I need deliverance from sexual sin

I need deliverance from lust, masturbation, and pornography. Since I’ve been a young girl, I became the girl that guys wanted me to be. I wore sensual clothes, flirted and manipulated guys when they approached me. I looked for their attention and welcomed how they treated me. AT the same time, I grew up isolated from people around me. I wasn’t accepted. I was made fun of and often left alone. I became an angry person; depression and fear plagued my mind every moment. Problem was, I grew up in church and hid behind religion. I was a hypocrite. A few years ago, I became sexual with a guy, who I just met, and introduced to masturbation and other sexual acts, so I can be accepted by him. Memories of what happened and things that were said still runs through my mind. I felt hurt when he rejected me despite of what I did with him. Anger, bitterness, and loneliness plagued my mind continuously. Rather then repent, I ran away from the consequences and hid behind my work. A few months after what happened, I cried out to God to forgive me of what I did.

But, I’ve been single and haven’t been in any relationship since then. I don’t know how to love another person. The same thing that I loathed myself for doing with that guy is what I find myself doing now. I’ve been engaging in masturbation, most recently pornography. It is out of control. I feel empty and sad inside after each act. Right now, in my 20s, I have built up walls around my heart. From appearance, I look like I’m ok, hiding behind the nice-girl image. But inside, I’m not. I pray to God all the time. At the same time, in my heart, I just don’t think He will accept a girl like me. Lately, I have doubts of being saved. I’ve been contemplating suicide a few times. It hurts so much. I need to be delivered. I’ve been suffering in silence. Please pray for me.

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  1. I need God too help me with sex sin too

    • Hi ‘lepper’ – where do you live? I will see if I can connect you with people around your area who are into this kind of prayer ministry to help you overcome. Are you a Christian? Do you go to a church?

  2. Dear mmka04,

     

    Jesus Christ came to die in your place to break the power of all these kinds of sins and to cleanse you from all unrighteousness.

    There are instructions on this website on how to get deliverance. You've made a start already. If you can connect with a godly woman here or elsewhere who can encourage you that would be the best step. Don't stop til you get victory. There are LOTS of people that have overcome such things through Jesus Christ, and they are radiant Christians today.

     

    You don't have to stay in a bad place. Jesus can make it all better through what HE did for you.

     

  3. teshomey says:

    Don’t be afraid because God is watching and He is near. However, you have to decide seriously on the help you need. As long as you are seeking His intervention sincerely, He is not far. He will respond to your cries. I really recommend that you read some testimonies in this site. They were posted by so many brothers and sisters who have experienced the power of the Almighty God including deliverance. I really think it will help you build up your faith and clean your spirit. Don’t stop praying….

    I will pray for you.

  4. twoods09 says:

    You are doing the right thing by seeking help. That is a huge step that many are afraid to take. God does not want you to have to live in sin and loves you so deeply despite how you feel. You are a beloved Child of God and that is your identity. Don’t let Satan tell you otherwise. You are so valuable to God that He sent His one and only Son to die for you so that you can be free from the chains which hold you down and can be in a relationship with Him. It will be a battle, but He will be your strength. Know that you have a brother here that has your back. I encourage you to seek a Godly mentor who can help hold you accountable and encourage you in your walk. Above all look to Jesus Christ at all times. Seek Him and you will find Him. You are in my prayers!

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