So as you know from my recent post, I fasted for the first time in my life. I chose to fast and pray for three days for the deliverance of my drug addicted sister. However, in the midst of it I felt that God saw it fit to change me instead. I was given two dreams during my fast. One of them was about several small fires that were ablaze all over my neighborhood showing me that he was refining and changing me. In the second dream my sister in the was on the other side of a door and I would not let her in to help her because she was high and just as I woke up Gods voice said "Behold I stand and the door and knock!" So He definitely showed me my unwillingness associate with and help her. In all actuality, during these hard times with my sister, I got so tired of being hurt and depressed and caring about her when she doesn't care about herself, that I got the point where I just started fanning her off and shutting her out of my life because it's just easier for me not to deal with her at all. So I used the excuse that I gave it to God so that I would not have to have her in my life anymore. So He showed me that when I reject her, I am directly rejecting Him also, and that cut me pretty deep. The last thing I would ever want to do is reject God. Either way, I learned a lot about myself during those three days. I was talking with my husband about it all and he was telling me how much I was changing and it really made for an emotional moment because during my fast I felt like I was so far away. Even though I was still here going to work and participating in every day life, my mind was so focused on God that I checked out for a while. That's the best way I could describe it. It was amazing and from this experience, I have experienced just how near I can draw to God if I just deny myself and make the conscious choice to put him first. I got so much out of those three days and I know that I will definitely fast more and more in the future. Thank you to those who prayed!

Your sister in the Lord,
Hannah B.