You do not say if you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior....That is the first step....There are ministries through out the world that do deliverance in the name and through the Blood and the power of Jesus Christ....Just by the little bit that you wrote I would say that there along with being demonized that you have inherited generational demons....The devil and his demons use fear along with lies to keep people from God who loves them...The devil and his demons are out to lie to you, kill you, to deceive you, trap you and do everything possible to utterly destroy you....There is absolutely no way that God hates you...You are in His thoughts constantly...His love for you is eternal that means it will last forever and you do not have to do anything to make Him love you....God wants only want is best for you and He has a perfect plan for you and the devil does not want this plan to succeed and will do everything to keep it from happening...You are very precious to God...Jeremiah 29:11 states this and is true since it comes from the very mouth of God "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope"