Greetings in behalf of our Lord Jesus Christ...

I am a Christian who has been struggling to stop and break free from my bondage of sin. I have been downloading and collecting pornographic videos which I use to physically gratify myself.

I have been struggling with this for years now and I really want to stop. There were times that I thought I was able to stop. I prayed hard to the Lord. I destroyed all my DVD collections but before knowing it I was already back in the habit downloading and collecting again.

I am not new to the faith and have been a Christian for years now. To make things worse I am a front liner of my church. I am a singer who sings often in my church. People had been telling me how blessed they were listening to me and how God has used me with my talent but deep inside it’s tearing me apart. I know and He knows I don’t deserve what people had been telling me. If only they knew the truth about my deep struggle.

Please believe me that when I sing I really do pour out my love for the Lord. I do love Him with all my heart but I’m really having a hard time letting go of my bondage. I really want to stop hurting God and deceiving people in my church. I know because of my sins I have been missing the joy, peace, and blessings God has intended for my life.

I chose this venue to express and come to the open because I’m so ashamed and embarrassed to say anything to anyone in my church. I need all the help I can get. I am desperately in need of a miracle. I don’t want my sin to rule over my life. Please pray for me.

Sincerely Yours,

Struggling Singer