My Deliverance Experience – Brandi Winemiller
For most of my life I have been very confused and did not know who I was, what I was and where I belonged. I was so hopeless to the point of suicide at times even after becoming a Christian. I always thought every one disliked me, was out to get me or didn’t care about me. I felt like I was a nothing and wondered why God bothered to create me and thought that I would be been better off aborted and even at times wished that I was aborted so I could be out of my misery.
I had suffered a lot of abuse and poor treatment verbally, emotional and even physically by those that were supposed to love me and care for me and by people who said they were my friends and even those that were not friends. I was even hurt badly by many Christians.
All of this coupled with my disabilities which cause people to treat me unfairly and made me feel like an outcast; did a lot of emotional and mental damage. I began to hate myself, hate people and hate life all together. I was given so many false hopes and empty promises I became very doubtful of people and even God. I developed an “I will believe it when I see it attitude”. My own family had rejected me prior to birth and continued to after birth.
I suffered so much rejection that I began rejecting myself. I felt worthless and useless. This became such a problem for me that I began to distrust people to the point of accusing them of rejecting me or being unfair or mean to me.
I had so much noise in my head and was hearing so many negative thoughts. I could not determine if it they were mine or the enemies. I knew the enemy puts thoughts there but my thoughts were so clouded up I was not able to see the truth. I was believing these thoughts running around in my head about how bad I was and how bad people are and how they don’t care about me. I could not even think straight. I was so full of confusion, thinking was a real challenge at times. I was not even able to be my own person. I could not decided on simple things in life because of all the confusion and noise in my mind.
I at time felt like I was not in control if my thoughts and feelings. I was controlled by people and by demonic forces in people and in myself. Not being able to be in control scared me. I would try to take control but it never worked.
I was in so much torment by demons that I was causing many problems in my life. I was driving people away from me. I was driving myself away from the Lord and I was driving myself to not liking me self. I felt so trapped and lost. I thought that I was never going to get relief from all the torment in my life.
I was being so tormented that I blamed and distrusted God and would not let Him have full reign in my life. I wanted to trust Him but I did not know how nor did I feel I could. I felt like He had let me down along with the rest of the people that let me down time and time again. I would blame Him for how bad things were in my life and was not able to hold on to His promises spoken in His Word. Deliverance Over Several Months
I have received much deliverance over the past several months. It has helped a lot as a lot of the noise in my head stopped and I was not so confused any more. I was learning how to tear down all the wrong thinking in my mind and how to see where all the thoughts were coming from. It took a long time for me to be able to start changing the way I was thinking. I would try so hard at times and it seemed no matter how hard I tried and no matter how many demons where cast out, I was not able to keep them out because I was still having such a hard time with learning to think positively and see myself the way the Lord sees me. The wrong thinking patterns where so deeply embedded that it made it nearly impossible to change them.
Over the last several months I have learned so much about myself and who I am in Christ. I learned some hard things and some great things. As I began to see things the way the Lord sees them, I began to want more of the things of God and to learn more. I began to cry out to God for total deliverance. I was tired of all the torment in my life and all the confusion in my mind. I was begging for some one to help me and was begging for a complete deliverance to be done.
The Lord began to prepare me for it by having people do minor deliverances and get rid of some of the things that were standing in the way of my total deliverance. I started reading some books that helped me tear down many of deeply entangled strongholds in my mind, about how the enemy works in our lives, and how to deal with the enemy. I spent a lot of hours in God’s word and in books as well as in prayer and listening to many men and women of God talk about the very things that were problems or issues in my life. A lot of this hurt but I endured it because I knew it was what I needed in order to be free.
As I got closer to freedom the enemy really tired hard to keep me from it by putting roadblocks of all kinds in my way. He would cause me to fall back in to wrong thinking patterns and wrong ways of seeing things or he would cause me to pick on people, and cause strife and division between those around me. I hated it every time this happened. I felt like I was always in a no win situation and thought I was never going to be able to get out of it or change it for the better. I often times felt hopeless and thought many times of just giving up on the idea of getting freedom.
Despite all the disappointments, failures, trails, hurts and torment’ there was still a light burning in me that wanted to try and continue to try and gain my freedom. I was still not sure it was going to happen but I hoped for it and begged God for it. I finally got so disgusted with the way my life was, I cried out to the Lord and told Him I was willing to do what ever it takes to get free and stay free. I told Him I was willing to allow Him to do what ever He felt needed to be done to change me so that I can be the person He created me to be.
After the Lord spent the last several months preparing me for deliverance, I was finally ready for a complete deliverance. I was so excited that this day had finally come. I was also a little nervous at the same time. I knew what to expect but I knew this was going to be such a radical change for me. I was ready for it and was so thrilled that the Lord was answering my prayer for deliverance. During Deliverance
During my deliverance session, I was feeling very anxious, uptight and some what confused. I had all kinds of thoughts running through my head about this not working and how this is a waste of time. I was also feeling like my skin was crawling.
As demons where being cast out, I was hacking and yawning. My body was feeling very weak and wore out. I was told that if I could not handle any more that they would stop the deliverance. I was so determined to get free I was willing to go all the way no matter how tired and wore out I was.
I had to go through some very painful memories during the process to be able to get rid of some of the major demons that have been there for so long. I knew before hand I was going to have to do this as the Lord had showed me this a few days earlier so that I would be ready for it when it came time to go through this. Even with the prior warning, it was still a hard thing to do. I was crying like a baby. It hurt so much to deal with these things but after it was over with, I felt so much better.
I was feeling things moving around in my body as the demons were found out. I could feel many of them trying to resist having to leave. They tightened up my neck, caused pain in my back and in my head.
I was surprised by many of the things that were found in my life, Some of the demons I had, I thought that I could never have them types of demons but I was shown the many ways these ugly things came in. I had to do some hard looking at myself during the deliverance.
I also felt the power and presence of the Lord like I have never felt as He touched my body, mind and soul. I was able to feel the walls in my mind coming down and my body becoming more peaceful. When the walls were coming down I was feeling a melting sensation in my head. It was an awesome experience. When C. laid hands on me several times I could feel heat radiating from her hands and I could feel a force of energy flowing through her hands. I could also feel the Lord presence in like a cloud all around me. It was so beautiful.
When the deliverance was over, I was feeling so loose, so free, so calm and so peaceful. I was also rejoicing over what had just taking place in my life. I was FINALY FREE!!!! After Deliverance
After my deliverance, the enemy really hit me hard with all kinds of thoughts going through my head and all kinds of feelings. I was feeling very stirred up inside. I felt like I was in a fog. For the rest of that evening and the next day I was so tired and week, I was also very hungry physically. My appetite went into overdrive to catch up with my being so worn out.
I have many thoughts about how this was not real and how I wasted every ones time and now it is not going to work. I was also being tempted with situations where I could have been easily offended, or rejected of left out. I tried as hard as I could to resist these ugly thoughts. I did lose it one time but I immediately repented and dealt with it before it could cause any further problems.
I spent a lot of time coughing, yawning and sneezing as demons continued to leave my body. They are still leaving at the time of this writing.
I feel so much better, so much freer, and there is no confusion in my mind. I can think clearly for once in my life. I feel like I finally have control over my thoughts and the way I think.
I feel like all the blocks in my life have been removed and I can go on with the lord. I have a much stronger desire to be in the presence of the Lord, read and study His word and spend time in prayer. Prior to deliverance, these things were much harder for me. Now they are becoming easier and easier as time goes by.
I am so happy and so full of joy. I have never had this much joy and peace in my life before. It is taking some getting used to. It is also taking time to get used to being free. I feel like I don’t know what to do with myself right now. I know that sounds strange but that is how I feel right now. It is a good feeling though. I feel so much lighter and freer. If gravity was not here, I feel like I could just float away.
There is still some stirring going on and I am still having to fight all the thoughts really hard. It is a hard battle but I am determined to fight this and keep my deliverance. I do not want the enemy to ever have a foothold in my life again. I know he is really mad right now and he is really trying hard to keep me from keeping my deliverance. I am going to fight this all the way. I am going to stay free.
I want to become the person God created me to be and I want to be able to be used by the Lord. I want the Lord to be able to shine through me all the time and for people to be able to see what the Lord can and will do for them in their lives. I want people so see and understand that their lives can be radically changed just like mine was through His power and through the power of deliverance and inner healing. I want to be used mightily in the hands of the Lord!
I will not stand for being used by the enemy any more. The enemy’s days of using my mind as his playground and using me to be a hindrance are OVER in Jesus name. I will not stand for it any more!!!!! Thanks
I love the Lord so much and He is so precious to me. I thank Him all the time for my deliverance and for answering my prayer for deliverance and freedom. I also thank Him for putting two awesome deliverance ministers in my life and for putting them together for my deliverance. I thank the Lord for two people that care so much about His kids that they are willing to spend their time setting them free.
I want to thank you both C. and Pastor G. for being obedient to the Lord and for putting up with me all this time. Thank you for taking the time to help me and do deliverance on me. Thank you for seeing me through this mess and teaching me the things that I needed to learn to be able to receive deliverance.
You two are so precious to me and I know your precious to the Lord. Keep up the great work and keep setting the captives free!! I know the Lord will reward you both for what you have done here and what you will do for many countless others who are bound up.
It takes a special person to be able to do this kind of thing and both of you have that specialness about you. Your both full of love and compassion for the hurting world. When I look at the two of you, I see the Lord in you, and through you.
The Lord made a wise choice when you called the two of you into deliverance.
I love you both even though you ruffle my feathers at times.
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