For years i lived in sin. I drank alcohol every night. Occasionally i did cocaine or meth. I worked in night clubs for years. I married for the third time and 2 years later quit the club life but continued to drink. My children went through puberty and became extremely rebellious.My husband and i fault continuously.
At night i reached for a quart of beer and drownded all my sorrows Things got worse.The beer started to make me even more depressed than i was before drank it. I felt like i was in a dark depressing whirlwind.I would sit outside at night ad pray crying out for help. This went on for close to a year.
Finally, one night i cried out to God in desperation, Lord whatever it takes take away my desire to drink. Or let me die tonight in my sleep.
The next day i was even worse . I drank to six packs of beer. My kids were fighting. I went outside to get away. My daughter came outside and started hollering at me. I told her i couldn't take it any more.
What did she want me to do? Kill myself. Than i came inside i grabbed a bottle of pills. I poured a handful and went to take them.Something stopped me. I took a few and through the rest to the ground.
My daughter called 911. I was infuriated .When they got here i refused to go with them. Non-the less they took me anyway. After i was released from the hospital. They took me over to the local psychiatric unit.
I was there for 24 hours. Locked up in the back with people who were in there for a very long time. I saw allot of things as i sat on a cold bench the only furniture except an overhead tv and the nurses desk. One woman followed the nurses around begging for a beer.
A teenage girl was walking around i spoke to her she seemed perfectly normal. I wondered why she was in the back locked up. Within the hour i found out why. She started to suddenly scream. 6 nurses ran and grabbed her. She thrashed about wildly. Shouting Lucifer, Lucifer. And other demonic things. They tired her to her bed. It was like a scene out of the exorcist.
Their were people who had , had nervous break-downs. People just staring into space. It was terrible. People who had gone over the edge because of Alcohol or drugs. The nurses seemed cold as ice.
I just sat there and watched. It was almost like i was watching a
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