Anyone experience fear? Well I did… 30 years… and 18 as a Christian! I went to and fro looking for my freedom but no one was able to help me. All I got was, “just believe God.” Well… that didn’t work. I had extreme panic attacks, phobias, stress, anxiety, and fear. I was in more fear when I didn’t get healed when I became a Christian. I was confused because I read that “by His stripes I am healed.” So what was the problem? I was doing everything I knew to serve the Lord, yet nothing was working. I became suicidal, and just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. I couldn’t do anything, I was frozen in my life. No one knew what I was going through. I was alone.
Then one day I heard a message that changed EVERYTHING! I discovered where this fear came from and how to get rid of it. It came from the inability to RECEIVE God’s perfect love. Scriptures say that “Perfect love casts out all fear and torment.” And boy was I in fear and torment. I thought I knew God loved me… but I learned that wasn’t what was missing… it was my inability to RECEIVE His love for me. It’s the receiving part that changes us. Many keep asking, asking, asking, but no one stops to say, “Oh… thank you Father.” That is how we begin receiving.
So during that service I attended, I went through the prayer line, and the pastor addressed fear. It was NOT an emotion, it was a spirit… For God has not given me a “spirit of fear” so I learned that fear was a creature. It wasn’t something I had to live with any longer. So it was cast out.
I was freed! Now the battle was on, because fear came in the first place because I wasn’t being made perfect in love. I had so many painful relationships, hurts, self-hurts, etc., and was a giant ball of twine all tied up. But as the Lord began helping me unravel my life, through his love and my forgiving others, and receiving forgiveness, more and more peace entered my life.
For the past 14 years, I have been daily seeking God’s love, learning more of His love for me, opening myself up for it more and more, and if there is anything in me that doesn’t line up with the Word, I repent and cast it down. The secret to an intimate relationship with God is to be honest with Him, no matter what it is, no matter how embarrassing, or how ugly. That is when you have truly entered into a relationship with a Father who loves you… and that’s when fear will not have a chance! Fear breeds in secrets, being afraid to tell anyone what you said or did… it hides there. Be as transparent with God as you can… and with a friend whom you trust to pray for you. James 1:15 says to confess our faults one to another, and pray for one another, so that we may be healed. And that is what we are to do.
But most of all, thank the Lord for loving you. Thank Him and ask Him to help you receive more and more of His love everyday, and help you forgive everyone needing forgiving, even you.
That is what I did, and that is what I continue doing. My life has transformed, and I’m very happy with who I am now, what God is doing in my life, and living in the “Promised Land.”