That is so amazing that you were so close to God. To read how hard you've had it and to be able to not turn to evil is a blessing.

Your post was so insightful and inspirational, being that I am trying to develop a relationship with the Lord.

It must have been a wonder, peaceful existence. I recall once in my life, for about a week I had no anxieties, fears, no lieing, it was just me and the Lord. I was so peaceful, I have never lived like that, ever. That did not last too long, only a week, and my life went to "hell" from there on.

I will pray that you will be able to walk with God in surrender, even though I am not in surrender.
Perhaps we can pray for each other, and all to be able to walk with God in surrender.

God Bless,

Christina :-)