I acknowledge that I need an inner strength team who will sincerely pray for me all the time…

Please take your time reading my post. I badly need your prayers.

I was into occult for years.

My mother came from a protestant Christian family but was given 2 small stones when she was in her 20s by a so-called “faith healer” who happened to be her colleague’s father. I believe these small stones were the very reasons why all of us suffered in the family. She had 2 miscarriages, and was cheated by my father for other women. My sister was born with a hole in her heart but it had been operated medically.

My mother is in her 60s now and I am in my 20s. When I was younger, I got very interested in astrology, spells, feng shui displays, talking to my dead relatives tombs… and more. I spent a lot of money for those activities because I was a big of a loser in our school — classmates always teasing and bullying me of my physical appearance, etc. Years back, I studied occult. I wanted to be a witch because I wanted to get back at my classmates in high school. I was wholly broken-hearted. It was also the time when my father abandoned us that made me lose interest to go to school.

The mother of my driving instructor when I was 16 was the “psychic” who taught me for a month. Mom knew all about it, but she never took me seriously of those things as for her what I did was of a joke teenagers do to be COOL. I paid her much for the lessons. It only lasted for more or less 2 months as I noticed she was just fooling me for charging me a higher rate each meeting.

I kept the charm I bought from her at $69. She advised me to attach it in my bra with a pin for that entire year to absorb the “powers”. I really believed there was nothing wrong about what I was getting into because I thought I was only doing it to defend and protect me from hurtful people. I kept it for about 4 years. I gave myself to him — as though the spirit in it was my husband, without even hearing his voice nor seeing the face. I was very desperate.

Many things followed. I’d just fast forward it. In December 2009, I broke up with my colleague boyfriend. (I was like a two-timer for having relationship with the demon, willing to have astral sex at the same time.) He couldn’t accept my decision and he played witchcraft against me. He wanted my virginity and that made things worse. My general health fell down. I suffered severely from heartburn, absent-mindedness, gluttony, depression, anxiety, insomnia… lots. I couldn’t control the negative things happening. It was always like bad luck was closely following me. Then I found a “magtatawas” who used an oslo paper and candle to see the images of the one sending me attacks. So I confirmed one was my ex-boyfriend. Before we left the place, I happened to confess to the “magtatawas” that I was wearing my charm the whole time, for years, that perhaps we could talk to him for a little. The name of that sham healer is Philomena Ramos. She told me that Dave (I named him as instructed by the psychic teacher) was just after my body that he never really loved me at all. So I immediately wanted him out of my life. After surrendering the thing to her, she suggested to give me another “protection from bad spirits”. Since I did not so appreciate what my exes did to me, I thought, getting a “better” one would be alright. She blew my center of my head as though she was whispering something to it. I asked what it was about, but she didn’t like me asking too much. So we just left.

Mid-2010, I felt ultra-terrible. I was getting prone to accidents and was experiencing strange things. I went to Bulacan, met another founder of a cult there, who is now the problem why I am really disturbed today. He was the worst of all I met. I believed he could heal me but he raped me astrally, taking advantage of my body while I’m at my sleep. I believe he still does it today. I WANT TO SHARE HIS NAME TO YOU CHRISTIANS BECAUSE I BELIEVE GOOD PRAYERS ARE POWERFUL. I had long left my occult life. I received Jesus Christ last year, though it is still a hard adjustment process I do day by day. PLEASE HELP ME. I NO LONGER KEEP CURSED OBJECTS AND COMMUNICATE WITH THESE KINDS OF PEOPLE — BUT I SO FEEL THEY DISTURB ME. Everyday I feel somebody kisses me astrally at night, get itchy in my skin to the extent that it is like a needle is pricking it, shiver and tremble out of the blue, forget things easily, dream unknown men robbing or running after me with guns, get irritated shortly, doubt people’s good deeds, receive sexual and lustful images…. someone stroking my hair, all these… a lot more! I feel people condemning me… I feel cheap… they make me feel so small that I know I’m really not…. I feel weak…. please continue to pray for me as there are times I want to give up already… I have been calling on God’s angels to throw these horrible things away but they’d keep coming back. My church friends turned out to be hypocrites so I quit visiting a physical church… so I’m doing this faith alone realizing I can’t…

* I cannot stand this astral-kissing of the founder of that cult. I feel defenseless though I call on God because the kissing happens most of the time. It makes me suffer. I never had a special relationship with him which disappoints me very much because he is insisting himself. Please pray for me.


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  1. Sister in Christ says:

    Just a correction, I did type the thing above after a night shift. God punishes up to third and fourth generation.Exodus 34:7 – Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear [the guilty]; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children’s children, unto the third and to the fourth [generation].Exodus 20:5
    You shall not bow down to them or serve them, for I the Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and the fourth generation of those who hate me.A bastard shall not enter into the congregation of the LORD; even to his tenth generation shall he not enter into the congregation of the LORD”(Deut.23:2).

  2. Sister in Christ says:

    Dear Sister,
    I feel for you. What you’re experiencing is demonic oppression. Because of your involvement with occultism in the past, you’re being tormented by the evil spirits. Like you, I grew up being exposed to occultism despite the fact that my maternal side of the family were protestants. My grandmother knew the Bible by heart. She could recite the Bible word for word without looking. Unfortunately, she was also doing pagtatawas. Every time we were sick, she’d perform pag tatawas to rid ourselves of the elves’ spells. I questioned my mother and her a few times regarding their practice of occultism since we believed in God but all I got were reprimands for interfering with adult business. I also remember them inviting shamans at home to heal them of their ailments. My family also suffered from extreme poverty despite the fact that my mother was a public school teacher and my dad was working abroad as a seaman. On top of that, we had an extra income from my dad’s pension given that he was in the Navy. To cut the story short, our lives were miserable growing up. We didn’t have any money, my mom was always sick and we were always fighting at home. I got involved in fortune telling myself and learned the art of card reading. It was only with God’s grace was I able to get out of that ditch. I grew up believing in the Lord but because of my family’s influence, I was following their footsteps. God rescued me when I was on my lowest point I joined a church and the pastor and his wife helped me open my eyes.
    Ephesians 6:12 For I our struggles is not sharing flesh and blood but against rulers, authorities, powers of this dark world and against thespiritual forces of the heavenly realm.
    You need to take charge of your life. How? Through prayer and fasting. Mark 9:29 “and He said unto them, For this thing can come forth by nothing but prayer and fasting.When you fast, you allow the Lord to take over your life and situation and He’ll do the fight for you. Romans 8:31 “what then shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”.
    Join a church and let God heal you and empower you. Just because you’ve come across bad apples in your church, that doesn’t mean all the members are bad. Pray and fast so that the Lord will lead you to the right church where you will grow spiritually. Let the pastor lay hands on you and pray to break the curses you’ve been carrying all these years. Pray for generational curses, curses uttered by others and yourself. Use your tongue and rebuke the evil dominion over your life in Jesus name. Read Malachi the last book in the old testament. Read how God blessed the people up to 3rd and 4th generation and how he cursed up to 10th generation.
    Lastly, give your life and all your worries to the Lord. 1 Peter 5:7 ” Cast your anxiety to the Lordfour He cares for you”.
    After giving myself fully to the Lord, the spiritual ties that have been passed from generation to generation have been broken forever. I’ve been set free by the Lord. The oppression is gone. I pray for your healing in Jesus’ name. Use your authority given by the Lord to overcome this spiritual warfare. I suggest reading the book by Derek Prince called blessings and curses. God bless.

  3. Joel Anil Bansode says:

    I am praying for you. Cast out the spirit in Jesus’ name. There is tremendous power in the blood of Jesus. God will help you and please reply me when you read this. May God be with you and protect you.

    • iwantlife says:

      Thank you for praying for me. I’ve been praying for it in Christ Jesus’ name, but I have come to a point that I cannot do this alone, that I really need to be backed up with other real Christians. Thank you for taking the effort to write here. I got this feeling that evil spirits join altogether to bring a Christian down for them to win. It makes me scared but I am convincing myself to fight all the way though it is very difficult. My family seems to be very busy with their own issues too that’s why I thought of doing this alone, also to avoid hearing their doubts about these issues. Please continue to pray with me…

  4. Joel Anil Bansode says:

    I am praying for you. Cast out the spirit in Jesus’ name. There is tremendous power in the blood of Jesus. God will help you and please reply me when you read this. May God be with you and protect you.

  5. Joel Anil Bansode says:

    God will help you. I’m praying for you. And cast the spirit out in Jesus’ name. There is tremendous power in the blood of Jesus. God will help you. Please reply me when you read this msg

    • iwantlife says:

      Thank you for inspiring me. I also remember that I gave my complete name, address, birthday, pictures, etc. to the founder of that cult. When I did my research last week, I remembered that those information could be used by that man and his members to make communications with me. That they could use it to make a doll to place an animal’s heart to give life to it–as my body–to perform witchcraft, suffering, etc. I came to realize that it could be that doll why I still get aches in my chest. I have been praying to God in Jesus’ name that the doll and whatever means of communication that person uses to take a hold of me will be totally destroyed. I have been asking the Holy Spirit to work for me… I even thought of going to the place of that founder but I thought as well that it might be a trap and not the Holy Spirit’s instruction. I am overwhelmed and having a hard time with my discernment. But I thank this site because I believe with you guys I can breathe spiritually…

      • childofjesus says:

        Matthew 28:12 – “Then Jesus came to them and said, “ALL authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.”
        Do you see it is not ‘some authority’ but ‘All authority’ is given to Jesus so that ‘all’ the works of the enemy can be destroyed in Jesus’s Name.

        Ephesians 5:11 – “Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.”
        So do not go back to the place of that founder.

        May God Bless you and deliver you from every snare of the Enemy.
        With prayers

  6. childofjesus says:

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  7. Earlimiah says:

    I pray for peace for your mind and heart and spirit, in the Name of Our Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth. That His peace flow through you and within you as a cleansing fire, consuming all that is not of God, or of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, or the Holy Spirit. And I pray for you the exact words God spoke to me: “pray that….no barrier formed against God, Jesus Christ, or the Holy Spirit – be allowed to stand!” No barrier – nothing….not from any source. I will be remembering you in my prayers.

    • iwantlife says:

      I am really grateful for your Christian prayers. I humble myself of needing those to you. I say YES to your praying of peace of mind… I also rebuke in Jesus’ name the shame and sexual traumas this man and these experiences are giving me.

  8. childofjesus says:

    I understand your desperation to come out of this situation…And i want to assure you that JESUS is the only one who has conquered every evil work of the Enemy at the cross…

    Now i want you to BELIEVE in 1 john 4:4 “You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.” The Bible says the one who is in you ie JESUS is greater than the one who is in the world (Devil).
    I don’t want you to give the name but i want you to BIND that person in JESUS Name. Cover yourself with the Blood of Jesus that no evil may touch you..There is POWER in the BLOOD OF JESUS…You are not defenseless…Take authority in JESUS Name and defend yourself.

    I’m sorry to hear that you have not met any true christian.There is a website who are helping people in this area. I want you to contact them. http://www.reachouttrust.org

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