>< just veri confused as to how i am goin to get to such a stage =( lol... there are things i know i need to do to be right with God, but these things just seem to fall out of place the more i think about it T.T. Whether it be my laziness, doubt or insecurity they always seem to foil my attempts at having a closer walk with Jesus ><.

*points at computer games* BAD THINGS D= LOL.

Right now i think recieving the empowering of the Holy Spirit will be a tremendous thing for me when it happens. I hope it happens soon to ! >< Till then >=) i'll be studying the Bible and other articles / books on faith and His promises to build my faith up and understanding of what He has for me. I feel at times dissapointed that though i have been a believer for so long that i still know so little >< !!! All that time i have wasted D=...

Father God continue to witness to me !