To start let me say all though my life i was taught that god was real. As a kid i attended church and Sunday school. As a teen i didn't pay much attention to him except to think i knew he was real. All though those years i only wanted to believe in god and honestly it was only half-heartedly. It wasn't until 1992 when i graduated from high school and joined the Navy that i learned just how real he was. You see personally speaking i have a really hard time with people that have control over me. So boot camp was an extremely hard time for me. Some time into it my company commander didn't like me i didn't have too many friends and i was hating life. With all these things and the fact that i felt trapped i was contemplating killing myself. Now as a kid i had taken and asked god to forgive my sins and take me into his hands. In other words i asked god as a kid to forgive my sins an accepted him as my savior. Mind you this was as a kid and i personally do not think a kid can do that (really anyways). So one night while in boot camp i prayed to god. I once again accepted him as my savior but while praying i told him i wanted him to prove himself to me where there was no doubt no argument that could persuade me that he did in fact do it. I must of prayed for a good 10 to 15 minutes that night. That night i had also decided that in the morning if he didnt come to me i would go though with the suicide. I was going to jump off a bridge that was there during the morning run and that would be that. Well and this is the best part of the story, and understand that my depression was so deep that i didn't see a way out. I woke in the morning with such a joy and excitement and a love in which i had never felt before. All i wanted to do is goto a church and sing (I am personally to shy to sing in front of people) but i could now. I cant explain the true feelings i was feeling. All i can say is that i believe that god showed me what heaven itself will be like. The joy and happiness is so intense its indescribable. I knew without a doubt that god himself touched my heart. He actually came and touched me in such a way that i could not argue it. Any thought of suicide were gone and only thing i wanted to do is praise his being. I have never forgotten that day because to me that is the day he honestly saved me. I just wanted to share my story with you all Thank you for reading it =)