i wont need pleasurable indulgences, and i have not been to many parties that were worth going to so no loss there :) i don't see why i would have an eternal regret by sticking by what i believe to be right.

You are right, i may have a Catholic Background but i still disagree with some things. For one, i don't believe in hell. i will simply cease to exist as anything more than a collection of molecules, having no conciousness left with only the differences i have made to some peoples lives to show i ever existed. They too will die out. Which in my opinion is worse.

I really want to believe, i really do. To believe in Heaven and angels etc. It would be so...liberating. I don't just don't think i have the ability too. I am too empirical.

you are right, loving and lusting for flesh are two different things
but so are physical love and lusting for flesh
its the difference between making love and f**king
one is meaningful and symbolic, the other is not