Deena Jones - Delivered from Crack Cocaine

Deena Jones shares about her life and how after calling upon the name of the Lord she was delivered from addiction to crack cocaine.

First of all I'd like to thank our Lord Jesus for His unconditional Love and His blessings He has blessed us with. I would like to share my testimony of my past drugs/alcohol and abuse with everyone in this world, and to speak and praise in what Jesus has helped me in surviving and overcoming the hard battles and struggles everyday I was in bondage.

God Is Love...God has Unconditional Love for His Children

It all started as having a very hard childhood. I come from a very dysfunctional family and was abused in many ways from family members. My mother had left us at a very young age, and my father became an alcoholic. Although my father was a very hard worker to support all of us kids, he drank, but he also went to work the next day. As I was growing up in my early teens, I was shifted from home to home, and was never stabled. Our relatives across the Islands had requested and asked my dad to take us because my father couldnt take care of us well enough. I was going through relatives home every month, and crying out for my father to come back to pick me up. I remembered feeling very confused and hurt, and I didnt want to be with relatives. Later on that year, my oldest sister got married to a man who had abused her during her pregnancy, and she took me and my other sister in. We lived with them in misery everyday. We were treated like slaves. We couldnt do anything, go anywhere, participate in anything...we were basically her and his slaves!!

One day in school, I hung around with friends that were into smoking, drinking, not going to church and those who were hiding from their parents. I try to be like them because I wasnt taught any better. Later on, I started smoking cigarettes and hiding it. You cant really hide from the smell of smoke, because its in your hair and clothes. I ended up staying out later than my curfew time(which was immediately after school gets out!) just then I got home my sister and her husband started yelling and beating on me,and asking why do I smell like cigarettes, and why didnt I come home immediately after school. I left the next day, acting as I was going to school. From this point on, I was living with friends to friends, and constantly living in fear and hiding from my family members. After 6 weeks of running, hiding, and having almost nothing to eat, I went back to my sister's home, and decided to just give in. I was tired!! I decided to go back home. That same day, as I was walking near the apartment they lived in, I heard a honk from behind me, and it was her husband. He yelled in an angry tone..to get into the car.. I was scared and so I ran, but he caught up with me, physically grabbed me and threw me in his car. When we got home he went straight to the room and came out with a belt. He beat me with the belt and threw the remote control on my head which caused bleeding and swelling. Just when I thought the beating was done....my sister came home after work and did more damage to me physically. I walked out the next day with bruises and welts, and could not walk or talk and a friend had taken me to the police station and it was then they had placed me into diffrent foster homes. By this time...I was in 9th grade, and was moved around in five diffrent foster homes. I needed to get away from this, so I told my father and kissed him goodbye that I was moving to one of my brother and his wife's residence in the State of Washington. I came to Washington and went to high school there. Got married and started a family, shortly after.

My life as a mother and wife was going really good, and I remembered being so happy and content with my life, because I had God into our lives. I thought to myself...God has chosen me to be a Mom and a Wife. My husband was working with a strong company, I was a stay at a home Mom.We were also getting alot of help from his parents, and things were looking up....my children....were my life.....I really enjoyed being a Mom....doing things with them....taking them everywhere I went.....They were my life.....I started going to church with my kids every Sunday. Years went by I started slowly slippin away from my faith. My marriage slowly started dissolving and infidelity took a big chunk out of us both. I started going out with colleagues and friends, started drinking every weekend. My hurt and my pain was when I was going to church and always praying, but something was definitely missing in my life....nothing seemed to help but escaping my pain into my alcohol....my drinking progressed and thats all I wanted to do was to party. I had no limits. The enemy was striking into myself and my family, more and more and I was becoming weaker and weaker.

In a very short and quick time, I was introduced to smoking crack/cocaine, and that is when everything stopped functioning. I was out with some people who at that time considered them as real close friends. You know it is true what they say about crack--is when you take that first Hit, that high you will never get again....and since then my life was based on chasing that same hit. Crack can do some serious harm to your mind and body as well as losing everything you owned and everybody who loved and cared for you. It had ruined me completely. It took total control over me. Crack/Cocaine has ruined my reputation, my self-worth and my self-respect. I ended up leaving my kids and family for this drug. I ended up living with this guy who was very abusive and very controlling,-physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally. I ended up with guys who had crack on them, and using them for their drugs only, and in return getting hurt in the end of it. I got really depressed and I wanted the help,but I needed more than the professional help. It got worse for me that I wanted to end my life, and months later I had attempted suicide. Again the Enemy had struck... I had family members coming to look for me constantly, and saying that they will always pray for me. They even told the Pastor that I've known before he became a Pastor about my situation, and asked that their fellowship will pray for me. I heard that he had announced my name to pray for me, that I was facing drug addictions. But I didnt care about anything or anyone but only one thing was on my mind...and that was my next high.

I do remember this one time where I was being videotaped (without my knowledge) at a crackhouse, being taped during my drug intake, and the effects it took after! I was also accused of doing porno films which in fact I do not recall doing one. These Enemies took this tape and used it against me everywhere. These Enemies started playing mental games with me.I had drug enemies who hated me because I was getting free crack, and got away with free drugs. I had a hard time trying to find employment, and couldnt because, the videotape of my past was incriminating me. This is my past that haunts me. I was tired of living a lie. Tired of living the crack-scene world, tired of losing everything already lost, tired of being broke the next day, tired of the party life, tired of smoking...smoking....drinking...drinking.....tired of being verbally attacked by derogatory names by everyone.....

Until one day, I fell to my knees and cried out to Jesus to please help rescue me...I had enough of the drugs/alcohol and the abuse, it was then that I cried my heart out and prayed and ask God ...please Help me! It was then I accepted Jesus Christ my Saviour to enter into my heart, mind and body! And He did! I have been cleaned and drug free for about 4 1/2 years now. I am a living testimony of how Jesus had stopped the cravings, the urges for me to use. Everyday I thank our Lord Jesus for renewing and restoring me as whole again. I thank our Lord Jesus for my recovery, and for giving me life again. Jesus has stepped into my Life and has changed my entire life. Jesus Is Love!! YES! HE IS! I thank Jesus for everything, every blessing, every good and every bad, because when I think back about my past of where I've been and where I am at today.....You know what? I get on my knees, I thank our Father and remember what and where His Only Son Jesus, has been through in His times of sufferings and His beatings...and to know that Jesus has died on the Cross for our sins, and at that very moment I know in my heart and mind that Jesus is here with me.. within me....besides me....comforting me telling me in His words..."Do not worry or weep, for I am here with you".

Thank You Jesus for restoring my life again. He has truly delivered me from the drugs/alcohol and the past abuse. I praise you Lord Jesus My Saviour. Although I don't have my children living with me physically, each day God hears my prayers and I trust in Him that He has better plans for me. I Trust and Have Faith in Jesus to give me the strength to get my children back someday. Today, it is still rough, but I am living a much more humble and peaceful life within myself. I now have Jesus in my life, and it can't be any better than that. I have plans to help people, with volunteer work, and helping to reach those who are in the same bondage that I was in before. I pray that God will lead me there. My true testimony is through Jesus Christ our Saviour.

Here is a poem by an unknown author I would like to share with you all also. It's called I've Found a New Life in Jesus!

I've Found A New Life in Jesus:

I've found a new life in Jesus, Old things have all passed away; Awakened, I rose up to enter The dawn of an unending day. I've found a new life in Jesus, My values in life are all new; Eternal things now fill my vision, The earthly have faded from view. I've found a new life in Jesus, I'mwalking by faith not by sight; He strengthens my heart in the daytime, And He gives me a song in the night. I've found a new life in Jesus, The pleasures of sin will not do; My heart demands something more lasting, My soul must be satisfied too, I've found a new life in Jesus, To please Him is all my delight, I now have a purpose for living, My hope for the future is bright. I've found a new life in Jesus, My world of tomorrow looks bright; The darkness that once did surround me, Is lost in its heavenly light......

My email is deenajones@yahoo.com