles, mainly the religious church that seems to get me. Everything else I deal with seems to stem for something between my church and other Christians and myself. I need to learn spiritual warfare, or else it will be a rough and sad life. Anyways, as I said, it is going to be all God that I get to be a SEAL, but I trust it’ll happen. So if you feel led, pray with me about this situation. Thanks guys!

    As for more detail with this spiritual depression that I’m in, I know for a fact that it’ll be over in a short period. That I don’t worry about. It is continuing in this cycle and even worse, the fact that each time is worse and longer than before, is what I’m worried about. I just need a break from the church I go to and get away from religion, at least enough to get things in order. For the remainder of the summer I will be at a camp as a counselor with inner-city kids. Guys, this is something I really need prayer support with.w

    Right now, I am denouncing all evil devils and strongholds that I currently give heed to and I am declaring publicly to this board as well as to the spiritual world that God is my Shepherd and Keeper and only He can determine what will happen to me. Father let it be that in Your power and strength, I will walk in victory! For the glory of Your kingdom, will I walk upright and righteously according to Your Spirit and Word as a testimony of these declarations and of Your salvation! In Jesus’ Name AMEN!

    Corey, reading your posts have seemed to awaken something within me. Pray with me that it will grow within me as God wills.

  5. horns4plenty says:

    Hey Jesse and God Bless,

    You mentioned your frustration with your Christian walk and you also mentioned joining the Navy Seals. When I was 18 I stood almost exactly right in your shoes. Except I was wanting to join the marines to go through recon. It required an initial six year enlistment because the training for recon was almost three years. I had already taken my ASVAB test and one of my best friends had already joined. The day before I was going to enlist my parents begged me to talk to a couple a friends of theirs. One was actually a active drill seargent in the Marine Corps and the other had been a helicopter pilot in Nam and had flown four tours and had been shot down twice and had two purple hearts to show for it.They talked me out of it. Anyway I have my testimony posted on this website and you should check it out, but here is what is not in my testimony. Nobody told me when I came to Christ that God did not automatically deliver you of all the baggage you had been carrying prior to accepting Christ.

    Their is a reason why this is so but unfortunately nobody was able to show this to me when I was 18. Our heart when we come to Jesus is like a promise land on earth. Remember when the children of Israel where finally ready to enter the promise land God had sworn to them when they left Egypt. Remember what the 12 spies found when they went in to spy out the land. They came back after forty days and said this land is flowing with milk and honey and this land is really good, but their are giants in the lands. As a matter of fact these giants are so big we look like mere grasshoppers in their sight.

    Now let me ask you this Jesse. Now why on earth would God promise His people this wonderful land and tell them it was a gift to them and to go and possess it and then leave these giant of men on the land who wifes may have been as large as Shaquille Oneal? It does not make a whole lot of sense to me in the natural. Have you ever thought about that? Why would God do it that way? And if that is a representation of the condition of our hearts when we come to Jesus then what on earth am I up against now? Then even if I realize what I have to deal with by reading my bible and going to church how on earth are we ever supposed to get to the place where we can follow in Jesus footsteps as his disciples did? I think these are all valid questions fare enough?

    Okay Jesse hang on and hopefully this will help answer some questions for you. So why did God leave the Giants on the land and not just wipe them out prior to the Isrealites inhabiting the land. There are two reasons. God wanted to teach them the goodness of God and how much He loved them, and secondly He wanted to teach them warfare. If God had eliminated those giants prior to them inhabiting the land then how would they have ever known the giants where there in the first place and appreciate God for the mighty victory He had done for them by eliminating the Giants. Jesse have you ever met somebody that was born with a sliver spoon in there mouth and never had to work for anything in their life? I hate to stereo type, but you will typically find that they are not always the most thankful and they are more likely to take things for granted. But even more important than that is the warfare issue. One huge part of warfare for us and for the children of Israel is we have a God that will not only teach us how to resist the enemy but once we resist the enemy and stand up to the enemy then God will step in and destroy the enemy for us.If God did not teach the children of Israel how to do warfare and how to depend on Him then how on earth would they have ever been able to defend the land when the next set of giants came along? They would not have been able to do it. I mean can you see the giants? “Hey look over their at that great land. It’s flowing with milk and honey. It does have people who are few in number and look like a bunch of grasshoppers. They should not be to much of a problem.” Does that make since to you? Learning to do warfare also requires a lot of training and a lot of hard work. The U.S. is not going to recruit a bunch of soldiers then put guns in their hands and say go get em boys. That would be foolish and our soldiers would get slaughtered and we would not have been able to defend our borders for over 200 hundred years. God spent a lot of time training His people and they systematically went through the promise land and eliminated the giants off the land one stronghold at a time. Some of those giants had been in that promiseland for hundreds of years through multiple generations, and it is no different today.

    Fast forward to today and our heart is symbolic of the promise land. That is the land or soil we as believers are told to defend in this lifetime. So when you realized for the first time in your life that you needed a Savior and you repented of your sins, and you asked Jesus into your heart; there is a real good chance there was some giants that where occupying your heart when you came to Jesus. Do you agree? Are you still sinning? Why? Might you still be in captivity to a giant that has a stronghold built up on your heart? Absolutely!
    Why? I thought when we come to Jesus we are no longer under a curse. Jesus gets rid of the curse when we get saved right? Absolutely not and this is why. If Jesus kicked all the giants and strongholds off of your land when you came to Jesus before He taught you spiritual warfare then what would happen? Your house would be swept nice and clean and guess what? That giant Jesus kicked off your land would go get seven of his buddies and come back to your nice cean house, and there would be no way you could defend your house and you would be seven times more messed up. Jesus came to this earth for our salvation and our deliverance. They go hand in hand. You can not have one with the other, but so many of the churches today teaches a salvation without deliverance and therefore does not teach their followers how to due spiritual warfare and take authority over the giants that still occupy their land and have them in total bondage to sin. When a person gets saved they have them walk an aisle, join the church, get water baptized hand them a bible, tell them to come every Sunday for a little sermonette put their tithe in the offering bucket and everything will be just fine. Meanwhile that person is still tormented and demonized the same as before they ever walked the aisle in the firstplace. What is even worse is often times they get introduced to some religious giants as well and then the poor soul has now just become twice the son of hell as the pastor preaching. God have mercy on the sleeping church.
    Jesse now that you may think I am completely crazy I will stop here.
    I pray that the Lord will complete the work He started in you. God bless you Jesse and check out my testimony if you get the chance.

  6. sobhuza says:

    Dont be anxious about what ur going through we all face these tempations and we must all endure trials and tribulations its wat makes us strong as christians have faith. We must soldier on with the strenght of GOD by ur side u cannot fail I REPEAT U CANNOT FAIL. u shall overcome ur problems in JESUS NAME AMEN.

  7. from the wind says:

    We who follow God are faced with opposition that might make it seem better to take up the most difficult tasks the world has to give instead, but when we place our burdens on the Lord and let God fight our battles we come out on top. I don’t have all the answers. But I ask our Heavenly Father to give joy, love, peace, and strength to jesseedavis. May he find the best solution to his problems and struggles. May my prayers lift up my fellow servant and Lord shine Your light on the path of my fellow servant’s feet for I understand his suffering. How much more do you Heavenly Father? So I ask You Lord hear my prayer???In Jesus’ name Amen

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