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An update on Anne - Praising God for total healing and deliverance
1/ E-mail 25th February 2002
Hi Marlies, how are you? I have been thinking about very much lately. I wanted to write sooner, but I have been working until 6 pm and then going to the hospital to see my mom. I Just wanted to say hello and that I am thinking about you, but I know once I start a letter to you, I just go on and on !!
I can't believe sometimes you came all the way out here to help me, but I thank GOD constantly that he sent you and I was delivered and healed of sooooo many things--- it is truly a miracle! Last night I just got down on my knees and sobbed from being so grateful to the LORD for his mercy and love. I can't even begin to tell you how free I feel from so many things that weighed me down. I am delivered and healed in my emotions in a way I never thought possible.
I used to loathe myself, absolutely hating and abusing myself. My self-esteem and self-worth were destroyed, I was delivered from all this. I thought I could never be healed emotionally. I was delivered from suicidal feelings, I remember how just before you came to America, I feared for my life. Being around knives made me feel as if (something) would push me to take me life. It wasn't that I wanted to die, there was a demon in me that wanted to kill me. I remember when that demon fled from me.
I don't feel any attachment to my ex-husband any more and that whole situation which totally devastated me. Also I have completely forgiven so many people I couldn't forgive before. I have so much to be grateful for. I should have died a years ago, but the LORD drew me out of deep waters more than once!!
I want to thank you for your prayers for my mom and myself, they are greatly appreciated. My mom actually returned home tonight, and her blood pressure is controlled, although she is a bit weak. Now we are both changing our lifestyle in terms of diet etc. As a matter of fact, I have been taking better care of my diet. For breakfast I eat half a grapefruit and some oatmeal. I also eat healthier food during the day.
As for my withdrawal symptoms, most of them went away-- the depression, the anxiety, the rash, the pins and needles, they all went away. I still have head pressure, swelling in my face, and insomnia, but I will continue to pray against it. I haven't had pelvic pain for about 2 weeks, which is a record. I even got my period 2 days ago with very little discomfort. I have begun to get a new symptom --- intense painful episodes of stabbing pain in the middle of my stomach up in between my ribs, which I never had before. It could be from withdrawal--- spasms --- I've heard of this. I was doubled over at work today with it, and the doctor I work for said it sounded like hiatal hernia or oesophagus spasms caused by acid. Either way I have to pray against this.
Well, mum, I continue to pray for you. I love you DEARLY. I will write again soon, love-your daughter in CHRIST
----Anne
2/ Fri, 28 Feb 2003
First let me start out by saying I love you very, very much, and I miss you LOTS. My mom and I were just talking the other night about sending for you again so we could spend time together. Maybe you can come in the summer? We will leave it up to GOD. I think about you often, and pray for you too. How are you? How are you feeling? Thank you so much for your prayers, I am very grateful to have you in my life, I am truly blessed.
My mom is doing ok, her blood pressure still gets high, and she has pain. Last night I prayed for her (I always have a block when it comes to praying for my mom-- I think there are spirits in her, or around her that are blocking me from praying for her), I prayed for her, and rebuked the high blood pressure. After the prayer she measured her blood pressure again and it had gone down !!
About Zlatko and Jo, it's sad that their 10 yr. old is such a brat, but there is always hope. They will have to take control now before he gets any older. Everything you said about what GOD revealed to you I absolutely agree with. I believe HE is misrepresented as a "push over", and that he doesn't get angry or discipline us. 1 Peter 2:4 says: "For GOD did not even spare the angels when they sinned, he threw them into hell, in gloomy caves and darkness until the judgement day." Also 1 Peter 2:20 "And when people escape from the wicked ways of the world by learning about the LORD and SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST and then get tangled up with sin and become its slave again, they are worse off than before".
There are many Scriptures which show that GOD punishes us for our sins. HE is merciful and kind, yet HE disciplines us--- because we are HIS children. It's better to be disciplined by the LORD and repent and turn to him than lose our souls. It's amazing that I was just reading that verse the other night---- God showed me just before my deliverance how my sins caused me to be "led away as a captive". Isaiah 49:1 "No, you went away as captives because of your sins" Also in Hebrews12:8 " If GOD doesn't discipline you as he does all of his children it means that you are illegitimate and are not really his children at all". I learned a lot about this subject during my deliverance, when God showed me how rebellious I had been and needed to be punished, but also that he would forgive me and deliver me when I was truly repentant.
About that spirit of anger I had, I can't believe what a huge change has taken place in me since I cast out that spirit. It was very evil, and I was shown that in a dream too. When you told me to cast it out----- I did --- and it left! The reason I know it is gone is because, I have sooo much patience now--- that I never had before. I don't get angry easily, even while driving!! I used to have road rage. Now I am very calm, very patient, and when I do get angry it is a "normal " anger that it is not out of control and quickly disappears. I read some Scripture on how anger gives the devil a "mighty foothold", so I resist anger and the devil too. Now it is much easier to control my emotions in the flesh with that spirit gone.
Marlies, I am in awe every day about you coming here to America and helping me. It is nothing less than a miracle. The whole situation was a miracle and I am amazed every day and grateful for my deliverance and for having met you, also having you as my teacher and confidant.
As for those pesky withdrawal symptoms, they are ALL GONE now, every one of them!!! I spoke to each one and even the bad rash on my back from the withdrawal healed. I am amazed that this actually works--- that prayer is so powerful. The pain in the middle of my stomach that I told you was a new thing-- left too. I knew it was the devil throwing something new at me when I first got it----- I guess I'm catching on to his tricks.
I spoke with my mom last night about baptism, and she wants to do it as soon as possible, so lets make a time and date to do it when no one will bother us. When it is 8 pm here, it is 12 noon there. Maybe one day soon, we can do it at that time. As for the revelations, I printed them out, but haven't put them up yet. I am much more encouraged than in my previous letters so I am ok. I just wonder a lot and I ask GOD why the revelations stopped and the "voice of GOD"?
Well, I will go for now. I really miss you--- I mean it--- I hope to see you again soon. Have a wonderful day( or night)
--------Love Antoinette
My explanation as to why I thought the revelations had stopped.
I can't speak for God, but I felt that the revelations had stopped so that Anne would not come to dependent on them, but rather seek God through faith reading his Holy Word and praying. I believe God was gracious enough to give her the revelations in the beginning to strengthen her faith.
I reminded her that she was blessed because God had delivered her in such a mighty way. On top of that HE had shown himself to her in visions, but she needed to grow in faith whereby she accepted the fact that God loved her very much whether he spoke to her directly or not. In fact she had been so mightily blessed that if God chose never to reveal himself to her again she was still more blessed than other people who had not experienced God in the same way she had.
My reasoning calmed her and extinguished the devil's fiery darts of doubt and unbelief. As so often happens the devil puts doubt into the baby Christian's life that they have committed some terrible sin and God doesn't love them any more.
3/ Sun, 2 Mar 2003
Hi mom! I just got the chance to sit down and write answer your last e-mail. I have been away at my sister's house in Staten Island, besides doing a lot of running around.
As for my health, I am doing very well, no pain, no withdrawals. I have maybe one or 2 lingering symptoms which I am praying against. I have been surprisingly pain free for a record amount of time. I believe after I prayed for forgiveness of adultery and divorce and that whole situation -- the pain left. I also cast out spirits that came into me during general anaesthesia and psychiatric medication. I wanted to cover all bases.
As for the concerns about not getting any more revelations, you are right about what you say. I won't let it bother me any more. I was just hoping it wasn't because of something I might have done wrong, like stopping those visions in the middle. I will leave it up to GOD, I trust HIM, and I won't worry any more about this.
I thank you again for all you love and kindness---- I thank GOD constantly for the miracles in my life, and for sending you here. I don't know where I would be right now (I don't even want to think about that). But by a miracle of JESUS--- we met---- you became my spiritual mom--and I hope you will be a part of my life as long as we both live here on earth ( and even after !!! )---------I send you my love----Anne
4/ Wed, 12 Mar 2003
Hi Marlies, I finally got my computer working, by shutting it off and back on. It is still occasionally getting an error from the keyboard. For now its ok, until I can get it checked out. It was great hearing your voice, and being able to speak to you over the phone. I really miss those times we would talk here for hours. I am glad you received the gift I sent you, and it makes me feel good you used it for something that will be for your safety.
Last night I prayed a long time for you-- for many things. I also prayed a lot for all the people who prayed for my deliverance. I prayed for a lot of people and spent a lot of very intimate time with JESUS. That is something I haven't done in a good while. I told JESUS I only ask one thing from HIM, --- only one--- that I will know who he is---- that when I leave this earth -- he will take me in his arms and carry me home and that I would dwell in HIS presence forever. I really mean it Marlies. There is nothing I want more. I know we are offered all wonderful things in heaven, land, riches, a home, but none of that really matters---- as long as I get to meet JESUS and be in GOD'S presence for eternity.
As for my situation here, I have done everything you told me. However, these evil forces are still in my room and my house. Last night again, more than before, my dog is seeing things, cowering down, shivering, and then he circles my head, as if in protection of me. I am getting hit with some nightmares too, which I have been praying against. But, I don't really feel anxious, in fact last night I slept very well, and I was very peaceful. I read the Bible for a while, then I worshiped GOD really and truly from my heart. I prayed and went to bed at peace. What is annoying though is that the dog gets frightened and he stares into the darkness as if something is tormenting him. My mom is leaving tomorrow for Puerto Rico, and I am not too happy about being alone in this house with these evil forces around.
My response to the dog issue.
God showed me that the devil could no longer touch Anne so he tormented the dog so that the dog's whimpering would keep her awake. In order to overcome the problem she needed to anoint the dog with oil and pray against the devil's attacks on the animal. When she anointed the dog it became peaceful immediately and there were no more disturbing occurrences during the night.
Well as for my diet. I prayed to GOD to remove gluttony from my life which I believe is totally evil, because it kills people off slowly inflicting all kinds of diseases and conditions. Being overweight takes away people's self esteem and causes anxiety and depression. Now, I eat really healthy and my appetite is under good control-- I don't even a desire any more to eat too much. I prayed that GOD would put a desire in me to exercise, and eat healthy and HE did !! HE is AWESOME and wonderful.
I have been working out every day, lifting weights on one day and doing aerobics the other. Something I would have NEVER thought I'd be able to do--- EVER--- because of past pain in my pelvis. Besides, a year and a half ago I was bedridden for months unable to walk at 86 lbs. Marlies, GOD saved my life and my soul !!! I was going to die back then for sure. I'm sure I told you-- I had attacks of paralysis, and had to be carried to get around. The ambulance was at my house several times a week. I had Parkinson type twitching and jerking of my neck and muscles from the high doses of medication-- not to mention daily violent seizures for about 6 months, where my whole body would thrash about violently, throwing me into fits. I was given a prescription for a wheelchair. I was on a very dangerous combination of medication that never should have been mixed--- 2 medications I was on for 8 months are lethal when mixed together !!! I want to sue this doctor, but I don't know if its against GOD to take revenge. Let's not mention the suicide attempts, the mental hospital admissions etc. And let's not forget that my whole family planned my funeral and I myself was preparing for death!! I believe I was only 2 or 3 weeks away from dying , before ALMIGHTY GOD saved my life and DREW ME OUT OF "DEEP WATERS" and when I say DEEP --- I mean DEEEEEP !!!!
I had over 100 injections into my spinal cord-- that in its self would have damaged my whole nervous system. I was told I had some neurological disorder I never had-- and that's why I got all the injections and 10 seriously potent drugs. I was told by that doctor I would be crippled and need a wheelchair. I believe I told you all this, but If I didn't I just want you to understand the extent of GODS MIRACLES IN MY LIFE !!!!! After this, GOD delivered me too !! I can't comprehend HIS mercy and love-- because I was such a big sinner-- and I turned on him , even after he saved my life the first time!! It's totally amazing---- and every time I think about what he saved me from---- I well up in tears (as I am now) and I fall to my knees--- and I don't even know what to say to HIM. A mere thank you-- is nothing compared to the gratitude I feel in my heart. I can't stop thanking JESUS, I can't stop being in AWE of GOD and amazed, and GRATEFUL. Every time I think about what GOD saved me from ---- physical death-- and spiritual death---- I can't stop being in AWE.
Well, I didn't mean to make this letter so long. I will write again soon. I thank you for the time you spent with me. You are very, very kind, and I count on you as my spiritual mom. I will continue to pray for you. I love you dearly
-------Anne
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