GOD’S LOVE PEEKS THROUGH THE DARKEST NIGHTS

GOD’S LOVE PEEKS THROUGH THE DARKEST NIGHTS

Hi, my name is Joan. This is my story of how and when I got saved. But I am ashamed to say I back slid a few times but God was still with me although I didn't know it.

I write all my experiences on different sites. Most of my life was a big mess but God untangled it all. I have been changed from an anti-social introvert to and easy going extrovert. The real change began in 1971 after a dream I had where God promised He would heal me in all areas. I am still a work under construction.

When my husband of 16 years ,informed me to go to the court house to sign divorce papers he applied for, I was devastated. He did it this way so our six lovely children would not have to see a policeman come to the door to hand them to me. Our marriage was not built on love or trust. We didn’t even like each other. We both married on the rebound. I added “to get away from home” as another reason for the marriage. God was not in it at all.

He kept the kids because I worked and the area would not rent to anyone with children. I had the three youngest one on weekends for awhile. It got to the point they did not want to visit me anymore. They had their friends and plans and that was more fun. I wasn’t the best mother. I worked a full time job; mostly split shifts. My kids didn’t really know me. I didn’t have much time for them.

Although my home life with my Father and Mother wasn’t pleasant and the same in my married life, I was never alone. I always had someone to protect me and make my decisions for me. To be out on my own was a scary proposition. I had to look for an apartment in an unfamiliar territory, buy a car, get all the utilities turned on. There was no one to help me do all this. This was my first step to maturity!

I even considered suicide as a way out. I wasn’t up to all this responsibility. After talking to Suicide prevention for about an hour, I pulled up my boot straps and plodded on. I made up my mind I would either sink or swim. I went to dances by myself. I joined a pen pal club and got about sixty replies. One was a man from N. Carolina. After several letters, he invited me to go fishing with him, his Mother, Father and son.

I threw all caution to the wind, and took off on the most dangerous and long journey of my life. I was scared when I had to drive seventeen miles to go to work. About five hundred miles was a gigantic step for me to take. Looking back, I can see all that I did from then on was the hard way I had to go to find God. He knew whe

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