I have been seeing changes in myself for the worst lately. I have been sucked into pornography, video games, and self-gratification. About 2 months ago I was fasting and praying for the Baptism of the Holy Spirit and for a cleansed and pure heart and after not receiving it, I became very bitter and basically gave up. I stopped reading the Bible and started giving myself to the lust of the flesh. Every now and then I become overwhelmed with guilt and seek forgiveness and maybe read a chapte4r or two in the Bible, but for the most part, I seem to be the old sinful man I used to be. Now I don’t even seek forgiveness and I read the Bible only to drown out other people. Part of me wants to stay this way and get even more into the things I’m doing, but another part wants to get the fire for Jesus back. I need prayer, I’m not sure what to do to go that direction for good.