Thank you. I must admit that I do still have natural parents its just their not with me nor ever really helped me after I grew up and moved away from them. I'm a second child and they really just neglected me and I never really bothered with them. After 2000 I hadn't really live anywhere but by myself and its become that much harder because when I worked I could mask the pain but as you can see from my email I couldn't keep that either. But deep inside I was struggling with a addiction that to this day I don't know what to do on because I keep falling. What should I do?