I pray for you that the Lord opens the door for you to live in a better environment.

Remember that if you want to draw near to God, He loves that and doesn't look at your previous failings at all, so long as you don't intend to continue in them.

Never allow condemnation to rob you of joy if its your purpose to live with God. Also God will make a way of escape for every temptation. Its His promise. 1 Corinthians 10:13.