Backsliding, I need a new start.

I have been seeing changes in myself for the worst lately. I have been sucked into pornography, video games, and self-gratification. About 2 months ago I was fasting and praying for the Baptism of the Holy Spirit and for a cleansed and pure heart and after not receiving it, I became very bitter and basically gave up. I stopped reading the Bible and started giving myself to the lust of the flesh. Every now and then I become overwhelmed with guilt and seek forgiveness and maybe read a chapte4r or two in the Bible, but for the most part, I seem to be the old sinful man I used to be. Now I don’t even seek forgiveness and I read the Bible only to drown out other people. Part of me wants to stay this way and get even more into the things I’m doing, but another part wants to get the fire for Jesus back. I need prayer, I’m not sure what to do to go that direction for good.

What do YOU think?



  1. jesseedavis says:

    I haven’t done to great since my last post, I’ve done some horrible things, but I have placed things in the hands of our Lord and I trust Him to work this out and help me through it. I would like to ask of one favor, I need an accountability partner. I can’t seem to be committed to study. I get into something and have trouble finishing it. I think of something and either before I can even start it, or right after I get started, I get burnt out or distracted or something else. There’s a lot I want to accomplish, but I guess if I want to keep from getting overwhelmed or burnt out, I need to start small. Please help and thank you!

  2. it is a constant war between the spirit and the flesh, a battle for the soul. Obviously the enemy wants each believer to go back from God and live in the flesh, with all its desires; then there is the constant wooing of the Precious Holy SPirit, that i believe is there to guide us, lead us, deliver us, keep us. It is up to each indivudual as to whom he surrenders to, will it be our flesh or to God. Please get into Gods Word, for guidance, may i suggest a prayer of repentance first….as i belive that you truly want to be back into the will of GOd…..He wants that for you as well…. Be encouraged….i will pray for you….”Rene”

  3. You are not worse than Saul of Tarsus, so don’t think bitter of yourself. Repent and turn and God will forgive you. God is going to give you fresh start. You can contact me and I’m willing to help you get on with the race. Just write me here: [email protected]_hoo._co_m remove all “-” and “_”

    Tit 2:11-12 For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live sober

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