asking for forgiveness from God

I am with a nature of a man who can't be contented with what I have right now. It hurts me when I realize that its not good at all. I'm fighting for against this feeling but I can't help it. Oh God I ask for your forgiveness and understanding. You know what I exactly feel and it causes me so much pain and anger. I surrender to you everything 'coz I give up. Change this feeling that is killing me inside before I could never be the one you wanted me to be. If you could possibly make me your puppet then make me be the one that I could no longer feel anything. I'm tired and loses my hope of everything I longs for..Please control my mind and if possible even my emotions..

Please pray for me..