Well welcome home My DAD used to keep a close watch on me cause I was sensitive to the Spirit world.I am sorry your life has been hard but praise God he delivered you from all that bondage,it must have been really hard I am sorry you were hurt so much by others and yourself.But God will teach you you are a daughter and to be a loved one at that.I love you in Jesus if it means anything and I will pray for you I will ask for joy to be your guide you have earned her company.
Do not worry I was just insulted by some person I admired a lot and really shocked about a few other things God helps us forgive and forget I love you in Christ many others do too.