I had shared my testimony in my earlier blogs, well there is lot more I want to share. Overcoming Idolism had been a slow yet fruitful process in my life and it is due to this experience that I feel much closer to Our Saviour Jesus Christ, knowing Him entirely spiritually. After receiving the Gift of Holy Spirit as well a kind of special anointing. I faced life in all together a different way. It was on 06th of Aug 2006 from were the struggles begun. On that faithful evening while I was filled with Spirit I felt a word of Christ inside me which said, “Two days from now and I will deliver you”. I was just born in Spirit so I didn’t knew what it meant. I was hopefully waiting for a great deliverance after two days. However, as I have mentioned in my earlier blogs that my mom took away my bible on 08 of Aug 2008, and it was on that day when I was told to go for a fasting. Anyhow, I was wondering that God told me of deliverance and everything was in contrast to that. I was left to struggle. In my childhood I learnt one every important lesson which is, what ever be the circumstances I will always have faith in God and believe what ever He says to me as well do anything to obey Him. I know my master’s voice but to confirm my thoughts I pray to Lord that whenever He speaks, He should confirm it through the words of Bible. I don’t want to be lost.
After I was completely cut off from the outside world, my parents made sure that I pray to Hindu gods. They said, they had no problem if I believe in Christ but they don’t want the extremes in me. As a Hindu ritual, we need to worship, both in the morning and in the evening. That’s a daily routine without fail. While performing these rituals, my mom would force me to do the same and let me eat the offering made to gods. First few days I was not doing that, I was praying to God for what should I do. Then inside me came a word, “I will sanctify every where you pray and what ever you eat”. And honestly until today God never made me feel convicted for that. Because when I was made to do these things I had no options with me, I was young, I was girl, I was introvert. I said to Lord “I give myself unto you, what you will say I will do, like a water lily knows to grow in both fresh and dirty water and yet always remain pure so I will Lord” I firmly say ‘It is not we who believes but it is our heart that believes” When ever I was made to bow down before Hindu gods and eat these things, I would close my eyes and pray “ Lord I see you in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. I see not what stands in front of me but I see you Lord, so I bow down to you, accept my prayers Lord, you know I worship you only and to you alone I submit”. The Hindu offerings which I had to eat was like poison for me but I used to pray “Lord, I will eat it because I see it as a blessing from you and not with the thought of what they had presented to me, you know my heart Lord its only for you and nothing in the world can ever separate me from you. Everything may fall, but my faith will remain”. I knew Lord was with me.
I always missed my Bible, when it was taken away from me. Ask me and I will tell you how it feels when you desire to read the words of God and you don’t have any. I never felt I was doing anything wrong when I faced the struggle in with I had to fight with Hindu traditions. I was pure in my heart. Now I want to tell you, what was that which made me feel guilty and convicted, but thankfully, God delivered me from that. In midst of all iniquities and weakness of flesh I always knew and prayed that one day Lord will come to deliver me. The joys of this world are like sorrows to me, but if I have to go through much pain to serve Him, I will rejoice. Each day I woke up with a thought of deliverance that will finally bring me back to Him. When my parents planned to send me to New Delhi, it was a completely strange land, as I had never stayed in a city. I was used to hills and climate of northern eastern India. I never wanted to live in a hot, self centered and busy lifestyle as in New Delhi. It was Lord’s plan too; He wanted to purify me in like a silversmith. One day before coming to Delhi, I told my mom that I need to go for shopping. Gratefully she allowe
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